We juz cant do w/o luv

2009-07-08T11:22:00.002+08:00

All the Astroboi n girls are falling sick.. tis is real bad.. its nt h1n1, its nt h1n1... GET WELL SOON ALL!!! esp bern n jill.. ALL take care n drink lots of water k? *says a prayer for em*

i dunno if i can call tis H1N1 symptom nt.. cuz my cough, running nose, mild fever is take turns come 1.. 1 leave the other come.. their relay nt bad.. pass baton so fast n smooth 1.. damn sian..

been rotting 2days at home le.. its realli quite sian had it nt been for meng chat on msn.. even wahjong oso boring le.. sian.. is it realli a sign to start on 1102? damn sian..

somehow i'm turning all cold again.. building up tt barrier, holing up again. sometimes i realli wonder if i'm autistic.. I WANNA CYCLE AGAIN!!

2009-07-07T09:18:00.002+08:00

I is super bored.. kena quarantine til sat nite.. sian.. but anyhow i oso shd b larz. been on a coughing fit since i returned frm camp and having a temp whenever it rains.. its the paranoia but still better safe than sorry.. anyhowz, camp was fun.. hahah. ASTRO rawkz.. and this the 1st time my shoulder/upper arm aint peeling.. hahaha.. it was totally tiring and shagness, nt enuf sleep pluz have to keep zi high-ing, and muz oso take care of ppl 1st.. I kinda miss this feeling of having smth to work for, esp to put others b4 u.. kinda realli like those OAC dayz.. well time cant b turned back..

been having some problems again lately.. i juz cant trust myself anymore.. wad i say, wad i do.. i dun even noe wat i'm doing anymore.. am i actually trying to fool myself or am i realli tis bastardy weird.. haiz.. it sucks to b me

*cough cough* time for med.. haiz.. my dad realli treating me like h1n1 suspect.. sian.. oh wells.. I WANT MY TUNA BELLY!!!!! grrrrrr.. foood!! gd foooooooooooood!! u're all so gonna disappear into my tummy come sun.. haiz

2009-06-24T22:15:00.004+08:00

"A shitty day ends after the clock strikes 12midnite. A new one awaits"

it finally drizzled the whole day.. good stuff.. the 1st afternoon when it wasnt hot for quite some time le.. its good for napping! hahaha.. my bio-clock totally needs to be recalibrated.. sleeping at 3am n waking to find the sun straight over head or in fact past half its journey.

rain now is gd.. rain now is gd.. juz hope nxt week no rain.. haha.. n no H1N1. cuz camps are inching closer n closer. But that of course also means school's slightly over 1month away. Means back to all the travelling to school, sleeping during lessons, rushing tutorials and projects, hanging out with friends, slacking when i shd be studying.. i kinda miss all that. weird..

2009-06-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

back again.. have enjoyed much of my hols w/o much worries other than those of financial origins.. still, managed to spurge a bit at PC show.. got a new mp3 player.. hahah.. flew the flyer, camped wif more adorable adolescents, walked more ridges and hanging bridges n this n that n lots more.. camps are coming up!! realli hope to have tons of fun!!

anyway.. kinda down again.. again its my insensitive nature.. i juz dunno when to shuddup dun i.. ziah.. sorries!! (but “If everything can be settled by the word sorry, why would then law and police exist?” )

anyway, was so kinda bored again this hols so started on yet another manga series.. its called Eyeshield 21, bout American Football in a japanese high skool.. kind of a cool manga..

meet wif xl on sat.. took a 1min and 20s elevator ride up tt iluma escalator.. we're so totally bored out on a sat afternoon.. lolx

2009-05-23T01:48:00.005+08:00

sometimes I could be so childish still. i seriously need to grow up. And as people around me can testify all too often, I'm bad at controlling my temper and most, if not all, of the time i end up causing harm. sigh. GROW UP DES!!

anywayz, finally back here 'cuz the itch is here again. haha. and its been a whooping 19days of post exams activities so far. been quite enjoyable except for those little down time here and there when i'm super bored at home. been out with sisters for KTV, badminton, shopping, movies, and also just random slacking around. also caught up with xl over the manu-arsenal match. watching korean drama serials, boyz over flowers, which von claims is ghay for a guy to watch. also managed to catchup with audrey and jas b4 jas flies off to US. still has 2+months of hols to enjoy. would be heading out to a volunteer camp nxt mon to wed tho. hope it'll be fun again this time round.

needs to:

-clear my table and tidy up my already slightly tidier room.

-head down to polyclinic to get my long overdue referal letter.

-start on cs1102c

-work out more (been slowing down after that fast start)

-consider investment in a portable stereo headphone or a bicycle. more research needed.

anyway i simply love this image everytime i see it. haha.

2009-05-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

heavy heart. don't think i can sleep. and would just blank out in tomorrow's exams. oh well.. shall just crap some rubbish out tmr.

went to read about other people's plight and also their pains. i dun dare say i understand what's happening/what happened, but i do know pain is universal. it just manifest itself in all kind of different ways. in the end, it either kills us or make us stronger.

drained. tired. alltherubbishintheworldandicarenutsaboutit.

2009-05-03T18:24:00.003+08:00

Less than a day away, my final exams as a freshie will be over. somehow i don't feel at all happy. its as if that feeling when A lvls were just over and i didn't know what to do from there, how to get on with life. Emptiness is not what you'd expect from a half-full glass, but somehow its spreading from within me like a plague.

was bored out of my mind just now. took SOME time off from trying to cramp in concepts to surf around. read a lot of interesting things that i hardly knew. changed perceptions of things that happened and defined things. But still, who am i to judge? Just because i'm now looking from afar? I'd be succumbing to hindsight biasness.

I want to cycle once again.
To ride alone, to venture into the unknown.
I want to run in the rain.
To break away from the shackles of our conscious mind, to cuddle against myself in the cold.
I want to live with pain.
To be able to taste the sweetness of joy, to appreciate the europhia of victory.

I care not a bit about people's suffering now. for now i have a cold heart. a heart devoid of feelings. yet i know i care a lot. i care about things that do matter. i care about things that matter not only to my conscious-mind, but to my answers to my sub-conscious. somehow i need answers, and i don't need it from anywhere else. i need it from myself. If "i" dare to speak, then hopefully I've spoken.

Escapism is my way of dealing with problems i feel are too tough to tackle. I know it doesn't solve the problem. but has this occured to anyone before; What if i'm the problem?

cycled last night. wanted to cycle to amk or thomson, 'cus i know i can get a bite there. ms mei jio me go kovan eat, n mrchua joined us from his mj as well. i'm enjoying my life as if my exams are over. yeah rite. which reminds me... correct me if i'm wrong, but the paper i'm sitting for tmr is called MNF1001, Msn-ment and Facebook-anisation right? I've been mugging so hard for it today, trying to figure out any new updates so i can ace my exams tmr. i wish. anyhow, screw mno. or rather, let it screw me tomorrow. just enjoy the ride in the 2hrs in the exam hall, and head to nus website to declare s/u on 29th may. see, i'm practising cognitive dissonance. trying to rationalize what is obviously a disagreement between my actions and my perceptions.

after exams:
-new bicycle? but my budget only $100.
-running/cycling regime. I might be pes E now, but you never know how long ns.sg is gonna cock-up.
-hang out with sisters n tofu!
-badminton.
-look for whatever nice scenery my little compact can do justice to its beauty.
-date bab out for chill session. maybe even MU-Arsenal match.
-start 1102C, under strong advice from mrchua.
-turn that dry-kitchen of mine back into my haven. after all, my dad's birthday's sometime this month.
-race 7. oops. almost forgot about it.
-pack my room.
-find nj-oacians. i miss one of the the happiest days of my study life so far.

2009-05-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

went running yest night. realised i could actually run a lil faster, feel tired a little later. Is that a good sign that my fitness is returning or just that the weather is so much cooler and less harsh at night? ran to potong pasir PCN up to bishan park. somehow just didnt feel like turning back, so took a refreshing stroll in bishan park, before walking to amk central. regretted not bringing along my ez-link, so had to walk all the way back home. Singapore might be an urban concrete jungle, but late into the night, its just full of empty streets and deserted roads, amidst it all being well lit. The pace of life here has made it so hectic, that being out at night really allows you to slowly take in sights and sounds you don't see, observe in the day. Or rather, bother to slow down to observe.

3yrs' passed. changes have sank in.
but my mind, still prefers to throw reality in the abyss of memories, and let it fade gently away..

2009-05-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

found the want to blog all over again. its a want, nt a need.. mayb juz 1-off. but still, could b bothered enuf to change e blogskin. Has plenty of burning questions now. looking for answers. Kinda feels dumb nt knowing enough.

Exams are gonna b over pretty soon. 3more days. Ain't exactly studying now, and nt thinking of how to start. More like thinking, if i S/U, can i perform better nxt sem on? auuu, the unknown. Human's greatest fear. After that, i'm gonna make every minute worth it. Have some plans, but nt sure how to carry it out yet. Shall plan tmr. Somehow i think i'd miss school, esp hanging out wif sisters and friends. Speaking of which, uni life can be a drain, but am glad i have friends arnd, really. Almost 1yr of uni life has passed by, and here i'm still pondering what i really want out if this. Such a big diff frm jc life. Back then i thot i knew roughly what i wanted, and set out to it. The ends brought about the means. Would probably continue with ISE, no matter how little i feel i know about it. Afterall, if i truely want to leave my mark on earth, it doesn't really what i end up doing in the future. That'll juz differ in how i bring it about. Uni life's had its up and downs. Finding a niche here is really nt easy. It doesnt require committment; that has to come straight from the heart. & somehow, i've lost tt. somewhere. Anyhowz, my grades ain't actually that bad. I know i can do better, that's why i'm disappointed. This sem has been much better tho, mayb its caused i've began to adapt.

On a lighter note, attended NTU bike rally. smth i'd b very proud of. reminds me that i haven't really lost my will, my determination yet. It was fun, cycling through all the ups and downs of SG. Had to push myself, give that little more, go that extra revolution. Had to fight off near cramps, fatigue. Its all in the mind. But i got to cycle in the rain, smth i've really wanted to do. Just run around in the rain, carefree from the worlds. Mayb i've got no childhood.. haha.. or is it just our parents saying we'd all get sick from staying in the rain? Hope it rains today, feel like walking in the rain again (plus its so zZz%&#@ hot) but gotta waterproof my stuff.

3mths plus' up. Can donate blood again. Who's interested? its gonna be harder this time round tho. Dun think can just pop down to NUH to donate, given the swine flu and all. Whats more, all the healthcare workers are most prob all tied down wif the epidemic at hand. Its really times like this, when I'd scream at myself, Y'd i even give up? give up on doing what i really feel wld make a difference juz cuz i think bio is hard? But anyhows, i wanna donate blood soon. Any1 care to join?

tt was some load off my mind. cools. back to finding answers

2007-05-27T03:43:00.000+08:00

woah.. how time flies.. cant realli b bothered 2 update tis place.. life's in a mess now.. haha.. hrmx.. think time flew by so fast i cant realli rmb much.. look forward to weekend's book out ba.. haha.. army makes ppl stupid.. n i'm succumbing to it.. well.. e most recent self-improvement book i read was on c-chess, which i totally gave up on cuz it juz doesnt make sense.. at least all those on i-chess were better.. haha.. guess e most notable time during tis period of absense was tt i failed my btt.. lolx.. i noe all u out there muz b thinking "wtf tis guy's an idiot" but hey.. spare a thot 4 me cuz nowadays once i touch books i shd start thinking of playing chess too!! as in playing wif mr ZHOU.. haha.. so yar.. onli did some ultra last min study. which kinda brought me here.. cuz i was doing tis btt dunno-how-many-yrs series which is online tt my frien subscribed 2 for HIS btt n ftt.. got bored after trying juz 200 qns.. zzz.. makes me worry bout my uni life nxt time.. dunno how many &$%# yr nvr touch books le.. as in for knowledge.. sigh.. army makes ppl stupid

other more notable things include pool getting into e champs final for e 2nd time in 3yrs.. yar.. getting into is the word.. sigh.. didnt manage 2 watch it cuz i asked friens frm outside my bunk 2 wake me up.. n guess wad.. 1 of my ^#*%$@ bunkmate locked e bunk!!! was damn pissed e whole of e nxt day n i guess my trainees cld sense it as well.. oops.. such unprofessional behaviour.. well.. at least frm wad i read e better team did win.. so jtb pool.. time 2 "rebuild"!! perhaps he can considering playing more of gonzalez than zenden.. think he realli has potential..watched e match tt bid farewell 2 fowler.. memoriable man, given wad he's done in e past. sad it didnt end on a better note.

on e other hand.. GSS is here.. so can look 4ward 2 improving my wardrobe a bit.. everytime i see e same 4 jeans i sian diao plus have 2 start worrying bout working attire.. needa get smth formal n stop relying on my dad's super duper baggy pants.. nt tt its hip or wad.. juz erm.. u can say our sizes aint tt matching.. haha.. come 2 think of it.. i'm growing more horizontally 2 b like him alr.. nt gd at all.. damn unfit le larz.. somemore nowadays when i walk even slightly faster my heel will hurt a bit.. still havent gotten tt heel cup or wadeva it is tt e mo recommended i buy.. sigh.. my fitness

how long will tis last? tts smth even i myself cant even ans.. it all boils down btw u n dad.. i realli dun wish 2 see it happening u noe.. everytime dad brings up e matter i'd juz turn on my mp3 n lock myself in.. i dunno.. i mean yar.. i'm at fault.. wad kind of a idiot am i.. i didnt even help in e matter or wadever.. n all i do is get angry at myself n u n dad.. but then.. i'm realli afraid out here u noe.. i juz dun wanna go in n make things worse than they alr are, which i noe i'm so totally capable of n very very very likely 2.. escaping is e onli option i have n i think it finally dawned on u after like.. 1yr? but realli.. its nt tt i hate u or wad.. i juz dunno how 2 face u.. n more impt.. i dunno how 2 face myself.. sigh

so many pressing issues on my mind now.. so much 2 think bout.. so lil time.. i'm realli realli burnt out.. znais.. still i put up a front.. i juz dun wanna break down.. nt again.. nt after wad happened last time.. pluz nt under my current state.. baah baah baah.. i need some senseless fun soon.. lolx.. so looking forward 2 simpsons.. haha

oh.. i cant wait 4 comex.. my com's g-card is so damn down my monitor is juz a blank.. so now i use my dad's old laptop which has a bloody chinese os.. all inst in chinese.. can u imagine!!! ARGH!! n even his new vista laptop (which i secretly accessed cuz his password is so predictable) is in chinese.. some1 save me!! n my xbox is causinig problems alr.. my fifa06 cant even b played properly.. sigh.. n all my dad did was get a Wii w/o even asking me whether its worth it.. like hello!! i'm e main gamer in tis hse!! wth is a Wii useful of!! i want x360!! sigh.. did i mentioned i'm desperate 4 comex 2 come?! a gd com ld b nice.. esp wif starcraft 2 due late tis yr or early nxt.. lolx.. i muz sound like a spoilt kid

ba.. guess lots wun make sense of all e above.. juz dun.. lolx.. its private space after all.. if u were looking 4 smth else try gaius' blog.. its wonderful e way he writes.. pens down!! n til i feel like writing again, pls contact via sms if interested in finding company.. lolx.. i dun wanna come onto tis com!!!

2006-12-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

went kbox yest again.. like twice in a week(week starts on sun). yar.. nice song

2006-12-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

saw tis while looking 4 my fav song's mv on u-tube. fav manga + fav song = ownage!!!

2006-12-02T02:04:00.000+08:00

haha.. saw tis on some1 else's blog. no wonder i'm a paramedic.. i belong under emergency medicine. haha. sigh.. still deliberating whether to stay in mech eng.

n i needa start e process of getting my driving liscene soon. i'm now a stay-out personal n it'll do me some gd if i get it now wif e free time instead of during skooling i guess.

2006-11-26T11:29:00.000+08:00

Time flies like the Wind, Fruit flies like Bananas!

Well.. its been quite sometime. been 1 quick yr to b exact. wad happened like long time ago is still fresh, but wad happened within the last yr was like a flash. yar.. a camera flash. guess time passes by faster when u count ur yr in terms of weeks, or rather number of weekends. sry, 2 b exact, no of weekends w/o CONFINEMENT.. haha. life's like tt:

1yr ago.. i juz finished fretting over As, starting onli 2 enjoy life after skooling, going for wad i thot wld b my last overseas trip in a long time.
11mth ago i became a bota chao recuit
10mth ago i was trying 2 sleep well under a basha under the heavy cursed rain wif 2 other guys
9mths ago i POP-ed n no longer had 2 b tt bota
8mth ago i had juz returned frm tokyo during block leave n was training in sispec
7mth ago my mum walked out of home whilst i wasnt arnd n i was still QUITE bota preparing form nutcracker n grandslam
6mth ago i passed out of sispec n began training 2 b a medic spec
5mth ago i was still training 2 b a medic spec, staying out then during medical centre attachment which also happened 2 b WC2006 season.
4mths ago i was at AH n BBFS for my hospital n ambulance attachment. realli openned my eyes to how tis ppl save life.
3mth ago i passed out a 3sg. n went KL wif my medics frien.
2mth ago i took in my 1st course of trainees.
1mth ago i was celebrating 1more yr til ord n congratulating e ocs ppl on their 8mths of sufferings so far
now i'm in taiwan, realising tt 50cents is in proj superstar(OMG!) n trying 2 find ppl 2 go comms parade wif me. so much 4 wad i thot wld b my last overseas trip in 2yrs.
10mths frm now i SHD b clearing my leaves n offs
1yr frm now i'd hold my pink ic, n mayb start wondering wad skooling life wld b like.

time flies. 52 weeks passed. 48 more 2 go.

2006-08-27T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting arnd getting fat. more impt, i'm unfit. by my standards' i've nvr felt so tired aft juz a simple walk, the bloody weather nowadays nt withstanding.

useless, cant seem 2 do anything right. juz dun seem 2 b in control of myself anymore. constantly shooting my mouth off. the sky will fall n i'd juz stand there helplessly looking, waiting 2 be crushed. where'd the fighter go?

ystd was sec skool klass gathering. 2+ yrs n we'd still see each other n tok like we've onli juz met up ystd. all e catching up, nt as if we're far away (almoz all o us have e green ic larz). listened 2 mr wang telling us the pathetic state our skool is in now. pains my heart 2 hear e pride o our mother skool diminishing. tt @#$%-ed up head o skool shd juz @#$% off. didnt hear frm any1 there tt there'd b any1 joining delta. well ^o)

i'm losing touch wif myself. my-humane-self. becoming a mere brain behind a keyboard (or keypad wld also do). sooner or later i'd start becoming a robot myself, an expressionless equipment tt can onli =) =( =O n =P. food shd be comsumed so tt'd it'd be combusted 2 provide elect 4 my systems. better still, juz plug myself in. wad happened 2 the me tt was once. did it go missing wif u?

shd start packing for camp le. combat phase tis week. oh, n medics are different. we dun carry field pack. it'd be sent on a tonner; we dun march, nt 2 the objective anywayy. we get brought there on a 5-ton wif all our equipment. we're nearly 2-3k behind friendly lines (or shd be anyway); n aft hearing all e fantastic stories of ROC n brunei, i think the fact tt we get 1x 24hr field ration n are screaming lousy food is too much; n better still luxury items are allowed during field camp. ok, ONE item, but tts alr a bit off. shall bring my fone 2 lentor on thurs n fri. sms me! i mite juz reply wif an mms pic o my bcs. lolx. but we get 2 march 10click wif our dearest tough kelly who by my standard is overweight at 80+kg. he shd slim down, cuz i seriously doubt we'd have a combat fit personal weighing 80kg n still fighting at the frontline. looking 4ward 2 the outfield daze again, b4 i start on my 1yr pluz cv conversion course wif nearly no more outfield as a possible smti instructor. cyaz my fitness!

2006-07-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

More rare than a gem
well.. tt sorta describe my presence here.. haha.. been quite long le.. n guess my weekends are getting more n more busy.. wad wif e frequent dota, sumtimes even overnite, n now wif e WC. oh well.. Juz 2 note tt i'm now a Spec trainee in Nee Soon camp (yes, i'm no longer stuck in tt prison called tekong n tt's been 4 nearly 4 mths alr). training 2 be medic serg. n yesh u heard me rite.. i'm trainging 2 be a GHAY medic.. lolx. tt was my initial rxn when i heard i was posted there aft bslc too. "its slack n all" was wad some o my platoon mates told me.. yar.. but where's e prestige in tt? n serg hui wen was like "its all random larz.. nth 2 do wif ur sexual preference". sigh.. y me?! esp when i came e realise tt my course onli gt a freaking 11ppl!! y oh-so-lucky-me?!?! worse still.. as e days passed i gt 2 realise e amt of studying tt's 2 be done.. FREAKING alot!! n cant sleep during those boring lectures, of which 2 modules consist of BIO!! but still Lima Lima Sierra Tango.. n so aft like 5wks liaoz i've come 2 "ambrace" it.. lolx.. getting too slacked tt doing "transportation o casualty" last week completely shagged e weako me out. but somewhere along e hierachy o instructors.. they've decided tt e WC final is too big an even 4 em 2 miss.. so... my 4 days o medical center attachment is 2 be started tis wed ending next mon, of which everyday is 8-5.. so ALAS!! i get 2 watch e world cup final!!

which brings me on.. e world cup. e joy on realising tt i get 2 watch e final last fri was shortlived. Juz 3 days on n holland were out. wun get 2 feature in e most glorious of all sporting event. sigh.. guess they played realli badly against portugal(tts coming frm aft e reviews in e newspapers). n its nt as if we were able 2 perform in e grp stage. e oranje v coste'd match which i caught had me sitting on e edge o my seat as we sat back n tried e repel waves after waves o ivory coast's attk. sigh.. then spain went out too.. 2 those dinos tt i nvr held respect 4 (blame it on arsenal.. i juz dun like em).. means 2 outta 4 o e teams tt i placed 4 semis position are out. left germany n brazil. germany are realli "up!" they're playing better than last WC.. n klose's still at e top of his game.. pity the performance last nite wasnt tt good.. else i think e scoreline wld have been more imba towards germany. who ask e argens 2 turn towards a defensive play juz after scoring 1. when crespo n riquelme came off.. me n jk were like.. "argen gt play liddat de mehz? where their attk spirit?" it was gd 2 see germany pouring players into e blue halfs aft tt. guess they're still e team o e moment now.. n maybe.. juz maybe.. we'll get e see a replay o last WC final in berlin. juz maybe.

ok.. so i juz wanted to ramble on n on.. guess i juz did.. n since no more random thots are coming 2 me.. i guess it'll end here

2006-04-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

Shucks!

now playing : 曹格- superwoman

2day is a book-in day.. super early somemore.. 1945.. wtf.. i hate book in dayz.. stupids.. makes me feel as if i shd either nvr have booked-out or tt i shd nvr have to book in.. crappy.. e CV relieve shd nvr come in e way it is now.. e mix of military wif cv life is too weird for me to take.. hard to adjuz myself every week or so to switch frm "army men" mode to "teenage civilian" mode.. esp if u have 2 spend e last day of book out preparin 4 book in.. sianz. speaking of which. still havent iron my smartest 4.. tmr gt parade again.. some SWI inspection.. wad on earth's tt?! plz dun make me stone on chevron's sq like tt time during OC inspection when he took (out) his time to (honourably) inspect each n every1 of our bearing n spoke to every trainee. by e end of his inspection my arms were totally numb, wif blood stuck at e veins of my lower arm even though i was constantly wiggling my fingers n could hardly move for the "sedia".. i mean.. he was inspecting 4 platoon size of trainee.. nt to mention an entire platoon minus size of perm stuff.

SISpec is erm.. a better change than bmtc in some aspects.. yet totally cmi in others.. 2 factors y i say so.. 1) trainees. in bmt.. there were ppl of ocs material (n lots of em in whiskey 4) then oso ppl who's att made em 100% commanders-cant-be. n of course.. e half-f*s like me. ppl who cant care wad'll result frm their life in bmt.. ppl who juz wanna do wad their told then let e rest take its course. there were times when i juz realli didnt give a damn.. n nvr realli put my best to it.. like during shellscrape n firetrench digging (e large amt of flemgn in me was a small part of.. but nvr totally y i wasnt fully myself) where i think i disappointed much of me section mates.. then oso times where i was juz out there to give in my 110%.. like during fire movement (oso durin field-camp, when e bloody flemgn n cough was a big fat prob) i enjoyed every part of it wif my grp of my buddy n jim n ultimately wif my section.. e cheong suah which onli our section did.. e fco n e thunderflashes (muahaha) n fighting alongside e ppl whom were so damn gd during bmt. here in SISpec? hell lot more variety of ppl.. some 4eva toking bout crossing over.. some juz too kb.. some blur-cocks.. n e minority who spoils e soup.. those who are so wayang n cao keng i can sense tt aura of (lets juz call it) needa-be-bashed-up-ness frm bunks away. these ppl juz dun give a damn bout others.. until they see e instructors tt is.. wayang kings. these ppl realli make me feel i shdn't be in sispec.. am i realli onli gd enuf to be of e same lvl wif em? i noe i nt kilat larz.. oso dun needa subj me to treatment wif tis kinda ppl rite? if so.. i'd rather be a private than be a serg associated wif tis kinda ppl who spoil e name of e spec.. of course.. there're still ppl like me who're as half-f* as ever.. n thankfully nearly all in my section are like tt.. ppl who complain all day long.. kb bout other sections.. but at e end of e day gets e job done (cuz we are pro @ sucking-thumb). haha.. tok bout section integrity.

2) e premier skool (as pwo3 puts it). 5 bslc coy.. 2 lecture rooms. amazing isnt it. thankfully warrant teo was kind enuf to book e warrant off lect room, else my nagex course will surely end in disaster. 5 bslc coy.. 1 nite fighting equip set to let us have e understanding of it during our nite ops lecture. if i cant launch a proper nite attk.. dun blame me. 7 slc coy.. onli 2+ coy worth of SAR.. how to learn tt weapon properly u tell me? ppl knock here knock there e factory zeroed weapon oso bobo liaoz larz.

i wanna build a team.. 1 capable of boringly soaking up e pressure @ e back.. yet able to move e ball arnd smoothly n beautifully.. 1 made up of individual talents.. yet able to operate as a team.. 1 stylish enuf to make cruyff's oranjes stand in awe.. yet able to depoly counter more efficiently than benitez' pool (we're nt boring k.. juz effective @ counter) 1 built arnd a center of play.. yet making him fade into e play of each other team members.. 1 built for all sorts of playing methods.. yet fits perfectly into my tactic of choice. 1 whose def will make e italian drool.. 1 whose midfield has enuf talent to make barca, argen n brazil fantasize.. 1 whose forwards command respect even frm brazil n england.. 1 whose stylish play make holland, brazil n arsenal look like boys.. 1 whose commitment to teamplay make greece n S.Korea pale in comparison.. 1 team of perfection

tis book out has been xpensive, tiring n xciting. book out thurs nite cheong home change then go nite cycling wif chok, wenfoo n yong sheng liaoz.. as if agr n section movement wif our pc (codenamed mad dog frm his prev unit) wasnt bad enuf. east coast to changi village in 1hr or so.. when last time w/ others we did in wad? 2-3hr? makan.. hit stretch of road pass changi prison museum.. then come to intersection of PIE n some other major e-way.. stranded rite in e mid grass patch w no pavement visible on any road nearby, cept e way we came. in e end cheong to side there.. get across barrier.. bash 50cm across some thick growth thew our bikes 2m off a cement cliff, then ourselves following, n finally reaching civilisation by walking down a slope. crazy us. stopped by at tamp for a break. hit bedok.. stopped for e famous minced meat noodles.. decided to go either town or ecp.. hit joo chiat.. 4 curious, horny bastards went riding thru looking arnd.. call it curiousity cuz onli chok have been thru tt area b4.. hit marine parade.. break n bought poker cards.. hit ecp n off to some card games b4 e 3 of em KO-ed n i rode down to bedok jetty. stoned a while, then myself KO-ed for a while too.. haha. ko-ed at home.. until evening yw n ky said go out (was my plan at 1st. but then they didnt say yesh so i went to zZz more) makan liaoz follow em to recce (cuz onli i pro enuf to nagi.. hah) walk walk walk.. hollan a bit.. hollan-ed a bit more.. n we hit entrance to ecp.. took 400, reached marina bay mrt n off i went to join foo n gang 4 overnite dota.. play break play break.. lolx.. i realised i actually aint tt lousy.. juz quite new. 2nd nite of book out n i still aint sleeping at home. lolx. end up 0930 went dental appointment to get my tooh filled then concuss at home til dinner time. overall.. think i spent 100+ bucks withing those 2 days.. bloody ex.. but then next week i bet i wld hardly even have time to spend e $$$.

use e flanks! rush across e line.. gun down e opponents.. raid e center!! send in e main cavalry.. support fire frm e long shots!! bombard e daylite out of their defences!! make em run!!

incoherent!! but makes perfect sense to me. shagged cannot think bah. haha. tis week's gna be tiring.. tmr gypsy 1 liaoz.. then gypsy 2 tis week oso.. by next week wanderer complete.. section training oso in full swing le.. gonna be proning, hi-kneeling, hugging e ground so much more often le.. nite training oso coming in in large amts.. wonder how tired i'll be next book out.. doesnt help tt tis sat gt nite training till late.. then aft tt i gt cdt duty somemore.. means wun needa book out til sun morn liaoz.. maybe even no book out.. haha. til next time then.

9weeks of BMT (my Golf platoon's self created army song, originating frm ideas in my section. sang to e tune of 12 days of x'mas)

on e 1st week of BMT my oc gave to me.. a chao ah gua as my buddy!!
on e 2nd week of BMT my oc gave to me.. 2 gortex boots, n a chao ah gua as my buddy!!
on e 3rd week of BMT my oc gave to me.. 3 tent pins, 2 gortex boots, n a chao ah gua as my buddy!!
on e 4th week of BMT my oc gave to me.. 4 camo cream, 3 tent pins, 2 gortex boots, n a chao ah gua as my buddy!!
on e 5th week of BMT my oc gave to me.. 5 no. 4s!! 4 camo cream, 3 tent pins, 2 gortex boots, n a chao ah gua as my buddy!!
on e 6th wk of BMT my oc gave to me.. 6 urinals .. (blah blah)
on e 7th wk of BMT my oc gave to me.. 7 cubicles.. (blah blah)
on e 8th wk of BMT my oc gave to me.. 8 shower heads.. (blah blah)
on e 9th wk of BMT my oc gave to me.. P...O...P!!!(blah blah)

2006-03-10T07:21:00.000+08:00

Leaving on a JEt plane

hah.. at changi airport now.. heex. been mia for like 3mths alr.. lolx. was typing a prev post but nt complete yet. haha.. will post frm japan.

we're brothers in arms.. we're brothers proud to be...

2006-01-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

happy new yr!! or rather happy 1 day n almost another day after new yr. haha. didnt feel like blogging de.. but then juz felt like typing smth here so tt it doesnt fade into oblivion.. haha. countdown to NS is in terms of nos of hrs alr.. feeling sianz of life now, but then recently starts getting cold-feet. dunno y.. perhaps juz scared of e unknown ba.. hrmx.. too used to sticking arnd in my comfort zones. sighz

since its a new yr.. i shan't be bothering to blog bout e past liaoz.. (lame xcuse to skip a long blog entry) haha. shall start on nye.. was out wif yc, hengz, shauna, jo, hy, der in town for dinner. then deep n *ahem* joined us 4 dinner, then immediately ps us. haha. went cine to LAN at e new E-gaming zone. place quite cool sia.. haha. CS Source-d until 11 liddat.. then jas joined us n we went down makan. haha. aft tt RUSH to fullerton there watch fireworks. haha. even the MRT we took was speeding lorx. haha. e fireworks was definately splendid.. but as i watch e s'pore gov throw money in e sky in order to usher in a new yr, i wondered how were ppl in africa gonna spend their magic hr a few hrs later than hours. wonder wad will kids in iraq be watching when the clock strike 12: will they get to catch a 10min long fireworks show like us, or perhaps watch yet another of their friens or relative turn into a corpse due to LIVE fire-works exploding on em frm getting caught in a X-fire. oh well.. i guess tis is juz one more of e materialistic exploits of living in s'pore.

anyway aft tt we tried to make our way to city hall mrt. wanted to catch last train at 1st.. but then.. omg!! super congested lorx. pitied e poor drivers who happened to be in tt area at tt time. wah piangz, everywhere u turn u see ppl jaywalking, n drivers cldnt do anything. haha. like pedestrians running over cars liddat. haha. then mrt there so crowded we went to meet kenny while hengz insisted on squeezing into e train. haha. gd for him tt he made it, cuz we started searching for lodging for e nite n found out tt hotel rendezvous had onli suites tt cost $380 left. even e supposedly cheap hotle 81 will cost 180. wth. in e end we walk to istana park there zZz. haha. damn stupid larz. 5 guys, 3 zZz-ing rite in e mid of town n 2 taking turns to chat on a fone. lol. in e end morn went to watch e overnite dota comp at the cine there. haha. 1st train was too crowded so had to take 2nd train DOWN to marina then take back up. almost cldnt squeeze out at tp. haha. zao hme alr immediately pengz. haha.

yest nite went jennifer hse. suppose to have stayover de.. then can tong xiao.. but then cass n yeewen had to go home. lol.. yeewen looked like a zombie. left jennifer me n ky down there 3 guys gao gay. znais diaoz.. hahha. in e end we chat wif jennifer's friens on msn. haha. he super busy man siaz.. haha. then ky dotaed n we went cheers get supper. come back jennifer no stamina alr. zZz until like peeg liddat. haha. left me n ky to ramage thru his com. haha. found erm.. interesting pics. lol. then 2 of us dotaed once more wif romania ppl (cuz too late alr!!) n it was 545 alr!! haha. 1st train start alr lorx. lol. but 2 of us still went to zZz. haha. woke at arnd 9 liddat. then jennifer realised he was late for ogl. lol. then breakfast at macs n we came home le. haha.

die larz. left slightly more than 2 days left to ns as i speak now. havent even packed nething yet. no plans no wad-so-eva. even my rm still mess aft As. haha. speaking of As. alr like super long time since As liddat. haha. its been a long 1 mth, but i guess its ending alr. so long civilisation!! (i guess tis shd be e last time i type smth here b4 i go bald. haha) for now.. i guess i'm gonna try to get my biological clock back in sync wif s'pore time. haha.. no more staring out at nite sky til 3am! haha

2005-11-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

Messy.

yar.. tts wad my prev week has been. a mess. my mind's in a mess, my heart's in a mess, my table's a mess (which it alwayz is), n my grades are surely gonna end up in e mess. to switch frm phys to chem then back to phys again within a short span of 3 days isnt easy. more so wif fm waiting at the end of last week. challenging, n i'm afraid i've fallen short of myself. oh well. phys paper 1 n 2 were nasty. realli realli nasty. paper 1 was full of careless mistakes n 2 was juz showing how evil ucles has become. all e stupid qns. nt a single part on EM, EMI. wth!! n so lil on modern phys. sianz. then chem paper 2 was suppose to be a lifeline i guess. all went pretty smoothly. so nicely tt the few of us went out of our mind n went cartel for the 2nd time in 2 weeks for lunch. bleahz. pocket burnt. then somemore we were standing outside some vid shop watching madagascar b4 cartel opened. every1 walking past were like staring at us. haha. phys paper 3 was.. well.. ok. nt a bit too hard. juz the rite amt of challenge. i guess its still ok ba. then aft tt went makan wif some jnrs at tp. aft tt went woodlands catch "juz like heaven" wif ben, shawn, mos, karla n her frien. k larz. nice show. ending cld have been less predictable though. like moulin rouge liddat. wld have been nicer.

then thurs my gramdma came my hse. to visit me. more in fact to gimme my bday pressie.. hehe. but then all e money my mum took n kept away. wth!! i cant decide how to spend my own bday pressie zit!! at least i kept the ang pao frm my aunt who's working in japan now. hah. bleah. n muz i oso mention tt i spent nearly tt entire day on victoria island? chok, xl n lots of others where there too. its like As was over or smth. fri morn was fm paper 1. midway thru e paper stomachache. ARGH!! lucky come back still got time to finish off all e stuff tt i know how to do. aft tt chem paper 1. oh well. juz another paper. then went suntec wif dc, chok, yc, der, jas, brent, heng, hy and kenny. went to watch wcg. bleah. the warcraft match was nice, though acc to hengz they were using standard tactic which was readily dld over the net. oh, n the commentry suck. how on earth do u commentate a warcraft match?! the female commentator was acting cute larz. then we stayed on a bit to watch spore's team titans vs korea's team in CS:source. nice match. muz say the singapore team can realli shoot!! haha. the match was realli an eye-opener larz. fantastic play by singapore n the whole crowd went wild. haha.

2day was fm 2. supposedly the last A paper alr. so every1 went in wif a relaxed attitude, cuz nearly all i knew spent the prev day playing away. haha. in the end? kena screwed. i got a headache doing the mechanics questions larz. UCLES is realli a b!@tch. the mech qns were so hard lorx. so much so tt the headache is still affecting me now. hope by tmr it'll go away. dun wanna flunk my onli hopeful S.

So A levels is officially over for me. wads left is juz maths S tmr, then fri phys S juz go in look see look see ba. haha. phew. 2yrs of hardwork. now its over.

will the pass dictate the future? or perhaps the present will change history?

2005-11-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

BAD!! tis is bad. injured myself 2day in ubin while cycling wif chok. thankfully jason's grp was nearby, so had fa almost immediately. phew. rite knee's gone, as wif my rite palm. lucky still can write (my precious fingers n wrist are intact) hengz siaz. but then, i'm gonna have a fun time walking up all the steps frm tt gate to hell. oops. i meant hall. hehe.

one week have past. 2 weeks remain to see us fulfill 12yrs of hardwork. sigh. lets recap. chem paper 3 was quite screwed. food chem was bullsh!t n so was all those crappy explanation qns frm physical. orgy chem, which i was more confident in, screwed me quite a bit. didnt realise it was so tricky til last 5 min, but then cant finish writing. but then again, even mr gwee said rj students are screwing it up too!! so wth. maths 2 was ok, but along wif self-contempt comes carelessness. me can forget to add in weight component. like crapz, i juz defied gravity. lol. gp. haha. wad can i say. quote gaius," its the most impt yet most neglected sub". how true. but at least i cld make sense of the essay qns, write some sensible rubbish, then move on the the SINGLE (ucles is getting more n more crappy) gp passage n write more rubbish for the entire paper 2. n oh.. the passage was on aggression. i think throughout my aq i sounded like a pro-aggression freak. lol. maybe bush will hire me or smth =P

tmr phys. zZz. cant feel more screwed than now. been neglecting phys too much. then 14+ hr later will be chem paper 2. ziah. n by wed the faith of my sciences shd more or less be decided alr. ok shall ciaoz. till i have more free time bah (by tt i mean time when the maple world is sure to be crowded)

replies:
ky: no no. i alr hardcore maple. cant 1 person spilt into so many parts n be dedicated to so many stuff de. lolx.
mos: -__-* (* is snow. too cold alr. the h2o froze)
mj: no it cant be!! omg. haha. i think i juz put chs chinese to shame. =P . but then, wad more can u xpect frm a hcl c5 guy. haha
fei wu: u chi da bian lorx. horny king say others horny. lol. wanna find ppl to go into horn of fame oso nt liddat de. haha.

2005-11-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

blasting off! woah!! one mth no blog alr. haha. been muggin n mapling(more so though) too much. haha. think i'll be the onli j2 blogging now.. haha. but who cares. tmr's chem paper 3, n i alr prepared 4 it since yest n 2day morn. shd be more or less all rite bah. (ps: tis isn't the period for self-doubt, so juz listen to me up my confidence a bit bah! haha) 2day aft had maths paper 1. cohort seems like v confidence lehz. haha. hope everythng will remain going on tis smoothly. haha.

tis morn at home sian diaoz, then sit arnd n think too much. haha. ended up stressing myself up instead. so asked chok go kap slack n have lunch(tt lazy pig didnt wanna go skool b4 1 cuz he dont wanna walk *&$%) make me wait 4 him at the stupid kap bustop for 45 min. haha. but ppl had zheng qing shi to do larz. haha. cant blame him. tok a bit of cock. hah. speaking of which. chelsea lost 1-0 to man.u!! woohoo. the victory is nt y i'm celebrating, but the defeat sure calls for a worldwide holiday. haha. n well, l'pool is back on course to uefa qualification, n a foothold in the EPL shd be nice. haha. oh, n i muz say the spanish league looks damn open now. ahaha. all 1pts frm each other onli. shd be nice to keep track of. ahaha. all the things to do aft As. haha

ok. til nxt time!! (shd be soon. i have so much to type here. haha)

when i was bored tis aft.. i cldnt help but think... ...

2005-10-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

E final flight.

back finally after almst 1 mth. haha.. almost 4got my pw when i tried loggin in. wth. prelims was e main reason i was mia-ing.. or rather e main excuse.. actually is getting engrossed wif gaming tts keeping me occupied. nt exactly e time to do so.. but who cares. haha. able to survive thru nj prelim liaoz still got wad more diff de rite. haha. its like i was doing As phys mcq yest nite, spent half e time half e effort make half e mistakes(hey i aint perfect n As aint all tt easy) .

speaking of prelims, post prelim has been a blur 4 me. been 2wks aft my prelims ended (S paper no count) n i still dunno hw i spent my last 2 wks. e initial zhuo bo-ing (nth to aim 4 le ma), then e papers. e frenzy wif e marks, e super duper mini class gathering, then wad? e start of e next revision. i'm like seeing every1 starting to work. no wait. work is no longer e word. its e full blown nj spirit liaoz. so many ppl seem to be like MUGGING!! personally i juz cant seem to start. how on earth does their mind copE? no breaks, no stoning ard doing nth, no mindless relaxation. seems like prelims is not a milestone to em, juz a mere passing note. i muz admint, i've started my next revision, but not to e extend to 6, 7 hrs a day!? now onli doing like 1 to 2 hr a day, n its like my gaming time runs up to 5 per day. haha. juz cant see myself starting my engines so early. i'll break down by then. haha.

so e test flight is over. finetuning needs to be down. weapons needa be reloaded. fuel needa be replenished. then i shall soar, my afterburner shall burst alive! i shall push e speed limit. mach 1, 2, 3... but 1st.. let e engines cool.. hahha

2005-09-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

crazily happy.

prelims' 2 dayz away n here i am blogging aft i juz reached home frm another crazy expedition. haha. dunno zit the stress or wad, but yest nite i woke up at round 3, came down took a drink of coffee, n went back to sleep. absolutely amazing, n it onli goes to proof how addicted n immue to caffine i alr am. (PS: tis morn i had another 2 packets of instant coffee) then juz now went out 4 lunch. had a quick meal , then suddenly have a craving 4 tiramisu (muz be ms rattna's fault 4 all her "tiramisu" n "kueh lapis" essay structure). searched around tp central but found none gd enuf, so ended up drinking tt nescafe tiramisu mix. lolx. coffee agaiN! haha. then as i was wandering around (mugging aint exactly the thing to be done in such breezy weather), my taste buds started acting up again. so 4 a quick lunch tt started out at 1, i walked all the way to novena to have "ah kun" toast n COFFEE!! lolx. ended up onli reached home at 3 pluz. haha. wad a long, nice LUNCH!! haha. now caffine overdose liaoz larz, cant keep still. haha.

been studying out these dayz. got pro n con larz. like at least got qns can ask around, but then cant concentrate as much as when i juz have music blasting down my ears. n esplanade lib is quite a nice place to study. quite quiet n when u get tired, juz walk to the window n enjoy the lush greenery along wif the mix of blue. sky n sea blue. the sea contains lotsa ions. Na salt is present in large amt. I- ions are present too! how come no I2? colour of water is colourless lehz, not purplish. sea water is acidic!! due to presence of conjugate acid of weak base (muz be!). or maybe fish poo contains weakly acidic carboxylic acid. sh!t. too much chem. seems like coffee isnt the onli thing i'm having too much of.

suddenly feel tt engine is boring. wanna be a surgeon (childhood dream) oh well.. tts random

its tt luvly smile tt makes me noe i can be happy too

2005-09-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

losing the fight to myself

been away 4 quite a while. tts cuz my dad confiscated my modem. bloody. but then it sorta forced me into mugging, so nt tt bad oso. took tt chance to enter seclusion n finished off org, inorg n food chem. haha. achievement sia. haha. but now tt the hols is ending dun think i've done much. crap, in fact i'm not prepared 4 prelims!! argh!!

ok tt aside. the been doing lotsa crazy stuff these dayz. such as walking all the way to amk then walk back to tp n climb tt new 40-stories flat. i muz say the view frm up there is juz great. its like i can look at the entire city skyline unobstructed, and even see the esplanade lorx. wah!! next time muz realli get an apartment there or smth. lolx. maybe even somewhere taller. haha. pluz its ultra breezy up there. super shiok. haha.

suddenly realised how great it feels to hang out wif o' friens again. particularly those tt share ur interest. fj n jkwok. haha. xbox-ing like nuts even as prelims draw nearer, n mugging 2gether. haha. plain fun. n wadz wif 3hrs of lan-ning. got so bored tt we surfed thru the games tt the coms support to find smth to PLAY!! lolx.

ok. too sian to blog liaoz. oso 4got wad i wanted to blog. lolx.

2005-08-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

reformatting almost complete! finally able to be at peace wif myself le.. dunno y also.. these 2 days been like feeling v calm liddat.. even managed to get tt large inertia to mug. haha. like e title of tis entry suggest, i'm almost thru wif gettting the old me back on track. lolx. realli surprises me how i'm still thinking in terms of computer lingo aft having left comac 4 2 yrs liaoz. but still, my visual card could be changed (being the specs in real life AND the real card in my pc). hrmx.. shall, worry bout tt after A's bah. haha

lots has happened these few days. tt largely known (publicised shd'nt be the word) fiasco, all the chat, reading n thinking. how come these sorta things happen so close to crunch time? when we're all suppose to be entering our striding pace alr?

yest had 3 test.. omg. went to skool almost onli 4 tests. lolx. 1st thing chem lect had test, n it wasnt tt bad, since i didnt study. haha. next lesson was free cos the other 2 classes were taking their fm test so lect was cancelled. slack around in canteen n tried to complete data analysis. next lesson, physics test. 9/26.. horror of horror. wtf. i noe i didnt realli study, but such a pathetic result so close to prelims is not reflecting good on me. then fm mechanics mock test. wtf. NO SHM wif IMPULSE or RESTITUTION!! thank GOD!! i was so damn relieved when i flipped thru the paper. tts 1 huge block tt i've yet to scale. haha. think tt test was easy though others thot otherwise (well.. they went to study shm wif NLR, leaving those nicey rotation n eqm 4 me to take) but still.. it doesnt help tt i STILL dun understand SHM wif NLR, knowing well tt ms ng has set tt 4 prelims (pls.. she's be stressing on tt kinda qns 4 damn long alr) gotta work on it. then later was mc s. went there sleep cos didnt realli prepare much n it was boring. to sum it up.. i shd juz have had pon skool yest, since i didnt prepare 4 test oso. wasted another day. ziah.

the concept of pro-death movements are haunting me. having read a recent article while on my net-surfing round, i dare say i'm glad s'pore doesnt allow euthanasia. until tis morn when kong told me s'pore actually does allow doctor assisted suicide, but its not realli tt well known to all.by hey, religions aside, a day living by is a chance at recovery, miracles and all. afterall, we were brought into tis world to suffer, so wadz wif suffering 1 more day closer to ur death? i noe i aint exactly the person to say tis, since i'm afraid of pain (BUT not death) but still, doesn't life has any meaning to these ppl?! it might pain one to see a loved one in agony, n for tt i'll respect tt patient's wish to end his or her life and the person's willingness to make that happen. however, tis still doesnt justify the kind of value towards life that these.. lets juz call em pro-death activists, are spreading around. smth's gotta stop tis, divine intervention or not.

juz a thot. been listening to lots of chi songs lately. in fact, my playlist on winamp now is all chinese!! argh! haha.. kena influence by jnrs on snrs farewell tt day larz. muz be.. haha. its nice though.

nothing else matters now. its all bout devotion liaoz.

2005-08-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

Air of finality.

Juz dunno wadz my blog 4 liaoz. Dun really think I shd be blogging, cos I really dun have much to blog. Its all juz random thots tt think ppl wun be bothered to read anyway. These days smth been wrong wif me. Feeling damn confused n tired. Its like nth can get into me these days. My academia's suffering. All my wadnot eqns are seeping out of my head; my mind can no longer turn as fast as it could. My onli motivation to study has been to escape frm tis virtual world tt I live in. crapz.

Think I seriously needa reconsider my options. Rethink everything, re-plan every move. Think, desmond, think! My past 17 yrs on earth has brought me to where I am 2day, tt I cant change. But wad I am 2day shall bring me more 10, 20, 30 yrs down e road!! In a world rapidly changing, I'd better find my way to retain myself. I needa find back the boi tt stepped out of chs 2 yrs ago. The boi who's world was juz so perfect, his myopic vision serving onli to improve his image of the world around him. Incapable of finding himself in the outside world, all he could do was dive deep into himself, finding solace in the veri depth of his soul. Shd he not have done tt, he wun have been able to work whole-heartedly on smth tt didn't matter to him. I seriously needa find him back, n reinstall the prog of “self-motivation” back into me.

Realized my self-confidence is at a low these dayz, always feeling incomparable to others. Muz really stop tis crap. But then again, ppl have always noted tt my self-confidence is always damn low almost all e time. So y shd it matter now?!

Anyway last week was invest. Sorta like puts a fullstop to my LIFE here in nj. All's left is all tt I dun wanna do. But then again, looking at wad I've been doing tis week seems to suggest otherwise. I'm still slacking in store (at least now I try doing hw in tt peaceful place k), still coming online as if tis is where I cld do my work. Hrmx. Y do I continue lying to myself?! Oh.. n I guess I shd take tis opportunity to thank e jnrs who org farewell. Though it might not have been wad u guys wanted, we all really enjoyed it.. hehe.. esp the 40bucks spent in 20mins. So tts all 4 tis post of rambling. Maybe wld come back here someday n see how much lower my life can go.

2005-08-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

Good Game!!

monday is gonna be national day. vincent juz popped in onto my msn window n his nick is juz so funny. "cant we celebrate national day in peace?" haha. all those stupid cm, comm serve. its nt tt i'm against comm serve or smth, its juz tt national day has its own prestigious meaning sacred to its own. so y bother to include it in?! i mean if u ask an American to do smth other than celebrating freedom n liberty on july 4th, u're most prob asking 4 it. even worse, cultural mapping. comm serve at least we return wad we've taken frm society, but cm?! bloody crap lorx. i bet not a single student in nj can truthfully say he/she wasnt forced into it.

yeah.. less than 12hrs away frm invest. suddenly feeling tired, aft slogging it out 4 1yr. gonna pass it on, their turn to suffer le. time to move on oso liaoz. haha. its weird how i'm alwayz complaining bout all e planning n stuff, but then now tt A's is so near i'd rather be back 1 yr b4 planning all those stuff. all those failures, all those success. all e individuals, all e attitude. all those hits n missses, bitter sweet indeed. tmr shall put on e qm collarpin 1 last time, erm.. maybe polish it a bit?! haha. else those jnrs 4ever saying mine look like antique. lolx.
"the sun has to set every so often, but somehow it has brought warmth n light to e land" Anonymous. to borrow a gaming lingo: gg! GG!!

signing off. njoac qm 04/05.

2005-08-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Aimless

haiz.. recently life not like v interesting. so tts y nvr blog. haha. nowadays skool like always end so early, but then dun feel like going home mug. haha, so alwayz stay in skool slack around. if ppl dunno me still might think i j1 lehz.. haha. juz 1 more mth to prelims n revision havent even started yet.

despite tt, my class seems to be turning more fun. haha. e guys are, at least. haha. everyday tok cock in class, do all kinda crap then gang up against tt b*tch. hehe.. so cool, or zit juz stress making us loonie?

tis sat invest then snr farewell. hope it'll be fun. then aft tt no more weekends le. ziah. realli realli time to mug. or so i've told meself =P. brrrrrrrrrr. LIFE SUX! okie, time to go mug 4 fm n organic test tmr. ziah, tts like my 3rd tests tis week. more to come!

2005-07-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

the island

yest was half-day. n so half-days alwayz means all play n no work. lolx. class was suppose to have mechanics tutorial after skool was realeased cos ms ng wanted to complete e syallabus..not complusory.. lolx.. so me n chok happily walked out wif e rest of e skool to join some 37th at taka seoul garden.. lolx.. after we raided sakae sushi last time, we decided bbq is to our liking too!! so keeny dc chok brent rard leech jason mel n me arrived wif shaun heng n yichuan joining us later. met s11 guys there oso. it was damn funny there. haha.. we did all kinda crap. muz def mention how we eat beef. it was no longer called beef to us as of yest. due to e large proportions tt we got frm e counter.. it was officially renamed COW!! yar. "xxx pass e cow plz" was not uncommon at our table. haha.. think we deprived e other customers of beef.. lolx. then we played iron chef there oso. lolx. cao funny. one team was so serious while e other was juz making us lauf. haha.. n e names of e dishes are so nice too. haha. e theme was squid (was suppose to be onion but it ran out). then mel's team presented to us.. foreskin delight n combo, while dc's team of iron-chefs-to-be came up wif jesus jumps over the wall. lolx.

then aft tt joined guen cass avalene yeewen stanley n samual 4 movie wif chok. watched e island. v thot provoking. in a sense e script kinda not blockbuster material, but its nice in a literary sense. think e entire movie was so symbolic of e bible. haha.. n 4 those like me who luv to think bout nth.. tis can realli make ur cranky gears of e mind to work. e diff aspects of cloning were briefly discussed if not shown. n it totalli convinced me to take a stand on tt issue, so much so tt i juz wish e protagonists (who are e clones) will juz die or smth. now i'll have smth more to write in gp essay in future.. lolx.

ok.. tmr is maths test.. wad on earth am i doing here?! tags:
kohla: long time no see, cute arab!! are u still e small boi tt left chs 2yrs ago?! haha.. dun later taller than me le lehz
mos: no lorx, where got copy u. diaoz. eat chocs cant mehz?! lolx

2005-07-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

Safety b4 freedom.

tis weekend is diff. so much diff frm all e wkends i've had since tis yr started. y? cos i stayed home 4 2 entire days n studied!! omg. well i didnt manage to catch up, go further than syllabus (mainly cos its ending), or revise, but tts nt e point. thing is i woke up yest feeling so refreshed.. as if i realli realli had a purpose in life. so i set off to do SOME work. ended up i finished entire mechanics syllabus. =p .

2day had a veri random thot. i noe i've alwayz wanted to get into saf.. pref wif some scholarship, cos i wanna serve e country in tt aspect. so when i put down my career n scholarship option last time during saphire interview, e 3rd choice of teaching was juz as a random choice. but now thinking bout it, being a cher aint tt bad. red tape n all, it actuallly removes a lot of office politics known to go around a lot. n its def much livelier than having to stare at e comp or paperwork wadsoeva. oh hell.. lets juz wait n see

onto smth more recent. 2 terror bombings in london, then yest in egypt. i realli dun have anything against terrorist. in fact, i pity em. their plight realli deserve sympathy; their devotion deserves recognition. but somehow, e way they try to make their points juz degrade wad they're trying to defend. i'm sure no religion on earth preaches tt killing a fellow human is rite, however much an infidel i am. i've always admired their willingness to stand up 4 their ideals n against other forces, until recently at a gp discussion wif keefe n huiren. it was on our gp topic "safety above freedom?" we had tis insight thru e discussion tt these ppl are actually hum ppl who value safety above freedom as killing infidels to dem will guarantee their safety in their afterlives. now i suddenly pity e victims more.

2005-07-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

i need reHaB!!
omg. i truely think i'm an addict. nt to drugs, not sort of anyway. i'm hooked onto coffee n chocolates. so ok, i'm sorta addictted to drugs. i need caffine to sustain my day, n i mean loads n loads of it. think someday i'll get immune to caffine.. then perhaps its time to move onto red bull or smth. lolx. then of course chocs. it contains some kinda mental stimulant if i'm not wrong(ask some bio students maybe?). it feels shiok juz eating chocs man. haha. i'm crazy :P

got down to doing some work 2day. like finally. finished e whole of chemical periodicity. *proud* work doesnt sux as much if u realli dun hate it. lolx. juz read brentz' blog. so "inspiring", lolx. 11:11 now. alwayz thot of tt thing when i see tis timing. ok.. short entry. nth much to blog anyway.

i swore onto my soul b4, tt my life is of no purpose.
now i look back, will i be able to fulfil my promise?!

2005-07-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

MecH Assult!!

haha. nt e mech assult game larz. its e assult of mechanics!! haha. been doing so much mechanics these days due to fm tt its beginning to get fun! all e stupid formulas.. haha. can't believe i'm able to derive fun outta work again.. its been a long time. oh well, obv tts where my interest lies.

tt day went down 4 oac. well, nt exactly to participate, but more like to go store slack. realli feels diff to join em 4 activities now. its like i'm no longer bounded by rulez (at least those set by e pres) and discipline. hrmx.. miss oac =p . e mad rush to complete proposal n those review sessions to "fight" wif e teachers. haha.. n e enthu peeps helping us out like mj (ok 4 once i shan't call him a acs sj gay!!) n der (thx 4 all e pioneering stuff howeva much u hate it). speaking of which.. tt goon has been placed under intense pressure ever since she got voted in. haha.. so much pressure tt she sent me a msg tt was suppose to go to ben! n its regarding snrs farewell!! omg!! haha. n dun even noe how to lie to cover up.. lolx. think i was laufing v hard when she tried lying to cover up. e excuse was so lame!! hehe. but then cant blame her. think some ppl aint helping, leaving everything to her juz cos she's now w pres. perhaps those ppl need PET OWNERSHIP TO LEARN RESPONSIBILITY!! (tt was e jct gp qns i attempted. got screwed terribly) its nt like u didnt volunteer to head e act planning or smth u noe.. those ppl wanted to take charge!! ziah

stood in e middle of e room.
shouted all tt i wanted to say.
u were juz feets away,
.
.
.
behind e soundproof wall.

2005-07-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

E.n.d G.a.m.e

Last saturday was election. so enters e new generation of Oac exco. hrmx. 5 days away n 1 yr ago, i stood where they were n felt almost how they felt. 1yr of fun juz flew by. all e crazy stuff tt we did.. haha.. nvr mind tt it wun go down in e record books. it shall live. congrats to e new exco.. wish u all luck.. n better do a gd job 4 invest n farewell =p . the tallying of votes were so.. erm.. fun?! nah.. shd be so soap opera-esque. next time then can say. haha.

school realli seem to have no meaning nowadays. last fri walk out of skool wif chok at like.. wad, 1400?! n it felt so weird. haha. juz doesnt feel rite to head home so early. no badminton wif e 37th, no laptop gaming in e store, no copying homework in store, n no more exco meetings. bah!

results are back. nt tt bad.. considering i cld have gotten worse. it juz doesnt seem rite tt e amt of work i put in is inversely proportional to e grades i get. so much 4 rewarding hardwork!

2day chok asked me a qns. stumpped me. hrmx.. maybe life can go on wif juz nth but mugging. how i wish. i shd noe better. ziah. but now's simply nt e time. speaking of which.. me n chok got so bored during lunch break we started doing stupid stuff.. haha.. cant help laufing at wad we did. n 05s24 realli united class sia.. how i wish my class cld be like em.

bleahz.. juz writing down wad comes to my mind. replies:

mj: yeah, glad it was fun while it lasted. of course e qm is lousy, cld have been better.

2005-07-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

Juz nt rite.. yet
2day skool started proper again. so damn sian. n i guess my bio-clock is screwed up beyond recognition. 2day b4 lunch i slept thru all e lects n tutorials cept 4 maths tutorial which surprisingly was e 1st lesson. maybe e lack of caffine have got smth to do wif it, but hell no.. ALL E WAY?! tts a bit too much huhz. was kinda screwed 2day oso. nvr do maths tutorial. bleahz. she specially asked us to prep 4 skool reopen n i nvr do. y? cos it is SHM n i slept thru all e lects too!! genius!! n then all e work i cheong out cher nvr even ask us to submit, but instead is those i nvr even touch (or think of 4 e matter of SHM) tt we were required to show. knn, so down on my luck.

stayed back late in skool to help j1 wif intra-ac stuff. guess they still dun understand e meaning of WORK TOGETHER yet. alwayz seperating emselves into comms. dun they get it? its nt wad comm they're in, how gd's e comm, wad e comm does.. its how e comm can contribute to e final product tt'll realli count. n to do tt they'll have to realli cooperate wif each other. juz take bwm 4 example. it didnt matter who was ic 4 campfire, cos in e end kong me chok n fifi went macritchie get firewood 2gether. i didnt have to call on anybody else supposedly ic 4 log or campfire or nething. haha, neway i'll nvr 4get tt experience, so funny.. so cool.

bout time i get serious bout work. time to hit e nitrous, time to sacrifice e soul, time is nt enuf. 2mths.. all tt i've now. each day is gonna be a torture, but juz gotta bear wif it. juz look at e fm timetable planned 4 tis term n u'll understand. but then, wad is my final goal? when does e marathon end? when do i take a step up into striding, n when do i start e sprints? qns qns.

so spread e fire into e sacred woods, but will e disaster stop 4 e work of a man?
4 a frown?
4 a smile?

2005-07-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

Detonation con-Fused

havent touched a single bit of my hols assignment. tmr's gonna be a bleak bleak day.. =(

2day went fj hse xbox again. he was maple-ing.. wth. got intro into maple proper. tried installing on my com. doesnt work =( . played mech assult.. got trashed by him =( (DUH!! but i wasnt tt bad i it.. long long time ago). played burnout 3 takedown. haha.. seems like i have a flair 4 it. no wait, shd be i have a flair 4 all things destruction. great racing tracks, nice nifty movements n of course, the whole point ot burnout, nice big big explosions i created. my record was 1.5 billion worth of cars, goods, oil tankers (n of course burning oil!! muahhaha). n burnout 3 has got damn good sound-tracks. try <> think it rox. n burnout has got damn high ratings in all the games review webbie tt i viewed, at least 9/10. i even saw one 9.9/10. makes me wonder y i didnt buy it. nvm, next time its value drop le then get.

lifes damn sad. seems like i'm facing a return into my old ways. wanting to consume myself in all my "work of art". all e rage burning around me, juz as if i cld live off it. if i ever become a weapon design specialist, ppl out there better watch out. e death n destruction of every single organic particle on tis planet shall take place. of course tts a dream, a fantasy. a pity i cant draw well nowadays, else i'll have at least some place to let all my emotions run into, making smth tt'll no longer juz exist in my mind. how i wish... ...

2005-07-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

Turn of e tides

Juz finished my last ct in nj e day b4. quite ok. realli surprises me how mc teachers can use up all their brain juices to think up super complicated normal qns, then end up setting super easy S paper qns 4 a supposedly harder paper. gdi. maybe its juz cos there wasnt any stress when i was attempting e paper. juz wanted to go in n see how many marks i can savage, n was doing everything at such a leisure pace. maybe tts juz me, needing my own space n time to complete my task, but requires tt extra "pressure" factor to excel. hrmx, so overall i think i can live wif e kinda grades i get frm tis ct, considering e amt of effort i put in.

then i guess it was cos i used up all my luck pushing my way thru e cts, so yest i was juz running so short on luck. 1st jennifer came late by 15 mins than e meeting time we set at tp, then bus left juz b4 he came. diaoz, then took bus reach there alr 15min late, darn. but worst still.. no1 else was there!! they were all at bedok waiting 4 those 2 tt had too tiring a nite(think both of em i gonna kill me 4 tis, but heck.. haha). they arrived at 1030 liddat, nearly half an hr later tt chok who left home later n was caught in a jam. lol. spent tt xtra time to choose a gd bike wif gd front tire 4 e cycling trip, then knn, back tire flat!! n it wasnt as if i rode on smth. i juz went to lunch break wif perfectly alrite tyres, came back onli to find it flat. does there exist any kinda theory to xplain tis interesting phenomenum?! so i continued to cycle wif e rest, wif xl suffering flat tires both in front n back, ky having a flat front n yeewen having a flat back. then suddenly.. *drumroll wif thunder in background* e inner tube from my back tire came out! n cos i pushing my limit at cycling at such high speed, e tude got caught in my gear, snapped into 2, n continued to snug its way into my gears. wth! in e end xl yeewen ky n me decided to walk all e way back frm pasir ris to east coast, n mitchell n peiying joined us oso. wah!! so stupid, such a long walk!! then i tried cycling a bit n caused my front tire to go flat oso.. wah!! so totally cant cycle le.. argh! in e end had to hitchhike back to east coast. haha.. then when me ky n xl were taking our slow stroll back to ecp, it drizzled, n e wind was super huge!bah!! had to run 4 e nearest shelter. but least i spotted a rainbow *thinks back.. how long has it been since i actually seen a rainbow. omg.. p2!! haha. then 4 all e energy tt we used to get e bike all e way back, we had to pay 4 e lousy punctured tires. dotz. lesson learnt le.

2day had a damn intriguing thot. had nth better to do so when to look at shampoo ingredients. all e names are so.. lets juz say they make gd tongue twisters when read. all e chim chim names, make me wonder how humans are willing to trust others n believe tt these chemicals are going to do their hair good juz cos tis tried n tested, but are always 2nd-guessing each other.. esp at e higher political lvl. humans are juz so damn lame.

imperfection was built into us, into our minds.
but we made our weakness our strongest weapon, our WMD.
but when e time come, will we be able to let go of our weapons, so as to be stronger?

2005-06-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

(fill in e blank) 1 cup of tea.

haha.. tt was e ultimate joke 2day.. haha. tt was when chok kenny dc pradz hengz yichuan shaun hy n me went kenny roger eat aft chem paper (no it wasnt kenny's treat).. we were toking all kinda cock.. then started getting racist.. hehe.. n tt was contributed by kenny.. so damn funny.

tis shall be a quick update. phys was yest, mcq was a breeze but paper 2.. lets juz say i left like 23 marks blank, of which around 17pts are frm charged part. simply no time.. bleahz. then came home straight mug chem. stupid chem.. so much to study.. read until i sleep oso. so in e end i best plan, nvr study food chem n electro-chem, knowing pretty well tt food chem will have quite a heavy weightage. but heck. so 2day morn heard food chem 20% electro 5% i knew B was outta e window. started wif paper 2 1st(e teachers announced tt n e whole hall was like, "huhs?"). was mentally prepared to skip food chem so didnt came as much of a shock to me. well at least i attempted 4marks worth of qns there.. haha. mcq was much easier, but tricky at times. tmr still got maths s.. wth. make me go back skool at 2pm juz to attempt a 2hr paper tt i noe sure fail. dunno whether shd pon.. hehe. lets juz see how i'd manage to attempt smth which requires days of my norm thinking speed to solve tmr. hope realli nt screwed up, else frm tis yr start til now both s will get U. bleahz. ok tts it. waiting 4 my last ct in nj to end. shall go have a gd rest now, then tmr see wad i can rescue frm e pathetic crap tts me.

2005-06-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

Luck, a mysterious n varying factor

o well.. how much more true can e above expression be. luck simply has its way of eluding us, before letting us bask it in its glow 4 wad cld seem an eternity. i'm a perfect example. juz yest.. skool started n so did common test. great.. cos 1st paper was mc!! supposedly easier to score 4 us fm ppl. actually 4 me, it was meant to be e onli subj i can score tis time round. so i actually spent 1 week on e paper itself, trying n reading my notes. but wad do i get.. e hardest paper tt i cld have expected. ok.. so maybe its easier than last yr's JCT MC paper.. but hey, i don't even think march CT+promos is tis hard. in other words, no A =( ok i shd learn to be more satisfied of wad i get, but 4 e amt of effort i put in i realli think i deserve better. GP was mixed feeling.. essay qns were so crappy, open-ended.. but when u actually get down to doing them it was still ok.. compre was.. HORRIBLE!! nth more appropriate than tt. e passages were so full of shit, esp e 2nd 1. other than understanding tt e particular passages encourages Reality TV, i didnt understand anything else bout it.. not even e reasons. DIE.. so i happily started attempting the qns, having seen that most of the qns are regarding passage 1, which i was still ok wif.do do do... then suddenly i juz fell asleep. yar.. JUZ fell asleep. out of nowhere i juz turned off n slept.. it was as if i was unconsious or smth. knn.. so when i woke up le i juz didnt felt like doing anything, so anyhow scribble wad comes to my mind le lorx, n aq i was like.. huhz?! asking me bout Reality TV?!?! omg.. think shieh shd have taken the paper 4 me instead.. like wad on earth do u expect a person who hardly even watches TV to noe about "e values that Reality TV brings to ur society"? stupid qns.. damn e setter. so all in all.. 1st day i was nt happy wif how i did.

but then.. luck has its way of toying wif u!! so 1st day i ended off wif ultra last min mugging 4 fm. hardly touched it at all b4 mc. then 2day morn woke up earlier to mug, preparing 4 e worst. so skool mug somemore.. so totally last min. but when i was doing e paper i was like hallucinating or smth.. cos i actually noe how to do A LOT A LOT of e paper!! i cld do eigenvalue n eigenvectors!! whosh!! didnt even touch it at all!! n vectors!! spent onli like a few min discussing wif chok at morn assembly.. i cld DO!! i was feeling like so blessed!! wahaha.. then in e evening i went cycling.. lost my wallet!! argh!! but some kind soul found it n return to me!! everything intact!! but wads most impt is actually my ic. ok.. so tt kind soul is my primary skool classmate's mum, but realli.. i was juz about to report e lost of my ic to police alr. thx alot mdm. words simply cant express my gratitude now.

lets juz hope tmr is a better day. physics.. argh!! seems like so much to cramp in oso. hope last min mugging realli helps!

2005-06-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

was juz doing 04mc jct paper tis morn.. fraustrating. i wonder how i'm gonna do my paper tmr morn. its like when i do e paper i aint even sure if i'm doing e rite thing w/o e answers. bad bad. how am i gonna kope tmr? haha.. maybe its e adrenaline tt'll make me 4get about checking whether i'm rite, or perhaps i'll juz nt have enuf time to bother.. hrmx. juz pray tt wadeva last min stuff i cramp in 2day will help. realli lack preparation. think tis realli is a 1st. nvr felt so ill prepared 4 an exam b4, nt even march ct when i cld still find my self-confidence. perhaps its realli lack of prep. hopefully its juz last yr paper realli set too hard, n tt tmr's wun be liddat oso. n tts onli mc. fm is much worse. phy will realli be last min. chem i think even if postpone 1 more day i oso hopeless. bad bad. y on earth do exams have to come after hols. no motivation to study, onli got stress to push u on. sux.

yest went out study nt as productive as i hoped. the 3 of em kept bombing me wif qns until i hardly got time to ask em qns. bleahs.. n wx juz contact me on msn again.. i sense another qns coming.. haha. n tt stupid edwin, everytime me n fung ask him out go study he'll either go there sleep, stone or try to get us to go play pool. stupid slacker. haha.. he hardly even finish e electrochem qns he started on b4 we left larz. lol. ODE ODE ODE.. suddenly 2nd order looks much simpler than e 1st. COMPLEX COMPLEX COMPLEX.. cant they keep life simpler? argh maths!! stop!! i still gotta look at phys 1.

"Untitled"
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

(*)How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again'

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I cantt erase the things that I've done
No I can't

(*)×2

2005-06-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

A Knight's Tale

was juz watching a knight's tale in e morn b4 going to mug wif fung, edwin, n wx at tp 2day. e movie's realli sorta nice. but how come e downs experienced by main characters alwayz so minor compared to e ups in e rollercoaster rides of their life. maybe scripts juz wun sell well if they becum realistic, tts y everything alwayz have to happen rite in scripts. e badasses nvr seem to come to a gd end, unlike e real world, where evil lurks in every single corner. even in our hearts. tts y i like swordfish maybe. e way reality seems to be kept in check, keeping e balance of e world is juz so nice in it. afterall, how do u define wads "good" if there's no such thing as "evil"?

while walking to meet e peeps, tis thot kinda struck me. would i realli wanna be e knight in shining armour tt rides on e fine steed n gets all e prestige? n i came up wif e conclusion: no. yesh being a knight means u're smth, enjoy noble status n all tt, and of course knights are always e 1s being glorified in firms, fairytales n all tt. but tts juz fame. n fame to me is juz like deedara's def of art: "art is beauty fleeting, beauty gone in an instant" nt smth highly welcomed by me, esp 4 a practical person like me. n anyway, knights are alwayz e prime target in a medival battle(tt was b4 e 100yr war evolved enuf). imagine an enemy knight riding above a sea of ppl. u're a sniper wif juz 1 bullet, so wld u take e chance of hitting e best swordsman/lancer/archer amoung e sea of wld u rather shoot tt ass upon e horse n leave some part of e offensive push leaderless?
ok i'm hum.. but tt doesnt juz quailify y i'd rather be an archer than a knight. in e times of e 100yr war, it was ultimately e english long-bowmen tt won em e war. it was a mass of peasents trained wif grit n might to pull tt characteristic bow of e englishmen, taught wif intense care and trained to ultimate precision wif their "arch of death", so named because these ppl realease swarms of arrows high into e sky, n its as if equipped wif precision-control equipment, almost sure to land on target wif deadly velocities. wad more can u ask for? n also, it was thru tis war tt saw e evolution of medival european war plans, starting out wif every single army being built around their champion knight, as if lancers, infantry are all sidekicks, to e final play of archers being e core, infantry as melee support, and e knights eventually evolving into e heavy calavary tt'll trample upon e field tts soon to see bloodshed(ie. 1st to die). wadsmore, archers have variable roles. when equipped wif e bow they're e deadly artilleries tt specialises in piercing knight's armour, but when circumstances turn against them, they are able to abandon their bows and fight as light infantries wif tt sword and light armour of theirs, and wif e clumsiness of knights due to their heavy, all-protecting armour, make e archers ultimate knight-slayers of e battlefield. long range roX!

"true art endures the ages, beauty everlasting" sasori, akatsuki member; naruto manga

2005-06-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

Bored outta my mind

hrmx.. i guess tis place has become a place 4 me to vent my fraustration at my life(however much i try nt to show it), and an escape from e mundane life that i lead.. perhaps that's y i luv gaming.. allows me to escape into smth interesting, n most of e time allowng me to take up all-powerful roles.. tsk tsk, control freak :p .. n screw e proper-english shit i guess.. feels unnatural to be typing in norm eng when i look at blogger interface i think.. in fact i dun seem to feel like typing normally when i face my keyboard or hp keypad. juz ask e oac teachers bout it.. haha.. shaun can be witness.

realli feel like playing soccer rite now.. e shiok sensation of running around wif ur friens.. n its nt aimlessly like in track.. haha.. realli miss soccer sessions wif cat high peeps. but i guess e next time we'll be able to hold a meet like juz 2wks ago will have to be round 2yrs later i guess.. haiz.. soccer soccer.. my veri 1st luv.

well read frm mj's blog tt gals are gonna enter acs. so i'm here to offer my 2cents worth. i realli cant imagine gals in boi skools.. esp nt in cat high.. ok rather i DUN want tt to happen. wadeva will happen to e identity tt binds us 2gether, juz like e green shorts however much we hate to admit it. n all e kinda crap tt we do there.. haha.. bet e gals will get a cultural shock, or sort of :p . life in boi skools are so much simpler, at least 2 me.. bout 3-quarter of my time back then was all about soccer n gaming, wif e remaining being shared by toking cock wif friens n studies. well studies didnt particularly take up a large part of my life back then. n all life to me back then was a rountine, a routine of skool, soccer, work, game, endlessly repeating itself. grumble slightly i did, but so did i enjoy it. n i bet girls will call tt no life.. or at least i think. i dun noe wad will happen to those poor guys shd gals "invade"(ok maybe tt word is too crude but i think its e idea i wld like to get across) our land. maybe our field will turn frm being barren due to overusage by us soccer maniacs into an overgrown. or perhaps classes will no longer have e same lifeliness tts brought about by ur pals/bros/comarades. n wad of break btw classes? haha.. e lookout might still get to keep his job, but wad happens inside e class will be completely overthrown i guess(wadz inside is a large variable correct to my memory and shd nt be released4 e sake of convince to my typing n to e general cathigh public :p) ok.. nth sick like wad we heard e acs ppl do. put it simply, bois need more than e company of gals during our 4yrs of maturing i guess. but i can onli pray tt hakboon doesnt come up wif e idea of following in e footstep of acs, juz like he wanted to change frm shorts to pants (screw him on tt, n e berms he intro-ed look like shit)

ok.. no discrimination meant. e prev passaage was all in e name of taking out some thots frm my brain n stroing em somewhere least i 4get it next time. n i truely think i'm wating my time. didnt felt like studyng juz now n came to my com. didnt felt like ra2-ing so went net. still sianz diaoz. so wad i did i do?! help my sis play pokemon gold on com.. omg!! wth was i thinkng juz now.

2005-06-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Was just reading my archives just now, n i realised this interesting trend. The closer i got to exams or major tests, the higher e frequency of my updates. haha. guess that's why i'm back here again.

And in case anyone of you are wondering where's the desmond who types in broken and minimalistic english disappeared to, he's still around. Its just that today while i forced myself into writing a GP piece i sort of discovered my high tendency to write in broken english. just became juz and all those other sms lingo. hrmx, bad!! So i shall dedicate this space to practise my writing (the fact that this is just an excuse to come online and blog is a plus) .

Anyway, i found this nice looking blogskin while i was surfing around in there. As usual the bloodthirsty me typed "blood" as a search, but nothing particularly nice came up. So i tried red, since its the colour of blood AND l'pool. and tadda, this came up, and i'm still wondering why. It ain't red, unless i have colour deficiency, and there wasn't even a single mention of the word red in its description. bizzare, but who cares.

things i did 2day:
1)gp essay
2)mugg. progress so far(i can't list down what i'm not through with yet 'cos i'll need like pages worth)
: mc/fm-summation, MI, integration, diff, stats(more or less)
:physics-nth?! ok, maybe mechanics and some of the M,EM & EMI series
:chem-organinc chem!! achievement of the century
3)cycling trip- from house set off to bishan then take a turn towards upper serangoon at bishan park, before stopping at f'j house for some xbox-ing. continued towards serangoon mrt and from there followed the NEL down towards potong pasir until met the PIE (this was part of last year's original night cycling trip which chok, wenfoo and me enjoyed the most during recce.. tt was b4 e route was changed by the bloody teachers) which is downslope ALL THE WAY!! haha, guess i was speeding along with the rush hour traffic. then join back to the kallang park connector at SAJC(UC) there to head home. total time taken 1hour 30min including traffic lights. distance travelled is roughly 13.5km. So i average about 9km/h. hrmx not that bad, considering that i was on the pavement most of the time. haha. I LUV speeding!!

which means i still have a lot to catch up on studies, not taking into the gp homework that i've yet to touch. haiz. what a hols.

2005-06-22T22:19:00.000+08:00

mugging hols are nt hols!! oh wadeva.. juz hope tis wun last long.. think i'm gonna need a life jacket soon.. cos i've been deprived of a life lately.. mugging too much.. n perhaps a life jacket wif a self sustaining heater.. cos i've been so damn lame i think i'm juz adding to e lack of heat in my aircon-ed room now.. haiz.. mug mug.. been doing all those no kick topic 4 maths juz to get my morale up.. haha.. stumbled a bit at summation.. brezzed thru MI.. did integration techniques juz 4 e kick of it.. but then think i'm realli gonna die at polar, curve sketch blah blah.. in other words.. fm=F!! whee

ok.. tts nt exactly e rite attitude.. heck.. o.. interesting thing i did 2day.. my own version of initial D.. yupz.. D for dragging.. nt drifting like in e movie.. drifting sux(partially cos i cant do it tt well.. but tts nt e pt).. n 4 those wondering how come i'm dragging in e space constraint s'pore when i aint even allowed to drive wrt e law.. i was dragging on my bike!!(bicycle but draggin on e bike sounds more cool :p ) ok.. so for those who dun get wads draggin oso.. its a racing technique juz like drifting is.. but i'd think a more powerful version.. dragging simply put is racing down a strip of road wif power running at max n all.. n avoiding wadeva e traffic can throw at u.. its nt as easy as it seems.. u gotta shift gear up at juz e rite time.. swivel away from onrushing traffic w/o losing speed.. n of course in racing cars which most of e times are modified, u gotta burst ur nitrous at e rite time to get e rite amt of boost.. sounds cool er?! tts when a maclauren comes in handy. i want a maclauren!! bah.. but in s'pore it'll juz be a nausiance.. perfect handling yesh.. but its high acc n max speed will juz be put to waste.. o.. n initial d as a movie sux of reality.. according to f'j a need for speed underground 1n2 pro drifter.. to realli drift in real life u muz master nt juz speed, braking speed.. u gotta master co-ordination between ur steering wheel, gear shifting, gear-shift pedal, accelerator pedal, handbrake n footbrake.. which means in a small amt of time of onli bout 5s at most, ur hands will shift gear while ur legs are on e gear pedal n pedal, brake ur back tyres, of course steer, then apply hand brake while shifting gear up while keeping ur steering wheel in e rite dirn, n ur legs are on gear shift n acc.. sounds easy? easier said than done i'd say.. i couldnt even do tt using an xbox controller.. much less in a real car.. tts y i say. draggin rox!!

mugging sux.. but i guess its wad will keep me 4 these dayz.. sigh.. n there's a new dep on top of my links.. its my playlist corner.. do get some of e songs to help u thru mugging.. it helps (tts if u enjoy e same kinda music as me)

here's a song. kinda old.. but still damn nice. "hero" by chad kroeger feat josey scott

I am so high, I can hear heaven.(×2)
Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me.

[chorus(at least i think it is)]:
And they say that a hero can save us.
I'm not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.

Watch as we all fly away.

Someone told me that love would all save us.
But how can that be?
Look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling, that
world never came.

[chorus:]

Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.
It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do.

[chorus]

And they're watching us (Watching us)
They're watching us (watching us) as we all fly away. ×3

2005-06-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

been mugging these dayz.. or at least tried to.. so damn sian. everyday stuck at home facing e piles of notes thrown all around my room.. n still got gp homework havent even started at all.. wth.. looks like its gonna be another bad test 4 me.. oh well

training routine back in full blast.. dun realli wanna miss out on long break in 6mths time.. but then actually ptp isnt tt bad.. at least aft i sweat tt 1 out i might juz find bmt no kick. haha.. 2.4 sub 1030 for retest maybe? haha.. n training 4 games is back oso.. but a bit slow (ct round e corner wad to do?) rushmore vic is getting faster n faster.. but then i onli noe howda use allied :p .. i guess its e prism tanks.. where else on earth can u find a tank so powerful in offense against units n buildings.. totally crippled when i try yuri.. haiz.. more training on e cards?! doubt so

read an article in e straits time recently(try last thurs or wed) bout e plide of cyclist in s'pore.. totally agree wif e author.. s'pore juz doesnt respect us cyclist.. go onto road, cars dun give way.. go onto pavement, pedestrians give u tt dirty look when u ring ur bell at em.. wth.. n e kallang part connecter.. juz went cycling 2day n once again its a half completed work.. wad pub pipe crap.. then works suppose to resume on 1st quarter of 2005.. yeah.. 1st quarter.. *checks date.. almost end of 2nd quarter of 2005 le.. o.. n did i mention how clever e authorities are? they put a bridge in e middle of e cycling path at bradell road there.. which is good.. cos it saves ppl e trouble of having to cycle down to e nearest traffic light to cross e road.. but then its a CYCLING PATH damn it, so wads e pt of putting a pedestrain bridge there instead of a cycling bridge where there's a slope instead of steps!! wanna test my arm power zit? i guess s'pore can do better than tt.. if they're pushing 4 greenier alternatives 4 transport i guess cranking up e prices of COE aint juz gonna help.. perhaps lending a helping hands to cyclist n cyclist-to-be will actually manage e polution problem better

2005-06-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

finally recovering.. n i made a huge progress 2day!! i cleared up my desk n actually sat down 4 straight hrs to study!! woah!! tt day weiping called me to ask maths qns.. suddenly realise i didnt 4get as much as i expected.. now onli complex is big prob le.. others are relegated to minor troubles.. haha.. but fm.. die!! haha.. nvm nvm.. still got 1 week.. o.. i 4got bout physics n chem.. tihs!!! eid.. kcuf!!!

ok.. so work's SLIGHTLY better now.. n so are my legs.. means i can start training again!! else go back frm june hols realli becum slob liddat.. speaking of my body.. realise i have like a huge appititte compared to any of my family members.. juz had lunch 2day wif my uncle n aunt at sizzler tis aft.. my aunt commented tt wad i ate could have last her 2 days.. bleahz.. dun think i'm tt scary larz.. think its juz tt she havent see ac ruggers b4.. lol

i sorta pity e oac jnrs.. gotta rush out such a maj event proposal in less than a week.. hrmx.. but we shant interfere least we mess things up.. but seeing em slog their guts out.. haiz.. think they realli got e shortest end of e deal.. even for ac we had like 2-3 weeks b4 1st proposal.. n ac switch to bwm oso got 2 weeks lorx.. hope they dun burn out

my heart dictates wad my mind cant fufil.. n so leaves my soul in civil war

2005-06-14T15:09:00.000+08:00

finally back to blogging.. have been too lazy these days to blog.. n oso busy larz.. busy catching up wif some skool work n some ra2.. lolx.. guess i still realli cant find another game wif e balance as great as e ra series.. e way each unit can counter-balance another.. how swarming is onli an amatuer's way to win.. how seige can be a beautiful game indeed.. to a small extent it actually simulates real live tactical combat.. i repeat tactical.. cos its strategies tt counts here.. how to advance ur troops.. placement, defense, offense and all those other stuffs.. hrmx

well day b4 yest was atc.. its more heong than even ue n adjam combined.. esp e change over.. running/trekking to biking was real bad.. i guess i onli have myself to blame.. didnt do stretch at changeover.. so.. juz when our team overtook aj's team(cos their shawn was cramping all over).. i had to cramp.. damn damn damn.. sorry team6.. else we would have moved on much faster.. n then e cramp kept haunting me thru-out e race.. n lactic buildup was damn freakishly fast.. almost wanted to juz stop.. but then in e end it was still alrite i guess.. muz thx fjiet 4 teaching me bout suicide mechanism.. else i dun think i wld have been able to last throughout e race.. n i completed abseiling!! woah!! achievement.. but muz say i was a bit freaked out when i took e 1st step out to e ledge.. wah!! but then got reverse belay system.. so more or less assured myself to take e plunge.. n oh.. guess i moved down damn slowly.. but hey.. i'm scared of heightes k.. kayaking was fun.. but too short.. n macritchie had no currents.. no fun!! cant bob up n down.. haha.. o.. n did i mention biking?! nvr in my life had i biked at gear 1 b4.. nvr.. n i had to do tt at bukit timah hill.. e slopes there were so steep tt i think i spent nearly half my time pushing my bike up n down.. more so 4 up cos my cramp was still haunting me.. n deep heat rox!! e moment i stood up aft applying it i felt as if my legs were put into a blast furnace.. it was burning rite into my flesh!! now i noe y it relief pain from cramps.. so thx njoac team 6.. made my last adv race 4 a long time to come memoriable.. thx to avalene yeewen n jennifer.. great team tt'll sure succeed in future races.. n muz mention avalene 4 her determination.. she sprained her ankle quite early into e race but held on till e end.. great job peeps

yest went skool belay canoeist 4 their camp.. muz say yong n his ppl cant boulder 4 nuts.. they were simply trying to pull down e boulder wall larz.. onli keep using arm strength to pull n pull at e handholds as if e footholds are there 4 nth.. there's a diff between putting ur strength to gd use to make-up 4 ur shortcoming n using ur energy effectively de lehz.. aft tt was intra- ac briefing.. hrmx.. by e look of it now e event might juz be a huge success.. but its still too early to judge.. muz say log cum manpower ppl are damn funny.. when they were assigning manpower all e jokes n all

o.. n due to overexertion n too much lactic buildup frm atc n b4 tt.. my rite calf feels damn strained yest.. hurts even if i walk.. n e pain slowly spread to my rite thigh.. then my left calf kena hit oso cos i put too much stress on it to prevent using my alr worn out rite calf.. n shortly aft my left thigh acted up oso.. crap.. cant even stand properly now.. have to bend my knees when i stand else muscles will stretch too much n e mother of all pain will return.. ouch! so now cant even jaywalk.. can onli jaylimp le.. okok.. maybe my lameness had smth to do wif my current condition

ue'04 : njoac team3
adjam'04: njoac team2
nvm'05 : njoac team1 (8th!! highest achievement!!)
atc'05 : njoac team6
is tt it?! zit e end?! e last dash in a long long time to come... ...

2005-06-05T21:23:00.001+08:00

CRISIS!!!

argh!! help!! it truely is a crisis.. my gaming touch.. all lost!! argh!! 4 some1 who used to be an avid gamer.. laying my hands on all sorta pc games i can get my hands on.. tis certainly spells trouble.. haiz.. no wonder tt time went out wif fjiet n jkwok felt so enstrangled.. sh!t

was juz trying out some old games juz now (read ra2, cnc gen.s, war3, pharoah).. when i suddenly realised i wasnt as shen as b4.. crapz.. ok maybe last time oso not v shen.. but hey.. at least i cld force fjiet n co to a draw, so tts gd enuf.. but now?! think i try to go head on wif him in cnc gen.s i'll most prob get trashed within 1min?! exaggeration?! i dun think so.. esp considering how much my form has dipped.. have been completely outta practise.. all those years of tactical training at RTS totally gone.. reduced to nil within juz a short span of 1 yr.. kaoz.. damn sad to lose smth i used to hold so dear.. all my so called "capabilities" writen off by juz a year of ignorant.. haiz.. to think i was still contemplating whether to get splinter cell: pandora 2morrow, splinter cell: chaos theory or winning eleven 8 tis aft.. haiz.. think i cant even defeat an "easy" A.I. now

on a lighter note.. atc'05 coming.. better start training.. bout time i toughen up oso.. since i'm now posted to pes B 4 ns le.. still dun pass napfa might as well enjoy tis hols cos it'll be e last long 1 le.. hrmx.. come to think of it.. wad have i been doing in e past 1 yr.. turned to more outdoor stuff?! dun think so.. cos last time i played soccer more than i'm doing oac stuff now.. played more politika?! maybe.. done more work?! def nt.. i dun even seem to be able to hand up any assignment properly done n on time nowadays.. haiz.. so where exactly have my yr gone if i havent been doing anything constructive n interesting.. no good no good.. now A's round corner oso le.. nt exactly e time to do smth bout my lousy life le.. time to MUG!! (mug rootbeer any1?)

another not so sudden realisation: clearing my table has been on my priority list 4 dunno since when.. but still havent done nething bout it.. loser me!!

2005-06-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

You were destined to have a Red Lightsaber.
Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is
associated with energy, war, danger, strength,
power, and determination as well as passion and
desire. You have seen the Strength and Power of
the Dark Side of the Force and have you thirst
for more of it.

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Your a Vampire! Maybe a tad goth...your obsessed
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Sucking the blood off the innocent. You my
friend are the deadliest creature out there.

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Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
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you. You are truly a mystery.

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You are the one who hates to hate but hates to
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Your Hidden Power Is Fire

You have a strong and courageou soul. You show
no fear when it comes to protecting the ones
you love. You know when choosing between right
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Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye
Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde
streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled
back into a pony tail.

Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm
and if your low just hold on..cause I will be
your safety.....don't leave home.....

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Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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yawn.. got darn bored.. so yar.. kinda suits me somehow.. neway life's lost its aim as usual.. lost n almost giving up.. almost.. dunno wad i holding on to.. all things seem so far away now.. here's a song

"Behind Blue Eyes"

No one knows what it's like

To be the bad man, To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes

And no one knows

What it's like to be hated

To be fated to telling only lies

[Chorus:]

But my dreams they aren't as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That's never free

No one knows what its like

To feel these feelings

Like i do, and i blame you!

No one bites back as hard

On their anger

None of my pain and woe

Can show through

[Chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]

No one knows what its like

To be mistreated, to be defeated

Behind blue eyes

No one knows how to say

That they're sorry and don't worry

I'm not telling lies

[Chorus]

No one knows what its like

To be the bad man, to be the sad man

Behind blue eyes.

2005-06-02T15:17:00.000+08:00

finally back to post.. well.. havent been blogging these dayz coz was busy uploading photo, editting photos, n adapting to all those new shitty progs tt my dad installed in my absence.. which brings me to e pt.. bwm'05 photos up at http://www.imagestation.com/album/index.html?id=2125954435
at least those from my cam are.. from other cam de maybe later bah.. so it brings me to another point.. bwm camp 05 is a success.. at least to me.. 1 of e onli activities we've organised so far tt is truely perfect in my eyes.. muz thank all e snrs who came 4 e camp n helped wif our 16/13 : 35 ratio.. shorthanded juz isn't e way to put it.. more like no-handed =p .. so well.. to those who didnt come/didnt get to come/ couldn't come.. too bad.. u guys missed out on a great exp.. but then again.. muz thank u guys oso.. cos it realli gave me a new kinda exp.. success wif as lil ppl as possible.. hrmx

frm tis camp.. saw grp dynamics at work.. saw great planning skills.. discipline.. enthusiasm.. oh n not to 4get loyalty to skool.. tis bunch of jnrs alwayz seem to be tune-ready to sing "national dream".. kaoz.. even kenny oso wanna disown em.. lolx.. looking back.. tis camp has changed my impression of wad a training camp has to be.. i dun think tt its snrs nt fierce enuf (juz look at chok) but tt it'll all be better if jnrs realli realli co-operate.. during campfire was esp significant to me.. last campfire of proper edu life (nt tt i've been at many, but tts nt e point) e jnrs being so enthu.. looking 4ward to their life in oac to come.. n snrs (some at least) looking back n reflecting as e fire slowly begining to die out.. juz a word to snrs.. e flame may die out but there'll alwayz be ambers.. then got to put out e campfire.. almost didnt want to.. as me n xl put an end to our very last major activity.. i thot back...

y on earth did i join oac in e 1st place?! i noe tt wasn't realli e appropriate time to think of tt.. but hey.. i wasn't frm a ug, odac n wasnt realli extremly fit to begin wif.. shaun dragged me in aft like 3rd or 4th act aft orientation camp'04 (was cca-less then).. nite hike was fun so i stayed on aft JAE (n cos i didnt realli noe where else to go).. but hey.. it seems like tt was e end of my doubts.. e punishments our batch went throu under an extremely hasrh batch of snrs.. AC'04 let us work 2gether.. BWM'04 bonded us together.. elections.. well, sad to say it kinda seperated us.. invest n snrs farewell was our 1st try at planning smth.. open day (in which i was e ic) was e 1st major activity n was a complete flop.. snrs camp was n still is wad i'd relegate to poor organisation n discipline, not poor planning.. nite cycling was supremely well plan (i particularly enjoy all e non-formal recce, like hey.. how often do u get to speed around s'pore on a bike wif a handful of bike pro[at least at our lvl] who have as big an ego as urs?) but broke down due to poor handling by ppl (an advice to jnr exco if they ever read tis: LEAVE OUT, i repeat LEAVE OUT those who juz aint competent in cycling 4 tis 1.. it determines e amt of fun, exp, speed n lvl of confidence of ur fellow members.. i'm serious.. u gotta kick those who realli cmi out).. then b4 we were even ready (cos we still cant seem to be disciplined) jnrs stepped in.. orientation camp'04 was a new kinda exp.. working wif ppl u noe to facilitate maximum enjoyment 4 ppl u've hardly even met.. but as usual there were some problems here n there tt we cldn't cope well wif.. nite hike was ermz.. well planned as usual but nt well carried out.. e route got messy.. some grps didnt stick to stated routes, some got lost cos even snr dunno route (i'm 1 of those at bukit timah hill).. sry jason n esther, ur efforts went to waste.. AC'05 was so much better.. n they cld even reach stations b4 station master's allocated timing. BWM'05.. well wad need i say.. it rox?! tts an understatement.. we're finally able to get everything 2gether under juz a week of prep tt had some hiccups here n there.. n wad makes tis realli a succes was cos there was screwups along e way as usual.. but tis time round we cld deal wif em.. cassandra'z lil adventure is juz one of those.. kenny's idea of e impromptu basha game when we realised jnrs incompetence at basha building is another.. lu's injury n how e few of us didnt panick (proud lehz =p ).. o.. n muz specially mention kong n his trap-building.. started off as a new idea we all were skeptical about.. kong stayed back n stayed up day after day to do his research, to learn e traps, to try new traps.. even to e extent to accidentally cutting his finger.. when he was finally teaching snrs bout e traps it had became a totally brilliant part of e camp, a new idea brought to life n lead to success by its ic, kong.. his dedication n commitment (same thing ar? erm.. nvm larz) is esp commentable (nt juz here.. his attempt at cycling so tt he can go recce oso.. n wad bout nite hike?).. i dun regret voting u into exco man.. working wif u n e rest is simply gr8

so we'll be stepping down soon.. will miss tis kinda hectic life.. no wait.. tt sentence sounds weird.. shd be.. will miss e kinda fun u get as reprive from tis kinda hectic life.. sad?! a bit larz.. will miss e peeps.. proud?! definately!! proud of e work e exco put in; proud of e way e snrs guided e jnrs along; proud of e jnrs soon to take over..

woah long entry!!
replies:
to all: yesh! bwm rox!! it'll go down in me.. snrs, thx 4 all tt u peeps put in.. jnrs, thx 4 being there
mj: sorry we had to scratch triage, but u do make a gd faider yeah
kong: like i said above.. u did a great job.. n u're a pro faider le.. gj

history is e past to e intellectual; memories is e past to e soul

2005-05-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

1st-ly.. allow me to say "WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!"
haha.. whee.. its juz surprising how tis 1 single event changed my mood totally.. woke up still moody.. then was totally swept off to despair.. b4 hope, joy n finally jubilation took over.. 6min of blitzreig was all it took.. a wave of strong teamwork n belief.. great job liverpool.. totally made my deprival of sleep worth it.. we'll now walk e streets wif pride n gusto.. so wad if we cant take 5ht slot.. bagging e ultimate prize is more worth it!! =p n b4 e match if u'd told me it was gonna go into penalties.. i'd have told u pool wld have lost.. but seeing e greatest figthback of our times.. i'll tell u.. y wun we win it?! wads there to lose neway!! we were down 3-0 frm .5time can comeback.. n even reaching e finals on a transition yr was gd enuf.. kudos to dudek.. but hey.. dun screw up so often larz.. yeaH!! now tt we've won e finals.. e ball is in uefa's n eng fa's court to decide whether to allow us next season le.. hrmx.. enuf said

some ppl dun seem to have a temper.. but its nt cos they dun have 1.. its juz tt they dun wanna show it.. kk nuf on tt.. 2day went to buy stuff in prep of camp.. then i was suppose to purchase lamps.. so ok.. went beach road there wanted to buy tis $110 rechargable coleman lamp (can claim frm skool so hack larz =p ).. but then needa charge 20hrs juz to use for 8hrs!!! crazzy!! called lumch n he said dun buy then.. kaoz.. where got tis kinda thing 1.. waste energy.. kaoz.. efficiency=40% onli lorx.. diaoz.. so dun dun dun obey e law of COE =p

skool's closing.. time to dive into some fun.. but then still muz mug.. haiz.. hack?! mug?! hack?! mug?! wad kinda hols tis.. nvm.. most prob tis will be my last post b4 hols start proper le.. camp's on 28-30th.. buzy buzy.. time to leave in style

2005-05-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

2day arrived late in skool.. by 10 mins.. y? all cos e bus i took took half an hour to travel from cj to sji.. which is like 1 stop away!! knn jam all e way.. its like after e sji turn in rite.. road all empty.. like wtf.. e uncle sped all e way aft tt.. bloody knn rich kids.. dun understand environmentalism ar.. lol.. 4 once i'm a greenie =p

i'm seriously a bit pissed.. dunno y.. maybe its their attitude.. cant stand it.. hrmx.. hope i'm not bias.. chok tried disiplining e jnrs 2day.. hoped it work.. else.. haha.. leave it to em to find out.. neway had secret activity at oac land 2day.. lol.. kinda cool.. muz thank kong 4 all those hard work he put in man.. he's one hell of a committed person.. way to go kong!!

have turned kinda cynical about sexual equality lately.. esp aft tt a*star bitch is complaining.. i kinda agree wif wad 1 of e guys wrote in about.. come on wake up larz.. e world isnt perfect.. u ppl cant juz expect tt cos u are built more genetically deficient/weak/low-class n wad not tt ppl used in e past tt we're to feel sympathetic/loving n wad not 2wards u ppl.. lame shits! wanna win something work 4 it.. dun expect ppl to pamper u. hope i didnt offend any1.. hrmx.. but i'm nt gonna try 4 any a*star scholarship so nvm larz.. haha

anyway gtg catch some sleep.. its almost 11 now n i still gotta wake up at 230.. yeah!! watch e red blaze at istanbul!!

to leech: star wars doesnt sux tt much larz.. but i agree wif u.. LOTR better.. haha.. actually most trilogies are nice.. cept maybe HARRY POTTER.. yuX!

i dived myself into work.. to hide my sad sad self.. to leave my soul in storage.. to not betray my feelings.. i wanted to be e perfectionist tt i was.. to make everything flawless.. but failure alwayz had his way of finding me.. 1st open day (some ppl say its nt my fault.. but i feel e least i can do is bear responsibilities.. since i was in control) then snr camp (humans do screw-up.. n so e screw-ups are e humans!) on n on n on.. til now.. haiz.. nothing has been going e way we planned.. well.. nt EXACTLY e way we planned.. lose le.. last few days to do 1 last big thing.. not gonna bother how ppl view me le.. i'm nt gonna care.. i'll screw ppl if i have to.. i'll shout n yell.. i cant contain tis any longer.. i juz wanna leave tis place intact, n leave behind an intact place.. no more arguements.. no more disturbances.. tts how i wish it to be.. n tts how i'm gonna make it!!

2005-05-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

hrmx.. some interesting things happened recently.. but e prob is.. my memory space too limited to handle all those info.. so auto-deleted.. haha.. muz be my mind too busy processing equations.. neway here are some of e stuff i rmb:
1) wed: nj sports meet. its cool cheering ur lungs out 4 ur house.. n laufing at chris ho n some other ghey maths teacher runnin.. omg.. a gd lauf.. neway saw e 38th do some of their stuffs.. yet to impress me i muz say they have.. maybe is too high, the standard set by 37th
2) thurs: my calender on my table started off wif a record on Star wars opening on tt day.. n a note asking me to check wif fjiet n j.kwok whether wanna pon skool 2gether to watch.. then later added on a maths lect test.. aft tt added on another SPA skill D test.. crapz.. a wonderfully perfect day spoilt.
3)fri: nj vs vj soccer match at some ulu ulu place near town.. we were saying like how a nite walk there will totally make ppl freak out.. esp if we wanna make it freaky(hehe).. a well fought match i might say.. nj scoring frm open play b4 complacency took over(humans aint perfect however much we try to be).. conceded 1 in 1st half.. 2nd half concede 2 more.. tis time both thru corners.. hrmx.. maybe e coach might wanna train set pieces in prep of 3rd n 4th placing match.. as usual e 37th were being as extra as they were.. haha.. cheering their hearts out besides e 38th.. but where was hankit?! hrmx..

of.. nuf of e past n get back to e present.. 2day morn wenta watch starwars wif f'jiet n j.kwok.. juz settled last nite wif a quick phone call to each other n web check.. hrmx.. overall ok larz.. bordering on nice side.. but guess i wasnt able to enjoy e movie as much cos its like i noe e ENTIRE STORY!! hrmz.. drawback of a prequel.. maybe next time can buy down e entire set of dvd or smth n show my sons.. maybe then can they enjoy e show watching frm 1 to 6.. but then again.. maybe nt 1.. phantom menace plain sux.. all tt i can rmb frm tt show is darth dunno wat wif his dual-end lightsaber.. obi-wan wif his dual lightsaber.. n of course.. queen amidela(did i spell tt rite?) competing wif ayumi to win e weirdest costume cum dress sense award.. plain stupid movie tt was.. hrmx.. comparatively 3 is nice.. like e cinetography(spelling smth liddat 1 lar) of certain parts.. esp e fight btw yoda n sidious.. haha.. (ps.. 4 those in 4 a spoiler read on.. else skip e red part)

e way e setting in which sidious n yoda were playing 'force' games in e old senate house was juz cool.. esp aft amidela commented on "so tis is how liberty ends... in thunderous applause". sidious throwing e senators seats was so symbolic.. e dark lord hurring notions of liberty n freedom at e last line of defence of e gd.. then later.. juz b4 yoda makes up his mind to escape.. tt scene oso damn nice.. e sorrow in yoda eyes were juz so real.. as he looked up at his cloak falling until it got stuck at one of e debris of one of e senators seat.. hrmz.. so nice.. wad a way to signal e end of his way of life, a way to signal his admit of defeat, his feeling of loss of all tt he stood for.. juz so perfect

well neway i muz say amidela is juz a pain to watch.. disrupt e flow of e entire movie.. kk.. tts all 4 my 2cents worth.. act i dun mind watching it again.. so long as i can get my ass to stick to e small seat 4 2hr 14min.. hrmz.. oac jts outing to watch star wars ne1?!?! haha.. o well. realised i'm drifting away frm my past lifestyle.. no longer e gamer i once was.. totally loss my touch le.. hrmx.. n felt as if i'm getting more n more diff frm fj n jk.. nt gd either.. y e gap.. nj n aj both mugger skools wad so shdnt have much diff.. haha.. maybe june hols go their hse xbox again.. haha.. kk.. tts tt.. til next time

almoz 4got to reply tags:
leech: lol.. i bet nearly all oacians b3came pigs aft tt day lorx.. hrmx.. bwm camp still to come.. maybe pig again then?! lol
jw n aud: sakra-lings?! pesek-lets?! erm.. all i can say is dotz
lu n moz: wad e.. my tagboard bcum oac grps adv board liaoz.. haha.. nt tt i mind act
duffy: yeah. ac rox.. so goes 4th spot.. but there's still 25th may!!!!!! no worries.. n i'm surprised milan's criticising us 4 playing canteccno(wtf u spell tt) when they were e ones who started tt way of e game.. lum asses they are

2005-05-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

ok.. finally back to blog.. life has been getting on.. n taking its toll on me.. so AC juz passed.. well it was gd.. juz tt we had some screwups.. but they were minor compared to all those we've organised so far.. realli muz thank those tt helped e event flow.. was snr attached during e entire race.. realli saw e sakra(-lets?!?!) work 2gether.. but i muz say.. they shd gel more.. wif all e walking n all they nvr seem to chit chat much.. conserve energy they say.. but in e end they all still konked out at rom.. haha.. way to go sakra!! felt tis yr's ac more competitive than last yr.. when all e grps were like so close 2gether cept ketam.. realli like amazing race liddat.. a small mistake might be costly.. juz ask brani bout it

back to life.. slpt 16hrs frm yest 11+ til tis morn.. haha.. realli like pig liddat.. eat slp eat play eat slp play slp.. omg.. i'll feeling sluggish alr.. haha.. end up 2day go skool all tutorials undone even aft long weekend off.. haha.. nt my fault k? i'm nt a lazy bum.. at least trying nt to be le.. jct's coming.. hand over's gonna be soon.. dunno wad to feel oso.. proud?sad?happy? hrmz.. then aft tt.. a responsibility vacated n a new workload imposed.. haiz.. life's suddenly so damn bleak n hopeless.. n prelims isnt even close.. wonder how i'll survive pass a's

i thrive on strength.. i thrive on hope.. but when e going get tough.. i juz dun seem to get going...

2005-05-06T13:00:00.000+08:00

Wad'll u do if e sun sets n u noe it'll nvr rise again?
was juz reading pradz blog n pondering over my mentality towards life now when i came up wif tt qns.. n my immediate reaction was? to put all stuff aside n appreaciate e beauty of e last sunset.. to juz 4get bout everthing n make tt moment last 4ever.. gee.. wad a no-brainer i am.

neway 2day was trying to learn how to make weapons frm kong.. haha.. my 1st try at a sling n instead of throwing out e stone i let e entire sling follow suit.. bleahzx.. n i realised tt a small stone can make a huge impact frm great height.. hrmx.. ponder.. twirl it tied to a string over ur head (F=[mv^2]/r=T, no work done).. give it enuf energy(E=.5mv^2+mgh).. project it high up frm uphill(R=[{u^2}cos{2(tether)}]/g).. n e result is a solid smack on e ground(F=ma=m[dv/dt]=mv[dv/dx]).. an impact(Newton's law of restitution, e=0) made tt cld have killed, if nt at least oso can cause serious concussion.. lolx.. side effect of doing too much mechanics.. back to e stone throwing.. now i juz needa perfect my throwing technique to hit a target can le.. then can kill.. muahaha
Do u noe tt everytime u're near.. everybody else seems far away

2005-05-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

woke up yest nite at 0345.. damn.. missed e whole 1st half of e L'pool chelsea match.. but hey.. when i turned on the tv.. pool 1-0 chelsea.. i kena stunned.. but in a gd way.. e match was damn gd.. e back 4 were simply superb.. finnan containg cole, hypia denying drogba, n carragher showing great heart in defence.. in mid-end half.. i thot i was at world cup 2002 again.. france vs senegal aft senegal scored e opening goal of e cup.. chelsea was prectically throwing every single man into our half.. but gd thing was e midfield cld stop e attks.. if not then e back 4 did perfectly well protecting dudek.. thk god nt 0-0 draw then go penalties.. as wenfoo put it.. they had cech while we had dudek.. howda win kickout? now tt

e road to istanbul is complete

benitez can at least place a bit more effort trying to retain 4th spot.. else if totally rely on finals is realli a big gamble lehz.. whee.. totally over e moon now! u'll nvr walk alone!!

k.. enuf of soccer.. work suX! lum suX! but still.. life wun be as fun as it is w/o those down times.. was looking at calender yest.. 1 yr past wif me counting each day.. hoping 4 it to end n achieving nothing much.. now its so soon b4 my time in nj end.. nt tt i'll particularly miss it a lot.. but still.. u get wad i mean.. 2 more mths to passing on.. A's juz round e corner.. n if i still remain tis unfit NS will follow VVV soon after. ok.. still got pt wif jnrs tmr.. neway juz heard 4 oac councillors got into exco.. kaoz.. 2frm sakra 2 frm pesek.. wadz tis man? frm 1 6th hse rep to 7 37th councillors wif 3 in exco.. now 12 38th councillors wif 4 in exco.. a bit e erm rite. ok.. gotta run.

reply to tag: tis is a simple reply tt goes out to all.. PESEK SUX!! n sakra doesnt rock.. cos noway are we gonna be related to pesek.. sakra juz RULZ!!

2005-05-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

We fight 4 e victory we fight 4 e glory we fight wif a spirit nvr seen b4

those lines suddenly struck me when i was trying to catch up wif my work 2day.. did i live up 2 those words? well.. last time maybe.. but now? i finish my work to satisfy my conscience.. if like e subject scope i'll dig so deep.. if i dislike it.. too bad.. shd tt be e attitude? n my duties? i feel like it i'll come up wif smth.. true tt creative juices dun juz function when u want em to.. but do i even try? speak wad of e glory? i dun even feel lite around me.. e quest of knowledge? e quest of self-discovery? Care Honesty Service? think i'm seriously lacking in these departments now. Case ne1 of u dun understand wad crap toking me.. e 1st line is part of cat high skool cheer.. Care Honesty Service is a translation(lousy but a translation nonetheless) of chs skool motto 亲爱忠诚，敬业乐群。

on sat i got bored n went to join e elects camp.. watch e 38th in action n ok.. some of em realli deserve to be there.. some.. lets juz say i suspect bribery.. nt of the 37th but of e voters.. neway they were hiking.. frm bukit batok to bukit timah then to macritchie.. nt tt i didnt noe e route.. it was e nite hike route in reverse.. but the stations there made em jumble up e order.. i was wif shauns grp.. n boi do they noe howda navigate their way.. speed nt there.. sense of dir nt there.. no wonder started frm 3rd b3cum last.. but at least they noe howda get emselves all going (aft much help frm e 37th tagging along).. now tt 37th are stepping down soon muz realli thank em.. they had a great term (much to my self-reflection).. brought wad i'd nvr have thot of to happen in nj.. boi aint they great.. the passion tt burns.. no doubt e 37th have loads of tt.. now it remains to be seen of e 38th....

neway.. mayday suppose to be slack day.. contradictory to the name of e day itself.. but somehow teachers still force us to labour(nt give birth larz u dimwit).. n i have a FM test tmr.. crapz.. so past 2 days studying.. wad a way to spent my hols!!(there i go again) n still got homework undone.. perfect! ok.. shall go savage wad i can 4 gp research now.. haiz.. commitment!! haha.. or quote yong.. effort!!
nuf of my ramblings.. reply to tags:
shaun: yar.. we rock.. them too.. but next time if 38th org hikes they betta nt go 4 recce on foot
moz: yupz is qing tian.. er.. gd mehz.. i think 七里香much nicer
jw: yesh its jay.. n he juz happens to be e onli chinese singer i listen to.. much to my lack of confidence in chinese
huilin: like i said.. jay's a carbon based compound.. n pesek sux =p

2005-04-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yest went 4 second med check-up.. tt stupid doc.. made me wait like 4 one hour juz to wait 4 my pupils to dilate.. crapz lorx.. make me unable to face daylight.. nt tt i have done nething tt cant see daylite larz.. ok.. tt was so lum.. wth.. then aft tt juz checkup 4 less than 5mins?!?! n juz say i can leave juz liddat.. nvr even tell me i pes wad.. idiot.. but i gather shd be pes c le larz.. since he nvr say nething.. die.. now muz go pia napfa le.. else 1wk rest onli i die le lorx.. haha

Began reading new novel 2day.. realise i've 4gotten how gd it feels to juz sit back, chill n enjoy a good storyline.. neway its TimeLine by michael crichton.. sci-fi thriller.. realli nice.. n i like e way e intro was written.. below's an excerpt:
(blah blah blah)
So it is fair to say that even the most informed scientists, standing on the threshold of the twentieth century, had no idea what was to come.
(blah blah blah.. n i mean a lot of blahz)
These quantum curiosities , defying logic and common sense, have received little attention from the public, but they will. According to some estimates, by the last decade of the new century(which is TIS century), the majority of physicists around the world will work in some aspect of quantum technology.

Nvr has anyone made quantum physics, a totally amazing and confusing field sound so comprehensible and enjoyable to me.. well.. as Richard Feynman(1967), a quantum physicist himself, said "Nobody understands quantum theory".. guess i'll juz go pursue my maths.. speaking of which.. lum kinda sux.. haha.. his s'tutorial 2day was.. erm.. sucky.. haha.. but dun dispise him k.. cos he can teach u CHI^2 (read KAI squared.. but we call it CHEE neway =p ) distribution in FAIve minutes.. juz as much time as it takes me to have CHEEken rice with LUMcheon meat.. haha.. man i'm turning 3a-sque.. ok.. til next time

2005-04-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

watch e world burn at my hands

finally rediscovered my touch for maths.. now i feel high!! haha.. been doing maths 4 an hr n i'm still tt.. haha.. gr8 improvement frm slacking like hell last time le.. FUN MATHS!! =P kk. better stop.. else ppl will think i'm cra-Z(which i actually am.. crazy bout maths =P) act wadz getting me TIS high is music.. its juz a pleasure to blast music in ur precious ears n be doing ur work.. makes things so much easier.. wonder y exams no such things allowed.. haha
plz value my input
neway past week was pretty uneventful.. sat was AC recce.. n tt was my 4th consec sat in april doing cca stuff.. nt tt i mind.. but then i need a break oso.. april like onli got sun n 30th free 4 me to slack around le.. sux.. haha.. well it'll all end soon.. n i bet i'll miss tis kinda life.. haha.. irony.. aint life full of tt.. speaking of which.. still got GP research gotta do.. haha.. wad utilitarianism.. i found a book published on e internet.. copied into words n it was 46 pages long.. wad e.. cant even bother to read now.. haha.. tmr gp confirm die le.. haha.. helP!

L'pool lost again.. tis time to crystal palace.. kaoz.. benitez ar benitez.. 4 all ur fabulous work in e champs league it'll be juz ur undoing if we cant qualify 4 e champs league next season thru e EPL.. tt is if we can act lose e champs league now tt we are tis close to it.. hate 4 everton n e need to deny them is 1 thing.. the means to get there is another.. wanna suan em oso dun need take such a hard route 1.. neway here's my 2cents(no wait.. 1cents no longer in circulation).. ok.. make it 5cents worth of e champs league.. being a l'pool fan.. i'll say pool beat chelsea.. 0-0 at bridge n 2-0 or 2-1 at anfield.. possible?! ask benitez larz.. then PSV will beat milan.. 1-2 at milan then 1-0 at home.. n plus knowing milan.. think they'll conceed in like late late 2nd half.. ok.. tts realli realli 5cents worth.. i'm supporting e "underdogs"!! neway below is e lyrics 4 e song 晴天.. rediscovered it recently.. its nice.. enjoy

曲：周杰伦词：周杰伦编：周杰伦

故事的小黄花从出生那年就飘着童年的荡秋千

随记忆一直晃到现在 re sou sou xi dou xi

la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

吹着前奏望着天空我想起花瓣试着掉落为你翘课的那一天

花落的那一天教室的那一间我怎么看不见消失的下雨天

我好想再淋一遍没想到失去的勇气我还留着好想再问一遍

你会等待还是离开刮风这天我试过握着你手

但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见还要多久

我才能在你身边等待放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点

从前从前有个人爱你很久但偏偏雨渐渐把距离吹得好远

好不容易又能再多爱一天但故事的最后你好像说了拜拜

2005-04-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

2day was pretty smooth.. but was it cos i didnt stand by my view.. was i too easygoing bout stuff.. i juz didnt wanna get things all messed up again.. i juz wanna run away frm problems n potential problems.. but has tt resulted in me shutting off frm my heart? n can u juz try to learn to BE PUNCTUAL?! u aint everything u noe.. we can start w/o u while u're out enjoying urself.. but wad do we get 4 respecting u n ur input.. a pissed attitude.. n when we take up e work by ourselves? u give us a black face n storm out.. bloody perfect.. haiz.. i'm at fault.. at fault 4 trying to be some1 i can nvr become.. i was nvr born a leader.. nvr tried to be in front.. but haiz.. now can onli hope everything will be fine aft june/july.. hope tt my memories of nj will at least be half as fufilling n fun as tt of cat high
maybe i'll look back at 2day n realise tt there realli is a gap in my heart
even though 2day was fine 4 me, wasnt so for some ppl.. cos one of e TA 2nd lvl classrm had their bags ransacked.. n 4wallets n 5 phones are missing.. seems like theift in nj is on e rise.. like wad samual yeo(he himself a previous victim) said.. top 5 jc still got tis kinda immoral ppl wondering around.. n to think mrs mariam tan has so much faith in us tt she's 4ever toking to us bout how she believes nj kids are sound n all.. haiz.. n do we ever have e rite to suspect other skool ppl who come in for sports events? tis time realli overdid le larz.. even need to have police come.. haiz.. wad has nj become
i'm realli nt feeling v nice now
o well.. enuf of me brooding n trying to be an ass to HIGH ppl.. haha.. music!! haha.. going crazy over nice nice songs recently.. all credit to huiyang.. haha.. expose me to anime themes.. now i hooked le larz.. n oso lord of e dance's music.. so darn nice.. haha.. flute techno rocks
but somehow my heart forces me to smile
n yar.. l'pool form realli inconsistent.. draw tottemham.. haiz.. look likes we realli have to conquer e champ's league le.. haha.. benitez is realli working up miracles.. n i aint complaining.. haha.. juz nt happy tt everton n bolton are riding over us =p

2005-04-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

haha.. k finally back to blog.. lets recap.. skool these days are juz as monotonous.. sometimes it is such a bore i wonder y i didnt go poly.. haiz.. ok.. shdn't complain.. look on e bright side.. at least i dun have to spend 1 more year of my life under e spore edu system.. haha.. sat was kayaking again.. n it was quite fun kayaking out in more choppy waters.. much nicer.. haha.. n e feeling of like u're gonna capsize is juz so funny.. u dunno whether to try riting urself 1st or prepare 4 capsize drill.. haha.. n yeah.. wave riding is fun.. haha.. u go bobbing up n down in e water in ur kayak.. haha.. pretty cool ei.. haha.. so long u dun capsize.. haha.. ok.. now to e present.. 2day napfa.. bloody weeak.. fail again.. haiz.. like so many items personal best larz(pull-ups included).. 20pts lehz.. haiz.. gotta retake all 6 items at 1 go again larz.. sianz.. neway 2day 2.4 was nt tt gd.. bad start then had to cut so many ppl.. n even kena lap by titus on 3rd round larz.. haha.. act all these no pt oso.. cos i currently PES D.. haha.. so if recheck they send me to PES E then i can hack le.. haha.. o well. shall go slp.. damn shagged now

2005-04-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

yest was sat.. n yest was kayaking.. n kayaking was nice! ok.. shall stop trying to sound like a retard.. haha.. well.. kayaking is plain fun.. but nt real waters yet.. so nt as exciting.. looking forward to capsizing more next week.. haha.. next time shd go kayak more.. haha

changed skin le.. erm.. as in nt shedding larz =p .. but neway tis skin now is my wallpaper.. no no.. i havent turned sadistic n cut off moi own skin juz to decorate my room =p ok.. no wonder i feel handicapped 2day.. tt was lame.. but tis wallpaper's way cool.. haha.. guess i'm in luv wif naruto le.. these dayz are busy sourcing 4 naruto picz, naruto songs n of course waiting 4 new chapters in e manga

n yarz. oac photos are up courtesy of our admin off.. she finally decided nt to slack n do her job so here we have it.. oac photos! haha.. found under my links.. go check it out.. ok larz.. give her some credit larz.. admin off is hardworking cos she gets all e shitty paperwork while i get to slack =p

2005-04-08T17:40:00.000+08:00

Shikamaru: You're Shikamaru. You're a pretty lazy
person, and you'd refuse to do anything if it
might be a pain in the ass. Though, when you
find something worth doing, you set out to do
it right and devote yourself to it.

.:What character from Naruto are you?:. (20 results with pics)

2005-04-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

e light of e North,
shines South.
e path to the East,
leads West.
e confined powers,
flow out.
e diminishing light,
shines!
reawakening!!
haha.. realised i cld be quite a philosopher.. juz let my train of thots run wild.. haha.. 1 morn n my life nvr seemed so clear to me.. =p .. muz be e hike making me crazy.. hey mj.. if u ever read tis.. cheer up yarz.. n i'm nt sure if its us nt doing things e rite way.. come tell us wad u think k? think its juz us nt wanting to be like our seniors..

anyway nite hike was cool.. aft e initial lecture by ms chua e grp realli stuck 2gether.. realli gd to see tt.. but somehow i find e way they relay msg funny..haha.. the way front man describe terrain is juz.. erm.. corny to me.. haha.. n me was juz as lame as ever wif leech trying to improve hiz gp by transposing every msg tt was passed down.. haha. til then.. i shall go trash pradz upside-down

2005-04-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

results are streaming back.. n i'm damn affected.. hell.. well.. maybe its juz me.. too competitive.. too result orientated.. shit.. nvm.. still got ct2.. ct2 cmi still got prelim.. prelim still cmi then might as well go book slot in ite le =p .. these few dayz in skool quite sian.. all work work work.. n all e teachers trying to prep tok us.. to hell larz.. still got 7mths.. not "onli 7mths left".. maybe its e teachers who needa get taught how to be opptimistic.. stress stress stress.. ok i'm not making sense.. but neither is e world around/inside me

nite hike tis sat.. hope it'll be fun.. n pyro better keep up speed.. show aura tt we owe e nite =p.. there goes e competitive me again.. haha.. n oac is getting more n more fun.. yest when we were doing rope obs qiyang n they all were realli damn funny.. momentum momentum momentum.. haha.. lauf until i wanna roll.. n e jnrs realli luv their cards.. it seems they go newhere oso muz play cards 1.. lolx

lost le.. like totally.. cant do anything to help myself.. e key is lost.. my rage is missing.. n gone wif my rage is my fighting spirit.. i juz wanna vanish now.. disappear n nvr appear until i feel angry again.. not feeling pissed n frustrated.. n def nt feeling bitchy n lost like an idiot.. i cant stand a day living on tis earth now.. oh wells. maybe these are my last words =p

2005-03-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

F-maths Fmaths Fmaths.. screw it.. mugger yeo u dare mention tt in front of me again i'll beat u to a pulp.. totally screwed.. caught off guard n i was totally defeated.. but hack larz.. ct over le.. erm.. phys S ar.. think i'll hack n join O2 in e morn :P .. was so slack these days

aft ct.. super stone.. nt to do.. no aim no drive.. juz sit in front of com n play play play.. haha.. n shaun has improved in gb by leaps n bounds.. haha.. he qiang zhe now larz

2day cycling trip in ubin.. so many casualties.. haha.. i nearly joined em.. but i still luv e way heng fell.. bloody funny.. n he skidding on floor tt time still can smile.. crapz.. haha.. ok ubin was fun nt e least.. been so long since snrs camp went there le.. n e jnrs are enthu.. gd gd.. haha

Captured queen spades.. all hearts.. but wads e use.. i dun have e QUEEN OFmyHEARTS

2005-03-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

2day was start of term.. start of CT.. start of nitemare.. had 2 papers 2day.. onli 4 words to describe em due to my limited vocab.. horrible horrendous terrible horrific.. ok.. simply put.. Bad bAd baD! haiz.. 1st was GP.. act ok ok larz.. maybe can pass.. MAYBE.. ok.. HOPEFULLY seems more e rite word.. then was physics.. SPA was like.. erm.. i puked out all tt i memorised during e break?!?! then e CT paper.. argh!! Ek=1.5nRT=1.5NkT.. tis stupid formula i swear i'll rmb 4 life le.. cos tt screwed up cyclic process qns i on rite track le.. then last part is found T le then 4got how to relate to Ek.. n e 1st thing tt came to my mind was Q=mc(delta T).. then relate change in U=Q+W.. but f.. argH! no m no c.. how.. erase all my previous workings n whosh.. all gone.. bleahz.. sigh.. me stupid wad to do?! anyway still got 1 whole day 4 wadeva i still cant rmb 4 maths.. maybe factor in a while 4 chem.. so now SLACK!!

seemed to have loss my will.. cant fight no more.. so maybe if u kill me now u'll injury unhurt.. cos i cant fight!! gee.. i juz cant find wadz drove me last time.. no discipline liaoz..

yayyz.. L'pool won 2-1 .. so even if we cant take 4th spot.. we'll win e CHamps league juz to deter Everton..
tt was juz a sidenote.. =p

2005-03-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

Juz realised i cant rmb a shit bout even e most basic trigo.. fuck! lost my perseverance.. lost my will to fight.. even my self-control went MIA.. juz seems i cant be bothered to sit down n do smth constructive.. but its nt tt.. its juz tt i'm screwed.. damn screwed.. guess tt kinda sums up wad bright prospect i still have 4 my common test..

laser pointer: small, concentrated beam
torch: un-focused, weak
street-lamp: bright, timely
moon: shiny cresent blade
stars: bright dots in e dark nite sky
sun: powerful, radiant n omni.. like a caring mother showering her luv over e earth
me?! lost in e darkness.. wif nth to guide me.. nth to shine e path ahead

2005-03-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hols juz started again.. wth.. maybe shd be called "skooldays where u get to wake up damn late".. haha.. cos still got tt stupid CT to work 4.. cant fail siaz.. else my parents will realli screw me.. but somehow everytime i wanna start on smth.. e enthusiasm is there.. but somehow it always leave me in e blink of an eye.. is my attention span realli tt short?

yest went back chs collect 03 yrbk.. haha.. tt fag principal owe us tt 4 like a yr le larz.. then somemore consolidate it wif 04 to give us 03/04 yrbk.. not tt i mind actually.. at least i noe wadz going on 4 1 more year.. hehe.. then went canteen stone wif pf n shaun.. haha.. e lower sec bois are realli boys man.. haha.. realli small small cute cute lil bois.. i dun even rmb alex ko being tt small.. lol.. but then again.. e upper sec like alot got attitude probs 1.. either tt or i see muggers-in-e-making.. haha.. n has e skool changed! now even got rockwall. but then again, there's so many tiles in every single slab of e wall tt shaun was braggin he cld complete it in 10s.. wadz more.. its onli like less than 3 stories high.. haha.. then yest all e UYO were having their training.. looking back.. i realli regreted not joinin 1.. maybe at least i'll realli come out a diff person.. perhaps even learnt something more.. haha.. cos in ComAC/ITS/SnT realli slacked until learn nth much

every1's juz nt emselves these days.. e feeling called joy has been kicked outta e land on mankind it seems.. n a much celebrated immgrant has arrived.. name.. MASK of joy.
e deVil has slipped back into seclusion.. n in his place remains an empty shell.. while in e skies there shines a lite of hope.. fear there is tt e future will juz be a memory of e past.. e present a reflection of dreams..

2005-03-05T16:51:00.000+08:00

Anger?! wadz tt?! perhaps its my inability to understand it.. or maybe its juz in-built into me.. i dun seem angry.. not at least to myself.. fact is i'm juz.. erm.. destructive.. things were built by Man to be destroyed.. n Man built things to do so.. we created dynamites to shift mountains.. n chainsaws to fall entire tree (provided it havent laid its hands on a human body).. n of course.. even weaponaries to remove our own kind frm tis planet.. gee, aint tt cool?!

Sometimes i wonder.. y did whoever created us/evolution give us such a powerful weapon in e form of our brain? to enable us to understand our own biological functions n thus to carry em out n heal ourselves so as to proceed with e above? or to enable us to understand our biological structure n how it works n thus to stop n destroy it? haha.. if its e latter i wun be surprised.. after all tts wad we humans have come to be professionals in.

Someday we'll be e doom of ourselves.. n i swear i'll wanna be there...

2005-03-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

i'm juz crazy rite now.. feel like destroying some stuff.. guess it boils down to hatred of myself.. my imperfection perhaps? maybe its juz me.. most prob is.. but anger seems to be e onli way out for me..

Emotionless ME!

someday i'll juz hide myself.. maybe juz sleep 24hrs n wake up next day to find out how e world has gone by w/o me.. juz like everything would aft every1's eventual death.. maybe i'll be happier.. cos i'll noe life is juz so meaningless.. or rather juz biologically defined.. n nothing i do will affect e great scheme of things..

now i noe y i luv red so much.. cos it resembles bloodshed.. cos it resembles e raging anger in me.. n its juz perfect over black.. a hint of a bloody n utter destruction tt rises from e ashes of doom, darkness.. br...

clouded senses.. wants n feel e need to kill.. destroy.. n juz throw in the urge to watch things burn.. wanna watch e LOD at its peak? look no further..

2005-02-17T06:25:00.000+08:00

Yoz.. haha.. in bytes now.. juz finished some crappy personality test.. ok larz.. not tt crappy.. cos at least its quite true.. haha.. "like to win", "likes to execute plans and generate results in as fast as possible".. hehe.. boi aint tt true.. but gee.. its still crap. Anyway waiting 4 make-up lectr.. tis days aint so smooth sailing le.. always seem to be screwing up in wadeva i do.. too slack? cant be larz.. haha.. work has been pouring in too.. n teachers are juz becoming more n more screwed up.. lol.. aint they alwayz.

The stars above say tt there'll alwayz be lite
But wad of the sun tts ever all so bright?
traeH Illuminating e land of my Heart
traehrunisdnehcihw Footsteps n showing me where the path lie whichendsinurheart

2005-02-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

bAck.. yest was fri.. decided to go skool in e end.. surprisingly.. there were so few ppl who poned.. but was declared half day anyway.. cos of some reason tt no1 bothered bout.. anyway.. yest skool was supposed to end at 1320.. so 1140 still didnt make much of a diff.. but its a welcomed break anyway.. haha.. aft skool went out wif a few classmates have lunch.. haha.. went to all u can eat sushi buffet.. me chok n weeleng combined 1 table finish off wad would accumilate up to 52 plates of food.. muahahaha.. fat le =p .. then walk round orchard.. wah.. look here look there all njcians larz.. haha.. even my class was there.. so wth, nj juz got livelier.. haha.. 2day morn had training.. stairs again.. n i did record.. SLOW.. argh!! muz have been cNy.. so went craZ n walked round tp.. no aim no reason juz walk.. n i realised tp got a lot of nice views.. tt's if u bother to take a lift up to high high places larz.. super windy n view unobstructed.. think i was even looking at jb.. lol.. next time grow up le sure muz get 1 of those flats wif such a cool view man

weird thing happened juz now.. was dld songs(as usual =p) when i chanced upon e song 'e call' by BSB.. well.. brought back lotsa memories.. those of 2001, back when boy bands was all over e place(think BSB, westlife, A1 etc).. ar.. e old days.. gee. i'm speaking like an o' foggy alr.. haha.. 4 now.. ciaoz

2005-02-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

Finally bothered to blog.. 1zt thing 1st.. hAPPy CnY every1.. enjoy e next 14 days of it.. all e goodies blah blah blah.. haha.. but NVM coming.. so oacians better watch urself.. haha.. 2day muz have been 1 of e 1st cNy since i was born tt i didnt eat lots n lots of buak kua.. managed to limit myself to 1 small tiny winy piece.. haha.. but tts juz e nice part.. cos i claimed nearly all e pineapple tarts.. yum yum.. haha..spent e whole day playing cards wif my cousin.. due to their young age n my mum being around i wasnt allowed to gamble.. so it was kinda damn boring larz

yest cNy celebration.. then cheong back cat high meet teachers cos they were suppose to leave by 11 4 some staff lunch.. so cheong cab wif yaMMy n yy larz.. end up reach there njcianz were e latest larz.. but i still manage to catch mrs neo, mr heng n mr wang larz.. ms saras stayed too aft ah fei called her to stay longer.. boi has cHs changed.. i enter e staff rm all e names of e teachers nearly half i dunno 1.. maybe more.. even da lang gou(tenence goh) has left.. dunno whether tis batch of new teachers can teach or not, since they were brought in by tt incompetent bastard lee.. even those teachers tt stayed on seem more stressed under him.. wish em luck.. maybe they can hope 4 a transfer out tt other school.. like joe lim liddat.. aNYway.. aft tt went out wif 4-4ians to j8.. to reclaim our loss territory tt e underground muggers took over..saw s12 ppl at pastamania.. then when we finally finished wondering around n deciding on a place to makan in tt crowd, we went to macs(bus interchange tt 1) n found an even larger crowd.. haha.. then zheng or was it yammy suggestted we barge into party area.. haha.. aft tt chs '04 joined us in another part of e room.. haha.. fancy seeing j1 n 2's sitting around in e party area toking cock.. lol.. alaric n domdom dunno y nvr join us.. n tt sheng went out wif his gf.. frien enuf manz

Been kinda craZ dis dayz.. out of sync wif my mind.. numbed of emotions.. pissed at nothing, everything.. e emptiness of nothingness, my mind

I'm tired of all e work .. e stress
i need a break frm all this sh!t
i cant survive on adrenaline all day
even my system need a cooling down period
but in my heart my lonesome soul
searches 4 a resting place .. its home

2005-01-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

*pst pst* woah.. tis place is totally stagnant liaoz siaz.. haha.. mosquito spray oso useless le.. anyway i havent been away 4 no reason.. unlike so much others who were busy wif their orientation n stuffs.. i was busy reading up e naruto series.. haha.. finish all tts realeased 4 now.. haha.. i think i seriously hooked le.. but then.. its a real nice series wadz.. no sin committed either.. other than not mugging =p .. so yar.. e new year has run on 4 2weeks since i last posted.. n e new skool term has seemed much of a relief.. much shorter skool hours.. shorter period (though can be a bad thing cos i get to sleep less!) .. more friens to be made.. but in wadever pleasant e situation is.. i'll alwayz find a thing or 2 to grumble bout.. haiz.. wad a brat.. anyway orientaiton camp 4 year 1 oac juz ended.. it was a success.. thx seniors cos e year 1 seemed to have enjoy emself.. ur hardwork wasnt worthless.. thx thx k.. haha.. n pradz.. thx 4 coming down man.. haha.. on a SIDE note.. haha.. where's all e advanturous young men gone to.. 4 e camp the ratio of guys to gals was 1:3 larz.. wah biangz.. muz have been e 1st time in oac 39 years of history tt e gals outnumber the guys to such an extend.. there was like onli 10 guys 4 e seniors to look after.. haha.. not tt some of us minded ;) (rite bAb) but then.. still a bit the pathetic larz.. haha.. seems like xiao hui's cca carnival was too much a success.. either tt or v.cheng has gone sexist n has began flooding nj wif girls onli.. haha.. speaking of tt bitch.. man she really noes how to treat children.. 2day contact at hall onli late a bit onli wad.. make e whole lvl walk in walk out like we kids practising punctuality liddat.. got mental problem 1 lehz.. either tt or maths n common sense suck until cant diff 18 frm 8.. erm.. 16 frm 6 for e few cases of kids amoung us.. so yar.. maybe i'll post more frm now on.. since i no longer got naruto 2 keep my eyes glued to e monitor.. hehe.. till 'en ciaozZ

2004-12-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hrm.. long time no post.. haha.. well so shall update on New Year's Eve being stuck at home.. juz had AdJam comp on 28th thru to 29th.. was a fine exp.. Great fun journeying round S'pore doing some of the stuffs so typical of ODACs.. haha.. n i completed my 2nd rockwall.. haha.. cos it was so darn easy larz.. though the fear alwayz remained there.. haha.. e bouldering was even worse.. might as well change e name to walking on tiles.. bleahx.. well did kayaking n cycling n of course trekking larz.. saw a few familiar faces.. like Shunyi thru e entire comp n Shihong when we were kayaking at Kallang there.. speaking of kayaking.. our kayaking realli CMI 1 lehz.. hrm.. next year muz bia kayaking le larz.. haha.. n so ends my adventure 4 e past few dayz.. e past mths n e past year.. haiz.. new year le.. a mix of thots.. e past year.. haiz.. seems to b a mixture of blessing n disaster.. a mixture o happiness n joy.. juz as we are bout to bit farewell 2 2004, a disaster of n EQ resulting in tsunamis has to hit......
juz as most of us would no doubt sigh at the relief of no longer having to see Saddam running free, Osama has to pop out of seemingly nowhere to threaten ppl then dissappear into thin air again......
As wif us seeing Aust putting in their best effort to help e disaster striken Asia, US n UK pledge so great an amt of money yet juz a puny % of their state treasuries......
N while Everton FC, not even ranked as one of the rich clubs n in fact barely feeding its players, set up a fund to help put wif the area hit by the tsunamis, we see other top flight clubs pledging £50,000 each, like come on larz.. Man U pay Keane much more that tt per week lorx......
Of course, look at Kaka, a football superstar in e making helpng in all aspects of charity, n if onli tt bitchy billionare of no-other-use-other-than-to-be-an-icon Beckham can pledge juz 1 week of his pay along wif his current team mates both at e club n nation level, wad a better world tt would have made......
As wif our homeland, where we are able to be reliefed tt SARS in no longer a major threat to us now, the H5N2 or zit H5N1 virus strikes fear amongst us......
And the mother of all ironies.. e mass murderer himself capturing one of his fellow kind then using it as a trophy on an election year to get himself re-elected.. none other than our dear Bush..
wad can i say.. perhaps e weather 2day reflects e passing year.. though there's sunshine thru e land, there's a drizzle to dampen wadeava good mood u're in.. 2004 is a weird year indeed.. so look 4ward 2 2oo5 we shall.. n all hear.. Go Do Ur Hmwrk larz.. haha.. 2 days more onli.. no more slack le larz.. haha.. so Happy New Year All n cyaz round soon

2004-12-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

2 blogs in 2 consecutive dayz.. woahz! haha.. amazing!! nyway realli seems like i've too much time to spare.. esp now tt my attachment has ended le.. haha.. no more boring office work stoning in front of the comp trying to figure out how to write the prog code.. hurray.. man tis short span of 10 days really made me reconsider my carrer options.. haha.. teaching suddenly seems so much more interesting.. other than going thru the same stuffs yearly.. u get to meet more kinda ppl.. n intereact wif em.. which is most impt.. cos a life devoid of human touch is devoid of interesting things.. at least so i think.. haha.. hum hum.. seems like my time is gonna be wasted on such random thoughts anyway.. haha.. which reminds me.. HOMEEEEEEEE.. but tt can wait.. i'm not gonna mention tt cursed word n spoil e festive moods.. haha.. erm.. but aft the celeb seasons.. hrm.. any1 finsih those damn stacks of stuffs yet? *hints hints* haha..

LOVE
Messenger of light frm the angel;
Omen of sadness frm the devil.

Constructor of e beautiful happiness;
Destructor of e peaceful lives.

A caring touch to removes void in lives;
An evil power to tear down strong personalities.

sometimes i'm juz so confused wad tt simple term us human call luv can do.. some juz seem to bask in its glory.. but i happened to see it break down 1 of my friens juz recently.. maybe The Ruler frm Above has decided it'll 4ever be a mystery to me...

2004-12-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

Finally bothered to blog.. cos i've recovered most of the stuffs tt i had b4 i reformatted the com.. haha.. excuses excuses.. anyway the hols are coming to a close le.. so's the year.. i seriously needa reconsider wad i've done tis year.. all the time seemed juz to disappear b4 me.. i'm one year older w/o any real memory of wad had happened to me.. guess i'm still living in the past.. living in the way of the ancients.. AnywaY.. smth terrible is up.. yupz.. u guess it.. H.O.M.E.W.O.R.K.!! betta known as he-who-shall-not-be-mentioned.. the mere mention of tt terrible monster juz leaves me in shivers.. i juz cant imagine myself finishing off the homework tt i was suppose to have completed thru the entire hols in a short span of.. wad.. 1week?! die.. haha.. but lucky got bAb as a reliable source of answers.. haha.. n i managed to do tt lil amount of work 2day cos i pon attachment.. haha.. stayed wif the few of em in kap n did some maths.. i repeat.. SOME.. argh!! haha.. end o the year.. celebration season.. so perhaps i shd juz burn all my work in a bonfire.. haha.. n its time 4 reflection le.. sort out the priorities of my pathetic life.. learn not wad i've done rite but wad i've done wrong (bet tts hell lotsa stuffs).. bail my ass outta any form of political circles (at least try).. pray (to whoever it may concern.. haha) tt he'll find reinforcement 4 me n allow me to take 'leave' frm tis sick place now.. n yar.. happy hol's
.. or wadever's left of it.. o yar.. 1 last thing.. plz V.A.N.D.A.L.I.S.E!!==================>

2004-12-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

haha.. noticed smth different around here? look carefully.. spotted it yet? no?! then search more carefully.. yeah.. i'm 17!! one year older le.. haha.. juz one more year to being able to make more legal decisions.. but oso one year nearer to having to heave my unfit body thru ns.. haiz.. havent been training.. n my body now is like so unfit due to all the eating n the holiday season isnt even here yet!! eeks.. die die die.. muz train more more MORE!! hehe.. sides tt.. 2day was mainly an uneventful day cos its not in my family to celebrate bdays.. haiz.. morning was some reflection session.. the year past.. haiz.. the year coming.. even more haiz.. then got so sick of staying at home tt i went out to walk.. yar.. juz WALK.. nth else.. haiz.. like a lost kid wondering in the streets liddat.. wait.. more like lost GUY now.. haha.. anyway walk walk walk until i reached j8.. not tt far larz.. then rain!! of all things have to rain.. so took bus to suntec.. heard from aud tt she doing some cip 4 the standard-chartered marathon.. so went there see see.. saw andy n shiyun there.. i think i spotted christine oso.. haha.. well.. i juz hope next week's cip aint as boring as wad i saw 2day.. well.. then i wandered round suntec aimlessly.. b4 i finally decided to do smth amazing/eccentric.. i decided to walk from suntec home!! n i made it all the way lorx.. haha.. come to think of it its truly mad but hell.. at least i had smth to do 4 a change.. walk walk walk.. think think think.. all sort of random thots struck me.. but somehow they seem connected in some freaking weird way tt onli i can figure out.. n i reached home after juz a short 2hours!! or maybe tts long but hell.. its amusing how i managed to do tt after.. erm.. a highly unfit lifestyle these days.. n boi has the s'pore skyline changed.. haiz.. guess its juz the course of nature/technology.. enuf of my crapping.. found tis song stuck somewhere in my media library.. kinda connects wif me.. perhaps its my song..

The Ramus:"In The Shadows"

No sleep

No sleep until I am done with finding the answer

Won't stop

Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer

Sometimes

I feel I going down and so disconnected

Somehow

I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

They say

That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe

But I

I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave

Sometimes

I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow

I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life

Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something

Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher

I've been watching

I've been waiting

In the shadows all my time

I've been searching

I've been living

For tomorrows all my life

I've been watching

I've been waiting

I've been searching

I've been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

I've been waiting

2004-11-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

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What elemental dragon are you?
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2004-11-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

Juz got back from first aid course.. bloody sianz.. theory tt lect tok until i zZzZZ.. but since when has lectures not been meant for sleeping?! :p haha.. anyway yest happened to pass by chs on bus.. round eight smth le.. haiz.. looking at the lights shine down at the grandstand really makes me hope to be a young kid again.. stepping into cat high wif fear of the unknown of wad was to come.. but now looking back.. haiz.. n esp since it was the nite.. the scenery was really beautiful.. how come i didnt seem to notice these sights back when we had our 1st track n field meet held at nite in sec 1? was i too busy fooling round wif the class n being amused by mr heng playing number games wif us when he always seem so strict? or when we had the drama nite? was i too busy celebrating our double awards? or when we came back from ndp'02? was i too distracted wif our celebration of us not screwing-up? then wad bout one of the time i stayed thru the nite in skool prepare 4 micromouse comp? too busy in my discharge of duty?! haiz.. seems like i really need to be more appreciative of the things around me.. miss 4-4.. looking 4ward to 11dec.. anyway til then shall go zZzZZ.. 2morrow is the fa practical le.. dun want later blur blur fail the thing then really can go jump.. haha.. cos cant torture innocent casualties wif my highly doubtable first aid skills.. n cant legally kill ppl using CPR.. haha.. so ppl.. pray i pass.. lol.. so tt i can be of greater GOOD to the society.. lol

2004-11-19T17:20:00.000+08:00

Arr.. finally most of all the stuffs are over.. the hols are finally more clear le.. *sigh of relief*.. 1st was the all so screwed-up PW OP.. grrr.. no coments.. haha.. then went oversea 4 a short trip tt made me miss all the seniors camp preparations n stuffs.. haha.. so tis time round i was super slack :p .. haha.. so good job to the rest of the excos cos if not 4 em slogging their hearts out while i was so relaxed the camp wun even have took place.. then the well.. erm.. long awaited seniors camp.. well.. the camp went well.. cycling wasnt as much a disaster as could have been n nite bashing resulted onli in a few lost sheeps who eventually cheated n followed the white tapes to the end point.. haha.. well at least all went well.. so thx all 4 turning up 4 the camp.. esp the councilors.. they havent had much chance to bond wif us n tis was a v good opportunity.. i think we had quite some fun.. n ubin mosquitoes realli SUX.. n i mean it.. my rite knee itself had 15 mosquito bites.. well of course some credit goes to the sandflies too.. but well.. haha.. then cheong back to s'pore zZzZZ.. next day was cheonging again.. well almost.. cos tt stupid wenfoo dragged me n chok to nite cycling recce then he ownself woke up onli 1h aft meeting time.. typical wenfoo.. wad can u expect.. then somemore wanna leave by 5 cos he wanna go meet his lower sec class which of course has a member now in S28.. so in the end the whole journey was cut short alot by taking lotsa shortcuts here n there n of course by speeding larz.. so fast tt my leg nearly cramped which is not normal when i cycle.. then a short break of a day b4.. NiTe cYclIng itself.. which was yest nite til 2day morn larz.. but b4 tt went to jas hse play mahjong.. n they made me cook dinner.. actually is all of us cooked cept shi lei larz.. haha.. she slack until like mad.. haha.. then we forced her to do all the dishes.. serves her :p .. nite cycling was still enjoyable larz.. tts provided u are wif me chok n shaun.. haha.. the 3 of us were in front cycling like so fast tt we gotta stop to wait 4 the rest so often.. opps.. haha.. but i really muz say we cycled too slowly 4 the entire journey even if our batch not so pro at cycling.. esp the changi airport stretch of road.. we were cycling at less than half the speed tt me chok n wenfoo used 4 reccee along tt stretch.. so we were behind time 4 tt part even though we allocated much more time than actually was needed.. n poor audrey hurt herself.. haiz.. n come to think of it.. xiao hui didnt hurt herself cycling.. woah a 1st :p :P :p .. haha.. n so we journeyed thru the eastern part of s'pore doing crazy stuffs like trying to get up steps on bike n crashing down parked motorcycles (dun ask me how kong did it.. he's juz strong i guess) 4 the entire nite/day till daybreak when we finally reached our starting pt again tis morn at.. hrm.. 630?! haha.. so naturally breakfast 4 me was served at 1430.. haha.. hrm.. n tis few days smth seem to be troubling me.. cant help it.. dun even actually noe wads screwing me up frm inside.. i'm juz feeling crapped out i guess.. so sry 4 all having to endure me tis days.. esp during seniors camp when i was pulling a long face.. sorry k? haha.. til then dun expect more updates cos most prob i'll be too busy.. busy playing n slacking

2004-10-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

i dunno wadda hell happened to my blog.. maybe kena hacked into larz.. dunno oso.. the previous post doesnt belong to me or any1 tt i noe of i guess.. cos no1 noes my usernick AND password.. n i doubt even if any1 noes he or she would be so bo liao.. haha.. anyway yest promos end liaoz.. haha.. like FINALLY.. haha.. all didnt go exactly well but juz hope can scrape scrape pass thru to nxt year can liaoz larz.. haha.. dun wanna retain oso.. haha.. anyway juz got back from class cip/outing at sentosa.. haha.. SLACK!! was kinda crappily fun larz.. but hrm.. bo bian.. haha.. cycled down there oso.. haha.. ok larz.. but the bikes not tt good.. haha.. n ex.. best part muz still be playing cards.. tts when all the crapping come in.. haha.. n so.. looking 4ward to more of these slacking days.. will update more often oso le.. haha.. now tt exams are over every1's blog seems to have sprung alive.. haha.. n i'm addictted to Fiesta de la noche by O-Zone(pronounce o-zon).. n juz in case any1 out there wants O-Zone songs can get frm me.. i dld their whole album liaoz..leech: the layout bit sucky larz.. but i like the colours so til i find a nicer design wif the same colours seems like u ppl gotta live wif tis 4 now.. sry (=
mj: i dunno whos myra lorx.. so like crap when i saw the post myself
luuu: i got spell ur nick wrongly meh?! not lucinder ong mehz.. haha =P n i dunno whos myra n whoever was the person who blogged.. piece of crap.. haha.. cos i not as scandalous as u!! haha
jw*: haha.. cos i DIDN'T wanna say much oso wadz.. haha.. anyway wadz ur blog?
aud: thousand mile is okay okay larz.. but i once heard weiming played it n its nicer on the paino

2004-10-06T16:33:00.001+08:00

haha.. finally the last day of torture is approaching.. only fm left n i alr feeling relieved liaoz.. all i can say is i really looking 4ward to playing playing n playing like mad but then make time stand still juz b4 we get back results.. well so much 4 exams.. dun wanna tok bout it.. ziah.. party plans more important!! 4-4iansz.. when u all want soccer?! preferbly after open days i guess.. haha.. n yupz.. any1 who happen to come here.. care to join me n xian lun 2morrow.. needa pull in more ppl lehz.. haha.. then yupz.. music!! ppl!! go find!! I'm juz a kid!! by simple plan!! haha.. its not juz 4 ppl like xp or lu.. haha.. its DNS (darn nice song)!! haha.. so yupz.. all cheer up kaez.. the bloody monster of a promos is almost thru wif u!! 4 those who alr finish all their papers.. congrats.. dun bother bout it anymore.. throw it outta ur memory.. haha.. escapist mentallity.. hehe.. n xh: haha.. maths did sux.. juz hope fm wun be tt bad =P.. haha.. n its juz down to 1 more.. 4 u 2 larz.. hehe

2004-10-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

Haha.. juz found out tt Dragostea din Tei got eng translated version.. haha.. will post it below.. haha.. recently have been on a downloading spree.. haha.. juz pray my record dun make some music company manager go berserk.. haha.. n mugging mugging mugging.. the count down has began.. 5 more days til my final liberation.. well really needa mug.. anyway to all 4-4'ians out there.. can we like meet up aft promos or 4 shieh's case module test at wm hse.. back to the gd 'o days of juz playing soccer then bbq at his hse.. haha.. sry to use his hse again.. haha..realli miss those days where we juz play soccer then aft tt sit down crap.. ziah.. the responsibility of age.. the work load.. the stress.. bleah.. dark dark path ahead.. n yarr.. the wonder of youth.. juz look at rooney.. if he continues liddat horx.. there'll be no denying tt even henry might have to concede his crown to him liaoz.. ziah.. n yupz.. the promised translated lyrics of dragostea din tei:

Ma ia hi
Ma ia hoo
Ma ia ha
Mi ia haha(×4)

Hello,Hi
Its me,an outlaw
and please except my love happiness

Hello,Hello, It is me Picasso
I gave you a call
And I am tough
But I want you to know
I ask nothing from you

You want to leave but
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can'tYou can't take me
The image of your face
And the love of the linden tree
Remind me of your eyes You want to leave but
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can'tYou can't take me
The image of your face
And the love of the linden tree
Remind me of your eyes

I phoneTo tell you
What I feel now
Hello,My love,
Its me Happiness

Hello,Hello,
It is me Picasso
I gave you a call
And I am tough
But I want you to know
I ask nothing from you

You want to leave but
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can'tYou can't take me
The image of your face
And the love of the linden tree
Remind me of your eyes

Ma ia hi
Ma ia hoo
Ma ia ha
Mi ia haha(×4)

You want to leave but
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can't take me
You can't, you can'tYou can't take me
The image of your face
And the love of the linden tree
Remind me of your eyes

2004-10-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

Lost: You drift through life, unsure of your
feelings or goals. You are depressed, but
generally indifferent to what is going on
inside and around you. All you want is to feel
a sense of belonging.

What emotional state are you?
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2004-09-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

Yayy.. 1st paper over!! almost one thrid the pressure off liaoz.. haha.. gp is scaredy lehz.. alamak.. the compre passage the eng so chim i dun even understand lorx.. haha.. siazn.. well still got more to come.. anyway feel kinda crappy now.. haiz.. while man u did a super recovery to win 6-2 n even tt super off form raul can score double l'pool has to fall 1-0 to lowly olmpiakos.. ziah.. guess we really will miss gerrard.. o ritez.. 2morrow pon double GP.. erm like DUH.. haha.. perhaps we shd ask ms ng to move her lesson earlier since she has no lesson then.. haha.. yarr.. so once again gd luck all taking papers.. n yar.. juz found out tt nj n vj open house same day!! argh!! y liddat?! now i cant go crashing liaoz larz.. sianz.. stupid vj y put same day oso?! argh!! nvrm.. i guess we can make it up by putting on a better show!! then vj shall have no visitors since i'm not going =P.. haha.. evil.. but then of course i hope Nj got lotsa ppl coming.. haha.. cos i open day ic wadz.. haha.. we'll totally rock the house DOWN!! yeah!! haha.. but til then shall go mug mug mug n mug somemore.. haha.. otherwise i kena 3yr jc life then chao boring liaoz.. haha
jw*: haha.. of course i'm innocent.. haha =P
aud: haha.. archery of course fun larz..next time go archery l2 course larz.. haha.. then can use the big big bow n look cool.. haha
lucinda: haha.. need i say again?! archery IS fun.. haha.. no ip kid then wad.. ip baby ar?! erm.. well shall spare u tt larz.. toddler fits better.. haha.. n u nvr tell me u got blog!!
mj: haha.. red is cool lehz.. haha.. n u shall NVR beat me at marvel.. haha.. no chance =P
xp: haha.. red not def means nj lorx.. red means LIVERPOOL!! yayy..need i say again?! archery rox.. haha.. n yar.. ip got students mehz?! how come i dun see any around *glares around*

2004-09-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Yeah.. back to create more trouble.. haha.. i noe i shd be mugging.. i noe i shd be doing my pw.. i noe.. i noe.. haiz.. ziah.. but whu cares.. haha.. tis few days are really full of crap.. haha.. life is as bleak as the nitez which i'm typing under now.. ziah.. haha.. looks like i juz created a new word.. ziah.. hrm.. 2day went archery course.. haha.. fun lehz.. but its HALF AN ISLAND away.. sianz.. znais.. haha.. maybe shd try yishun safra.. go see see if got or not.. haha.. well at least archery was fun.. haha.. well i muz say chok shoot darn well.. haha.. n some of the girls displayed "thru shot aura".. haha.. they managed to squeeze their arrow thru the tiny wheny hole b/w the boards.. haha.. i muz still say lu's the best.. haha.. arrow hit bulls eye liaoz then rebound out.. haha.. if not she'll have gotten 71.. n tts shy of chok's score of juz 6pts.. argh.. haha.. further reinforces the pt of 'nvr judge a book by its cover'.. haha.. well in tis case is 'nvr judge an ip kidd by her size'.. haha.. oh well she'll probably vandalise my taggboard after tis.. haha.. but nm larz.. its quite stagnant anyway.. again partially my fault.. which brings me to the pt.. GO TAGG.. ahahahaha.. ok.. shall be nice n add a 'plz?!' arh might as well throw in a *innocent look* haha.. crap.. yeah so to all who are still here.. wish u luck 4 promos.. cos if u're here u're either too free from not revising or revised finish liaoz.. n in the latter case then plz come find me.. i'll personally sux some of ur brain juice away.. speaking of which.. now nj bytes doesnt seem to be short of ppl there whole day round these days.. haha.. more n more ppl are popping by to play com games at tis time.. haha.. to hell wif the 'nj mugger spirit'.. haha.. yeah!! even baboon goes there to play so wad can u say.. oh well .. so yeah.. ziah.. go tagg n bb

2004-09-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

You are the Sun card. The light of the Sun reveals
all. The Sun is joyful and bright, without fear
or reservation. The childish nature of the Sun
allows you to play and feel free. Exploration
can truly take place in the light of day when
nothing is hidden. The Sun's rays fill you with
energy so that you may live life to its
fullest, milking pleasure out of each day. Such
joy and energy can bring wealth and physical
pleasure. To shine in the light of day is to
have confidence, to soak up its rays is to feel
the freedom of a child. Image from: Stevee
Postman. http://www.stevee.com/

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2004-09-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

Haha.. okie.. fianlly bothered to blog.. lifes a mess now.. promos jzu around.. ar ok.. lifes got its ups.. but these days the downs seems to be coming in huge abundance.. ok.. dunno waddda blog.. nth to blog.. no mood to blog oso.. ok.. so plz stay tuned aft promos.. where hopefully i'll get in the mood to blog larz.. haha.. till then.. i leave wif tis song.. shaun tt idiot got me addictted to another of ozone's song
O-Zone - Despre Tine
Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant,Si zi si noapte larolei.

Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant, si zi si noapte.

Ma trezesc cu tine-n gand,
Despre tine vreau sa cant,
Melodia mea de dor,
Care place tuturor.

Nu raspunzi la SMS,
Eu iti scriu atat de des,
Poate m-am purtat urat,
Dar sa stii ca te-am iubit.

Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant,Si zi si noapte larolei.

Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant, si zi si noapte.

Daca mergi cu mine-n vis,
Am sa te invat sa razi,
Si-am sa-ti cant pana in zori,
Cantecelul meu de dor.

Nu raspunzi la SMS,
Eu iti scriu atat de des,
Poate m-am purtat urat,
Dar sa stii ca te-am iubit.

Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant,Si zi si noapte larolei.

Ma inec in ochii tai larolararolei,
Plange lumea dupa ei larolararolei.
Esti un inger pe pamant,
Despre tine cant, si zi si noapte

2004-07-26T08:29:00.000+08:00

haha.. at home nth betta to do again.. argh!! i-music not working.. no penny n me!! boohoohoo :'(.. haha.. but anyway i'm gonna take it down liaoz.. time 4 dragostea din tei, the roxiest hippiest addictive-iest(?) song eva.. haha.. n 2day found a new song.. 'thunderbirds are go' by busted.. dunno if released in s'pore yet or not.. but anyway go chartsingles.net to find it.. hrm.. tis morn my sis damn shit.. argue wif me 4 no bloody reason then still cum whack me.. fine.. so in the end i wanted to kill her.. swinged a punch straight at her back.. damn i missed her spine.. but anyway i didnt really wanted to kill her larz.. if i really had wanted to i'd have used a chop at her neck from behind, more effective.. juz damn angry.. crazy 1 lorx.. haiz.. enuf o tt.. on the bright side though.. 2morrow back to skool.. haha.. wow how BRIGHT can tt be.. haha.. which kinda reminds me havent done no stuff tis weekend.. haiz.. so sianz.. then 2morrow aftnoon got peer-mentoring n aft tt still got deco com meeting.. another day lost till the nite again.. to all 4-4ians out there.. can we like have a gathering during the national day wkend?
to: Xiaohui: so bad meh? proposals in ur dreamz?? alamak.. haha.. u needa de-stress!!
Mel : thx 4 the correction.. haha.. as usual me china sux to da core *wah core damn hot lehz*.. anyway wads interesting huh???

2004-07-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

Ok.. so i'm back.. not actually cos i'm not free(if u dun see me online everyday u muz the the 1 offline!!!).. cos i cant be bothered.. haiz.. tis few days damn sianz.. all day long damn moody.. haha.. according to chok is called 'bei qing suo kun'.. but where got?? ritez?! ;) tutorials not done.. sleeping during lectures.. playing games at bytes during lunch.. hating ppl.. sometimes i really wonder how much worse i can get.. sianz larz.. really muz start working liaoz.. so if u see me round juz remind me yarz.. haha.. next wed OAC.. to all the councillors.. IF U NO GM THEN PLZ PLZ PLZ come down 4 activities can?! u ppl dunno miss liaoz how much lehz.. kk.. shouldnt bore u ppl wif my crap.. lets move on to my life.. er actually wont be much betta lar.. missed 4-4 massive gathering (argh!!!) on sat cos got exco dinner.. then ar.. tis few days all my life's been PW + meetings.. haha.. kinda sianz rite.. so now i shall add in 1 more element.. MUGGING!! haha.. as if tt'll make it better but wad to do? me not like pf lar.. hehe.. o yar.. Peng Fei.. u go man.. u rox.. i'm behind u.. haha.. so if u happen to stumble by my humble blog.. pls go leave a tag over.. er over.. o.. over there *points down*.. which kinda reminds me.. me n richard was so bored during gp lesson in com lab tt we went around tagging.. haha.. then later same day shauna went to do the exact same thing.. here's reply to the tags.. haha.. so few!!
Shihong: no i not going.. heard from limin u going.. wif some1 horx.. haha.. enjoy urself k!
Shaun: if i could get it it mp3 format i wun have needa put tis song on repeat here n leave it on my com juz to here it.. haha.. cheapo larz.. o.. 4 those who dun noe juz click on the 'stop' button n tis song'll stop.. but then who'll stop such a nice song ritez.. er.. yar.. LEND ME UR MP3 player
Brent: i mean DUH!! tis song ROX the world over.. haha.. thx 4 dropping by!
XP: hey tt <= looks like a smiley.. okay lar.. u aint a kid.. maybe a toddler fits betta.. haha
Xiaohui: thx.. i like the dragon too.. otherwise i would have change the format of tis blog liao lorx.. looking 4ward to working wif u, ms secertary
Kwan: yo thx 4 dropping by.. i link u back k

2004-07-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. so the lazy boi is finally back aft *looks down* 2weeks exact.. hehe.. n yayys cos i've managed to load tis song here.. but wads more.. now i noe who to approach when i need music!! haha.. so in tis few daes had BWM camp, BWM camp dinner and elections interview.. n of course larz.. back to skool.. sianz.. go back skool still not doing any wrk wads the pt.. haiz.. BWM camp was held in Ubin n it really really was fun living on the bare minimal of modern comfort.. imagine sleeping on the jungle floor full of tree roots wif only the groundsht b/w u n em.. well it cant be denied tt it was hard.. esp wif the seniors constantly punishing us 4 lack of teamwork, discipline n blah blah.. BUT i'll nvr 4get tis exp.. next.. BWM dinner.. haha.. went to the marina south there steamboat dinner.. it was so fun.. but wads more.. it reminded me of the last time i went there wif 4-4'03.. will nvr 4get the great times i had wif my pals there both times.. tt time bachelors' gathering we torture life prawn so tis time obviously cant rite?! so wad we do.. the ppl from guys skool started PUNNING!! it was damn funny larz.. all the 'Uncle Ben's stick','Choksticks(chopsticks actually)' n lotsa sabo-ing n phototaking.. so shiok.. ahha.. elections interview.. as usual i screwed up tis 1 oso.. i mean which interview have i actually performed well b4.. n tis time damn pressure siaz.. 8 excos plus 3 teachers staring at u.. like derrick n heng said 'eye power siaz'.. lastly.. skool.. haiz going to tutorials wifout doing any stuffs n going to lectures to listen 4 0.5 hr.. the remaining half is 4 sleeping!! but 2day's physics lect super-duper lousy.. the lecturer really dunno howda teach.. down there stone 15 min then the remaining hour went 4 a sound slp so tt wun sleep during double gp.. n guess wad.. i survived double gp w/o feeling a tint of sleepiness.. all due credit goes to tt physics lecturer.. so here ends another entry.. gotta do some reflections again so tt i dun lose focus *takes out mirror*.. hehe

juz some random thoughts:
in the sunshine..
staring at the sky..
filling my mind wif thoughts..
but yet it is a blank..
frowns..
u appear..
talks to u..
u share my troubles..
my true frien u've comth............
SMILES

2004-07-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

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Hey... the description actually sound kinda cool... hehe... suits me... anyway cts are FINALLY over... yayy... now if only i could dun get back the results... haiz... a look at how many marks i've lost due to leaving blanks ONLY sum up ot round 60~80... means 20 AVERAGE per parer... sianz larz... anyway 2day aft physics paper went to canteen stone to discuss partying plans... haiz... go there stone 4 like 1 hr liaoz still not decided... got kinda pissed... miss the gd ol' days where we'll simply have had everything planned out then cheong straight to target... manz! so in the end suppose to go daniel's house play ps2... went toa payoh makan LJS wif mugger yeo seetoh shauna n wx... we down there crap lots n then oso we decided to find out some bout lynette's luv life wif chris... i mean it was the all great scgs pres n his advertising head's ideas larz.
then in the end went wx's house wif the rest cept mugger... played bastard teiti... manz... when i was the shit once i rose to being the king... w/o any pics card n largest card being 8!!! haha... had a great time larz... then lynette replied shaun's sms like damn late saying 'ha...u think leh?'...manz... no prizes 4 guessing the ans liaoz lorx... then aft tt sms wx was like super high on luck until a certain point... where he suddenly drop to shit 4 no reason... guess wad was his tripping stone... he complained lynette mus be cursing him!!! lolx then aft tt everything we were doing somehow will have to do wif lynette... super crap siaz... then ciaoz home n here i am!!! sianz 2morrow still got fm make-up tutorials 4 differentiation... crapz larz... till the next time... i'm outta here... QUOTE O the DAY: u guess leh? =P

2004-06-27T17:28:00.000+08:00

haha... finally back again... sorry all who bother to stumble upon my humble blog... has been busy(?) tis daes... busy slacking =P... cos i suddenly realised tt i've not been touching my work much... esp maths... argh!!!... but anyway have been spending the entire day cramping maths formulaes n stuffs into my puny lil' brain in anticipation of a much dreeeaaadddeeeddd school reopening 2morrow tt involves me putting into gd use my low lvl of vocab n equally if not lower lvl of IQ trying to write a decent enuf essay n figuring out some alien signs all within the span of 5h 45 mins!!! haha... tt was such an optimistic pov =P... anyway heres a recap of the last few days.
FRI- ENG crashed out... soccer at street soccer court weiming house in the morn... or at least supposed to be... cos somehow or another while waiting 4 dom n wm to go get keys i sprained my ankle... B4 the GAME EVEN STARTED... ARGH!!!...n i had to do so 3days 4 school reopens... haiz...so went to wm house to slack wif yiyang n mel instead while the rest enjoyed their soccer session... me n yy played PS most of the time while mel went to work on his maths... then later kiat chay wm seetoh shunyi joined us 4 another short round of ps b4 we went thomosn plaza 4 lunch while shunyi went off to join his frien... repeat... FRIEND... lolx... then i called my dad to ask him bring me see sinseh... ended up only aft dinner had time to sit down n mug
SaT- GREECE beat FRANCE... yayy... i was predicting a france vic... but it turned out to my liking thou not neccessary my ego's... underdogs rulz... Cat high homecoming cum Fiesta... went in the end despite my injury so as to pick my o's cert up... 1st thing reach G.O. see who??? LHB... man i really down on my luck... so i walked out see andy then go join the rest chit chat 4 like 15min?... then hurried wif andy collect cert... tis time round LHB not there... aft tt cheong home... haha... instead of settlin down at my desk 4 some last min mugging i went str here to engage in some stress relieve... b4 i even started to welcome in the stress =P... ended up wasting my whole day away... was suppose to sleep at 10... but ended up slept at 12... i mean slept on sun
SuN 1/2- woke up at 2.45 as my hp alarm sounded... haha... instead of sleeping on to recover 4 last min mugging i rushed to tv to learn physics by seeing how ppl curl the ball wif their feet, chem in seeing van der mayde van nistelrooy van bronckhorst van der sar in action n van de varrt on the bench n in the end hallucinating bout van der waal's, GP by stringing together totally chim phrases such as 'refree kayu' n learning howda commentate, bio(although i no longer take it) in seeing ppl somehow nvr seem to bleed even if their knees are struck by studs n dun have an injured ankle like mine even when struck wif full impact of a sliding tackle n dying even when hit straight in the spine or worse the neck... ar enuf of me laming around due to my injured ankle... match of the competition... HOLLAND vs SWEDE... quite an interesting match considering both their strategies are to push the other out by outscoring... smth czech managed to master much to my disgust... 1st half hol played well... only quite as they were not tt enthu... wanting to keep possesion at their own half only to have some1 cross the ball up n get it lost in the midst of jumping... napped 15mins then woke up 4 2nd half... tis time the oranje army are attacking... esp in last 10~20 mins... we were virtually pushing the swedes to stand in front of their goal mouth... but nonetheless the swede did some good defending n the match ended 0-0... some fancy footwork came from Andy van Meyde n Arjen Robben... couldnt bear to watch xtra time n in the end penalties considering how we always flater in tis parts... so went to sleep zZzZ(those who have read until tis part may wanna consider napping too after reading so much of my crap)
SuN- woke up tis morn to find out tt we won... yayy... 'our dick(advocaat larz) has balls'' our dick rulz' lolx...then went on to do some mugging b4 now here i am spending the last 1/2 hour(???) updating =P...
finally *huh still got ar?*... mug hard ppl n gd luck 4 jct... or perhaps i shd retract some considering the sry state tt i'm in now... so it'll be wish me luck =P...
til then(most likely thurs so u dun have to put up wif so much of my crap) i'm outta here

2004-06-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

hey hey... long time no blog... bleahs me plain lazy lar... wad to do? haha... came back from yltc on wed n slept like 18hours atfer 5days of cheonging tt had less than 48 hours of sleep to accompany it... sianz larz... 1st was pre-camp then UE then 3straight days of yltc to come along... wad an eventful week siaz... lemme blog bout UE 1st since lotsa ppl have alr blogged bout yltc n u can simply refer to their blogs (another sign of laziness=P)... anyway... UE stands 4 Urban Escape... a comp tt sends u biking running abseiling ascending kayaking rock-wall-ing(???) n archery-ing(??? again)... its fun larz... me team consisted of huiyang xinpei n xiaohui... special mention goes out to xiao hui... she super 1 lorx... injured her knee liaoz still can walk like super fast until i see liaoz oso cant take it... super cheong galz... beware of her during BWm manz shaun... hahaz/./ archery was damn fun larz... so was ascending... it involves high co-ordination b/w hands n feet... n obviously huiyang had a better co-ordination system cos he ascended faster... or maybe its juz his long hands n legs =P...abseiling looked equally fun though i could only watch as both the gerls came down at lightning speed... i think they were feeding ropes faster than the guys from cj lorx... anyway... we completed the event like third last(?) n even the senior team n chok 'chao cheong' team didnt make it to top 5... n interestingly of 8 grp tt cj sent in only 1 grp came in top5 (n the 5th at tt) n tt the winners were all those 1st or 2nd wave ones... o yar... n mr yong( yesh its tt bloddy canoeist teacher) took part in the open cat n his grp came in 2nd... n guess his grp's name... JUZ 4 FUN... wth ritez... its kinda like super tiring larz n his team name is TT?!?!?! now lets move on to yltc... details of the camp like i said shalt be left to others... it was fun too... n we had lotsa fun making fun of couples... Di n Brentos Dawn n Basil(y all DnB 1 ar?)rach n Shauna n DC(alamak... luv triangle!!!)n lots more... met new ppl n stuffs... grand finale was absolutely fun cept having to crawl outta bed at 0145 at nite...kudos to grp 2... n last but not least...

KAMPONG JAVE RAWKS

i had a great time wif u ppl... n oso dun be disheartened tt we didnt win anything... cos we came in 1st 4 urban topo n oso cos we got HEART n BELIEF IN OURSELVES... once again it was nice working wif u ppl... namely kenny hengwee niqi fabian gabriel perlhan(great acting manz) alicia kahyen khadijah gowri francine runyu peiling... n last but not least... johannes(HONEY!)

meanwhile i'm better off doing some mugging considering tt only got 1 week left n my notes n stuffs are all in a mess!!! ARGH!!! n yar... i'll change the template soon due to so much -ive comments on my blogs... till then hang-on yar?! n let the tags flow

2004-06-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!came back from CIP... or zit a trip to hell???... haha... bet ppl reading tis now n looking at my nick are most prob going '???'... ok... i shall xplain...

2day i tagged along wif 6 ppl from S12 n eileen n adeline... wad i thought at 1st was a pleasent CIP trip turned out to be a total nitemare...1st thing... SHAUN TT LIAR... I'LL GET EVEN WIF U THE NEXT TIME I SEE U... then we were like assigned to grps lar... i got assinged to lead a grp of 5 devils wif jackie... 1st there is tis guy in P1... manfred... besides having a not so common name... he has a not so common ego... highly attention seeking n he always like look 4 me like i'm his best friend 4 like a millenium... then got tis cute little girl... angela... her angelic looks n name will give u a hint on her devilish nature... she seems to like stepping on ppl shoes 4 no apparent reason... subjecting us(the volunteers) to one hell of a run around SDC... special sympathies goes out to those in scandals n slippers... they were like feeling the full impact of her wieght on their toes manz... next up... a classical example of media violence impact on kids...

a P3 kid is all u xpect to be quiet n soft in front of strangers... but moses(MESSIAH tt i need saving FROM) was a quite a direct opposite... one minute he's pikachu... going around 'thundershock-ing(tickling)' ppl n the next he'll be like some dinosuar from ultra-man using 'shockwaves' produced from his mouth to 'attack' u n the next hes a spell-caster using the SUN to BURN u up... interesting??? tts juz the tip of the iceberg...

then juz when we thought tt tis one hell of a trip to HELL(most prob the 18th lvl) was about to end... guess wad had to happen on the bus trip back??? a FIGHT... here's how it went...

there was some bickering b/w angela wif her bro, anderson(another devil) n another pair of siblings... IETRO(wad kinda namez tt???)n REGENE(she's to me the miniature version of another egoistic high-class b!@ch)... so the arguement continued n blah blah blah(we seniors were like watching an entertaining show =P) then suddenly threat started flying... b4 long anderson was pointing his fist at REGENE... n guess wad those sword made of balloon by some kind SDC guy became??? WEAPONS... so the 'fighting' started... then REGENE stepped back to get AMMUNITIONS... water bottle tt act as GRENADES... now tts a weapon of mass destruction... she opened the cap n juz threw the bottle at angela... so tt caught the seniors attention n we went in to 'mediate'... 4 those concerned angela was hit in the cheek n was pretty ok larz... so while i was at it, a smarty P6 boy(most senior of the lot liaoz) made a comment... maybe he was juz trying to lighten up the mood but if so i couldnt get the joke... so now 4 the words tt came out... "aiyar y fight wif water bottles? so no kick 1. might as well juz get a parang n slash each other lar. saves the effort n the pain. then simply die liaoz only wad. everything settled"... i was like stunned n mouthed 'i give up' n went back to my seat... tis kinda kids rule singapore next time hor then i might as well migrate away liaoz larx...

ok... thx 4 enduring my long entry... 4 more info plz refer to brentz blog whose link is located in the bottom 'side body'(tts the technical terms =P) o yar... 1 more thing...

PLZ TAG ON MY TAGBOARD

2004-05-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

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2004-05-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

OPPS... sorry 4 having to make u ppl tread in tis kinda stagnation... realli have no further intention to do so... juz tt i cant realli b bothered to blog... so yeah i've changed a new skin... i was searching hours to find a new skin till i found tis... ok... now back to my all so boring life... the HIGHLIGHT of the week is non other than *drumroll* the CHMA 2004!!! 1st time its open to the public n mr wang has alr done it to near perfection... well at least on his part... he had such good lighting i thought i was at the disco or smth liddat... the music is good too( at least all tt i bothered to hear) n boy was it great to meet up wif REAL old friens...
F'jiet was his usual lambusting me n alson wif science... alson tt puppy has finally found a new caring master n he was there showing me her photos during the show... now back to the awards... 1st up was the grp vocalist... it was okie... as grps aft grp performed... but the best was the eventual champs... they rapped out the eminiem song 'business' wif great coordination... their sychronising was perfect... then was instrumentals... berwyn performed a classy song of 'cat n mouse' while shui jie's self-composed duet was indeed refreshing... the rest is well... average... then the highlight... the section tt got every1 up on their feet... the solo vocalist section featuring the person truely deserving of being the mascot of CHMA so far... JuStIn JaP... f'jiet's counsin... he has been in the finals of the ch talentine/award show since it all started... n yet all tis 3 years he havent won a single award even though he belted out 'if u're not the one' beautifully last year... well tis year he was juz as great... n since tis year was open to public or smth liddat... he even had females fan at the show itself... no doubt asked along by his gf... the other person worth mentioning is the sec 1-7 kid... andrew i think... his voice was way high man... kinda reminded me of shaun n me in our younger years =P... his singing is great... so perhaps next year we'll return to see how he has progressed... n then on to the veri last category... the rock/pop category... all 3 were great as all managed to get the crowd moving... esp the 2nd grp... there were tis 4 crazy sn gals in their SKOOL UNI making so much noise tt us old boys in the last row were making strange faces towards em... its like HELLO... at least look whose territory u are on b4 going wild k?! ok... tt was juz jo-k but then yeah... at least they had the courtesy to move to the back to jump/yell/wave/wadeva... then aft tt we(old boys) were like chanting 'ching lee' n wanting him to perform over the old boys tt were scheduled to perform but didnt do all tt great a job... the other 2 of e dissapointment of the night came in the form of... NO SCHOOL SONG!!!... how could tt be... argh... but nonetheless i had a great time then aft tt go out wif alson go j8 eat macs... sorrie 4 leaving the 4-4 ppls yeah? i couldnt find u guys n my stomach was groaning cos i skipped dinner in order to rush to chs in less than 20 mins due to tt tupid calculator workshop... argh... o yar... HOLIDAYS FINALLY HERE... so enjoy it... but most likely its 'enjoy wadeva u have of it' so now me outta here...

2004-04-18T16:49:00.000+08:00

Ahh... finally back from AC(adventure challenge)... it was super tiring but damn shiok! after resting for like more than 4 hrs liaoz later muz go cheong tutorials so as to keep the promise i made to my BiG sIs... but for now a recap of AC...
started yesterday off by waking up at round 0830... too late liaoz... was suppose to go kap meet up n have super heavy breakfast (think along mulitples of 5...=p)... so ended up reach there 10 liaoz then cramped down 1 big breakfast... chalk had like 5 cups of tea... see how he dies later (muahahahaha)
anyway reached skool b4 11 lar... then after seniors had their briefing we were asked to fall in... did i mention tt sakra only got me n grace attending... wtf rite... all sign form then in the end only 2 of us turn up... but then they made 2 ppl from brani join us lar... otherwise it would have been crazy lor...aha... now to how chalk died... we did our usual water parade b4 event started... haha... i alr felt super bloated only after 2 cups coffee... dunno how he coped... then start 1st leg 1st station is nj rock wall... haha no kick cos got spiderwoman... then walk to kap... then imm... then cheong to farmart in chao chu kang... somehow along the way the seniors realised tt got prob wif accounts prob... o yar... 1st leg is can use public trans... anyway... we were near the lead all the way until the farmart there... then went woodlands... we ended up arriving 2nd last in an attempt to save money... we took direct bus lar then all the way there we were toking cock to relax... when we reach the woodlands library rite we couldnt find it... ended up walking into causeway pt then reach top floor then realised mistake... and in the library got tis super bitchy librarian lor... complain bout how planners didnt notify em etc. ...i met shieh along the way back to mrt... then went sembawang hot spring... alamak the water there really super hot leh... our grp broke all 3 eggs tt we were supppose to carry along wif us so we were suppose to soak our leg 4 17min!!! it cooked my leg ar!!! but then after like 5min it'll becum alrite liaoz lar cos ur leg cells are like dead liaoz... hahahaha... jo-K jo-K... its quitte comfy after tt lar... juz ask heng hong... then cheong to AMK... haha... finally someplace i'm familar wif... juz breezed thru tt station cept tt i didnt noe where aj ice was so had to ask aj odac ppl who were there... it was Josephcmz i asked lar... haha they had orienteering camp tt day n we had AC...anway then we cheong to punggol park... then finally to last station of leg 1... ecp there... along the way we were doing puzzles lar and the way we were thinking was like so super funny n cute... thx gayus n wen foo otherwise i doubt we could actually complete the puzzle... herez a teaser 4 u ppl lar... 200= D for PG in M... an eg on how to solve it is liddat... 4= S in a Y ( 4 seasons in a year)... if u really want more juz ask any OACian... i'm sure tis part of AC we'll nvr 4get soon... haha... anyway after leg 1 we were suppose to do leg 2... but then in b/w we had OAC initiation mass... we were suppose to walk down the bridge behind the indoor stadium wif a candle n its not suppose to extinguish until we reached the other end lar n wadeva the seniors do to us are suppose to be inmaterialistic... wtf... it was like so windy and so hard to prevent the flame from dying... then i got it going n was 2nd to walk down lar... the seniors were standind on the 2sides of e bridge lar and then they slapped us on the back damn hard lorz as we walk pass... alamak then as i was bout to finish rite tian wei purposely blow out my flame... super shit lorz... had to walk again... actually its quite fun lar... cos i was at the end to the line then the seniors like rarely touched me the 2nd time... haha =p(catch me if u can) then we started on leg 2... all the way on foot... we walked to marina promeanade then esplanade then 1 of the brodge near fullerton hotel then north 2wards war memorial then chijmes then finally fort canning hill b4 ending at ROM there... theres nothing worth mentioning here lar cept the war memorial there... we were suppose to carve out the war memorial out of a bar of soap given... everytime we got the rough shape then adding the final touches rite it would fall apart all 2gather so we ended up like having a super small n cute sculpture... haha... then at ROM there we were like sleeping there for like more than 1hour then start off 4 3rd leg... race back to nj in 1h 45min... in the end sakra didnt make it back lar so we were made to take bus back... i muz apologise to sakra seniors and juniors... i always like walk too darn fast then u're cant catch up... sorry horz... aiyar then after the whole AC we went out to eat... no prize for guessing where... kap big breakfast!!! n tis time i drank 3 cups of coffee... n chalk was crazy as usual... 5 cups of tea after even tian wei complained he was crazy drinking 2 less than 1/4 bolied egg n cheonging thru the race like theres no 2morrow... lolx... ok... i guess tts all 4 AC... wah... super long heh... going off to catch somemore sleepz... feels kinda drowsy now... o yar... 4got 2 mention... congrats to Anup, mel, shaun, brent, jun kiat, richard, keefe, hui yang for making it pass the SLB interview... haha... theres like alr 8 names there