Saturday, March 26, 2005,21:21
F-maths Fmaths Fmaths.. screw it.. mugger yeo u dare mention tt in front of me again i'll beat u to a pulp.. totally screwed.. caught off guard n i was totally defeated.. but hack larz.. ct over le.. erm.. phys S ar.. think i'll hack n join O2 in e morn :P .. was so slack these days
aft ct.. super stone.. nt to do.. no aim no drive.. juz sit in front of com n play play play.. haha.. n shaun has improved in gb by leaps n bounds.. haha.. he qiang zhe now larz
2day cycling trip in ubin.. so many casualties.. haha.. i nearly joined em.. but i still luv e way heng fell.. bloody funny.. n he skidding on floor tt time still can smile.. crapz.. haha.. ok ubin was fun nt e least.. been so long since snrs camp went there le.. n e jnrs are enthu.. gd gd.. haha
Captured queen spades.. all hearts.. but wads e use.. i dun have e QUEEN OF
myHEARTS
Monday, March 21, 2005,21:55
2day was start of term.. start of CT.. start of nitemare.. had 2 papers 2day.. onli 4 words to describe em due to my limited vocab.. horrible horrendous terrible horrific.. ok.. simply put.. Bad bAd baD! haiz.. 1st was GP.. act ok ok larz.. maybe can pass.. MAYBE.. ok.. HOPEFULLY seems more e rite word.. then was physics.. SPA was like.. erm.. i puked out all tt i memorised during e break?!?! then e CT paper.. argh!! Ek=1.5nRT=1.5NkT.. tis stupid formula i swear i'll rmb 4 life le.. cos tt screwed up cyclic process qns i on rite track le.. then last part is found T le then 4got how to relate to Ek.. n e 1st thing tt came to my mind was Q=mc(delta T).. then relate change in U=Q+W.. but f.. argH! no m no c.. how.. erase all my previous workings n whosh.. all gone.. bleahz.. sigh.. me stupid wad to do?! anyway still got 1 whole day 4 wadeva i still cant rmb 4 maths.. maybe factor in a while 4 chem.. so now SLACK!!
seemed to have loss my will.. cant fight no more.. so maybe if u kill me now u'll injury unhurt.. cos i cant fight!! gee.. i juz cant find wadz drove me last time.. no discipline liaoz..
yayyz.. L'pool won 2-1 .. so even if we cant take 4th spot.. we'll win e CHamps league juz to deter Everton..
tt was juz a sidenote.. =p
Wednesday, March 16, 2005,12:05
Juz realised i cant rmb a shit bout even e most basic trigo.. fuck! lost my perseverance.. lost my will to fight.. even my self-control went MIA.. juz seems i cant be bothered to sit down n do smth constructive.. but its nt tt.. its juz tt i'm screwed.. damn screwed.. guess tt kinda sums up wad bright prospect i still have 4 my common test..
laser pointer: small, concentrated beam
torch: un-focused, weak
street-lamp: bright, timely
moon: shiny cresent blade
stars: bright dots in e dark nite sky
sun: powerful, radiant n omni.. like a caring mother showering her luv over e earth
me?! lost in e darkness.. wif nth to guide me.. nth to shine e path ahead
Saturday, March 12, 2005,21:44
Hols juz started again.. wth.. maybe shd be called "skooldays where u get to wake up damn late".. haha.. cos still got tt stupid CT to work 4.. cant fail siaz.. else my parents will realli screw me.. but somehow everytime i wanna start on smth.. e enthusiasm is there.. but somehow it always leave me in e blink of an eye.. is my attention span realli tt short?
yest went back chs collect 03 yrbk.. haha.. tt fag principal owe us tt 4 like a yr le larz.. then somemore consolidate it wif 04 to give us 03/04 yrbk.. not tt i mind actually.. at least i noe wadz going on 4 1 more year.. hehe.. then went canteen stone wif pf n shaun.. haha.. e lower sec bois are realli boys man.. haha.. realli small small cute cute lil bois.. i dun even rmb alex ko being tt small.. lol.. but then again.. e upper sec like alot got attitude probs 1.. either tt or i see muggers-in-e-making.. haha.. n has e skool changed! now even got rockwall. but then again, there's so many tiles in every single slab of e wall tt shaun was braggin he cld complete it in 10s.. wadz more.. its onli like less than 3 stories high.. haha.. then yest all e UYO were having their training.. looking back.. i realli regreted not joinin 1.. maybe at least i'll realli come out a diff person.. perhaps even learnt something more.. haha.. cos in ComAC/ITS/SnT realli slacked until learn nth much
every1's juz nt emselves these days.. e feeling called joy has been kicked outta e land on mankind it seems.. n a much celebrated immgrant has arrived.. name.. MASK of joy.
e deVil has slipped back into seclusion.. n in his place remains an empty shell.. while in e skies there shines a lite of hope.. fear there is tt e future will juz be a memory of e past.. e present a reflection of dreams..
Saturday, March 05, 2005,16:51
Anger?! wadz tt?! perhaps its my inability to understand it.. or maybe its juz in-built into me.. i dun seem angry.. not at least to myself.. fact is i'm juz.. erm.. destructive.. things were built by Man to be destroyed.. n Man built things to do so.. we created dynamites to shift mountains.. n chainsaws to fall entire tree (provided it havent laid its hands on a human body).. n of course.. even weaponaries to remove our own kind frm tis planet.. gee, aint tt cool?!
Sometimes i wonder.. y did whoever created us/evolution give us such a powerful weapon in e form of our brain? to enable us to understand our own biological functions n thus to carry em out n heal ourselves so as to proceed with e above? or to enable us to understand our biological structure n how it works n thus to stop n destroy it? haha.. if its e latter i wun be surprised.. after all tts wad we humans have come to be professionals in.
Someday we'll be e doom of ourselves.. n i swear i'll wanna be there...
Thursday, March 03, 2005,14:26
i'm juz crazy rite now.. feel like destroying some stuff.. guess it boils down to hatred of myself.. my imperfection perhaps? maybe its juz me.. most prob is.. but anger seems to be e onli way out for me..
Emotionless ME!someday i'll juz hide myself.. maybe juz sleep 24hrs n wake up next day to find out how e world has gone by w/o me.. juz like everything would aft every1's eventual death.. maybe i'll be happier.. cos i'll noe life is juz so meaningless.. or rather juz biologically defined.. n nothing i do will affect e great scheme of things..
now i noe y i luv red so much.. cos it resembles bloodshed.. cos it resembles e raging anger in me.. n its juz perfect over black.. a hint of a bloody n utter destruction tt rises from e ashes of doom, darkness..
br...clouded senses.. wants n feel e need to kill.. destroy.. n juz throw in the urge to watch things burn.. wanna watch e LOD at its peak? look no further..
