Thursday, June 30, 2005,22:52
(fill in e blank) 1 cup of tea.haha.. tt was e ultimate joke 2day.. haha. tt was when chok kenny dc pradz hengz yichuan shaun hy n me went kenny roger eat aft chem paper (no it wasnt kenny's treat).. we were toking all kinda cock.. then started getting racist.. hehe.. n tt was contributed by kenny.. so damn funny.
tis shall be a quick update. phys was yest, mcq was a breeze but paper 2.. lets juz say i left like 23 marks blank, of which around 17pts are frm charged part. simply no time.. bleahz. then came home straight mug chem. stupid chem.. so much to study.. read until i sleep oso. so in e end i best plan, nvr study food chem n electro-chem, knowing pretty well tt food chem will have quite a heavy weightage. but heck. so 2day morn heard food chem 20% electro 5% i knew B was outta e window. started wif paper 2 1st(e teachers announced tt n e whole hall was like, "huhs?"). was mentally prepared to skip food chem so didnt came as much of a shock to me. well at least i attempted 4marks worth of qns there.. haha. mcq was much easier, but tricky at times. tmr still got maths s.. wth. make me go back skool at 2pm juz to attempt a 2hr paper tt i noe sure fail. dunno whether shd pon.. hehe. lets juz see how i'd manage to attempt smth which requires days of my norm thinking speed to solve tmr. hope realli nt screwed up, else frm tis yr start til now both s will get U. bleahz. ok tts it. waiting 4 my last ct in nj to end. shall go have a gd rest now, then tmr see wad i can rescue frm e pathetic crap tts me.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005,22:21
Luck, a mysterious n varying factor
o well.. how much more true can e above expression be. luck simply has its way of eluding us, before letting us bask it in its glow 4 wad cld seem an eternity. i'm a perfect example. juz yest.. skool started n so did common test. great.. cos 1st paper was mc!! supposedly easier to score 4 us fm ppl. actually 4 me, it was meant to be e onli subj i can score tis time round. so i actually spent 1 week on e paper itself, trying n reading my notes. but wad do i get.. e hardest paper tt i cld have expected. ok.. so maybe its easier than last yr's JCT MC paper.. but hey, i don't even think march CT+promos is tis hard. in other words, no A =( ok i shd learn to be more satisfied of wad i get, but 4 e amt of effort i put in i realli think i deserve better. GP was mixed feeling.. essay qns were so crappy, open-ended.. but when u actually get down to doing them it was still ok.. compre was.. HORRIBLE!! nth more appropriate than tt. e passages were so full of shit, esp e 2nd 1. other than understanding tt e particular passages encourages Reality TV, i didnt understand anything else bout it.. not even e reasons. DIE.. so i happily started attempting the qns, having seen that most of the qns are regarding passage 1, which i was still ok wif.do do do... then suddenly i juz fell asleep. yar.. JUZ fell asleep. out of nowhere i juz turned off n slept.. it was as if i was unconsious or smth. knn.. so when i woke up le i juz didnt felt like doing anything, so anyhow scribble wad comes to my mind le lorx, n aq i was like.. huhz?! asking me bout Reality TV?!?! omg.. think shieh shd have taken the paper 4 me instead.. like wad on earth do u expect a person who hardly even watches TV to noe about "e values that Reality TV brings to ur society"? stupid qns.. damn e setter. so all in all.. 1st day i was nt happy wif how i did.
but then.. luck has its way of toying wif u!! so 1st day i ended off wif ultra last min mugging 4 fm. hardly touched it at all b4 mc. then 2day morn woke up earlier to mug, preparing 4 e worst. so skool mug somemore.. so totally last min. but when i was doing e paper i was like hallucinating or smth.. cos i actually noe how to do A LOT A LOT of e paper!! i cld do eigenvalue n eigenvectors!! whosh!! didnt even touch it at all!! n vectors!! spent onli like a few min discussing wif chok at morn assembly.. i cld DO!! i was feeling like so blessed!! wahaha.. then in e evening i went cycling.. lost my wallet!! argh!! but some kind soul found it n return to me!! everything intact!! but wads most impt is actually my ic. ok.. so tt kind soul is my primary skool classmate's mum, but realli.. i was juz about to report e lost of my ic to police alr. thx alot mdm. words simply cant express my gratitude now.
lets juz hope tmr is a better day. physics.. argh!! seems like so much to cramp in oso. hope last min mugging realli helps!
Sunday, June 26, 2005,16:23
was juz doing 04mc jct paper tis morn.. fraustrating. i wonder how i'm gonna do my paper tmr morn. its like when i do e paper i aint even sure if i'm doing e rite thing w/o e answers. bad bad. how am i gonna kope tmr? haha.. maybe its e adrenaline tt'll make me 4get about checking whether i'm rite, or perhaps i'll juz nt have enuf time to bother.. hrmx. juz pray tt wadeva last min stuff i cramp in 2day will help. realli lack preparation. think tis realli is a 1st. nvr felt so ill prepared 4 an exam b4, nt even march ct when i cld still find my self-confidence. perhaps its realli lack of prep. hopefully its juz last yr paper realli set too hard, n tt tmr's wun be liddat oso. n tts onli mc. fm is much worse. phy will realli be last min. chem i think even if postpone 1 more day i oso hopeless. bad bad. y on earth do exams have to come after hols. no motivation to study, onli got stress to push u on. sux.
yest went out study nt as productive as i hoped. the 3 of em kept bombing me wif qns until i hardly got time to ask em qns. bleahs.. n wx juz contact me on msn again.. i sense another qns coming.. haha. n tt stupid edwin, everytime me n fung ask him out go study he'll either go there sleep, stone or try to get us to go play pool. stupid slacker. haha.. he hardly even finish e electrochem qns he started on b4 we left larz. lol. ODE ODE ODE.. suddenly 2nd order looks much simpler than e 1st. COMPLEX COMPLEX COMPLEX.. cant they keep life simpler? argh maths!! stop!! i still gotta look at phys 1.
"Untitled"
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
(*)How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again'
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I cantt erase the things that I've done
No I can't
(*)×2
Saturday, June 25, 2005,22:41
A Knight's Tale
was juz watching a knight's tale in e morn b4 going to mug wif fung, edwin, n wx at tp 2day. e movie's realli sorta nice. but how come e downs experienced by main characters alwayz so minor compared to e ups in e rollercoaster rides of their life. maybe scripts juz wun sell well if they becum realistic, tts y everything alwayz have to happen rite in scripts. e badasses nvr seem to come to a gd end, unlike e real world, where evil lurks in every single corner. even in our hearts. tts y i like swordfish maybe. e way reality seems to be kept in check, keeping e balance of e world is juz so nice in it. afterall, how do u define wads "good" if there's no such thing as "evil"?
while walking to meet e peeps, tis thot kinda struck me. would i realli wanna be e knight in shining armour tt rides on e fine steed n gets all e prestige? n i came up wif e conclusion: no. yesh being a knight means u're smth, enjoy noble status n all tt, and of course knights are always e 1s being glorified in firms, fairytales n all tt. but tts juz fame. n fame to me is juz like deedara's def of art: "art is beauty fleeting, beauty gone in an instant" nt smth highly welcomed by me, esp 4 a practical person like me. n anyway, knights are alwayz e prime target in a medival battle(tt was b4 e 100yr war evolved enuf). imagine an enemy knight riding above a sea of ppl. u're a sniper wif juz 1 bullet, so wld u take e chance of hitting e best swordsman/lancer/archer amoung e sea of wld u rather shoot tt ass upon e horse n leave some part of e offensive push leaderless?
ok i'm hum.. but tt doesnt juz quailify y i'd rather be an archer than a knight. in e times of e 100yr war, it was ultimately e english long-bowmen tt won em e war. it was a mass of peasents trained wif grit n might to pull tt characteristic bow of e englishmen, taught wif intense care and trained to ultimate precision wif their "arch of death", so named because these ppl realease swarms of arrows high into e sky, n its as if equipped wif precision-control equipment, almost sure to land on target wif deadly velocities. wad more can u ask for? n also, it was thru tis war tt saw e evolution of medival european war plans, starting out wif every single army being built around their champion knight, as if lancers, infantry are all sidekicks, to e final play of archers being e core, infantry as melee support, and e knights eventually evolving into e heavy calavary tt'll trample upon e field tts soon to see bloodshed(ie. 1st to die). wadsmore, archers have variable roles. when equipped wif e bow they're e deadly artilleries tt specialises in piercing knight's armour, but when circumstances turn against them, they are able to abandon their bows and fight as light infantries wif tt sword and light armour of theirs, and wif e clumsiness of knights due to their heavy, all-protecting armour, make e archers ultimate knight-slayers of e battlefield. long range roX!
"true art endures the ages, beauty everlasting" sasori, akatsuki member; naruto manga
Friday, June 24, 2005,23:08
Bored outta my mindhrmx.. i guess tis place has become a place 4 me to vent my fraustration at my life(however much i try nt to show it), and an escape from e mundane life that i lead.. perhaps that's y i luv gaming.. allows me to escape into smth interesting, n most of e time allowng me to take up all-powerful roles.. tsk tsk, control freak :p .. n screw e proper-english shit i guess.. feels unnatural to be typing in norm eng when i look at blogger interface i think.. in fact i dun seem to feel like typing normally when i face my keyboard or hp keypad. juz ask e oac teachers bout it.. haha.. shaun can be witness.
realli feel like playing soccer rite now.. e shiok sensation of running around wif ur friens.. n its nt aimlessly like in track.. haha.. realli miss soccer sessions wif cat high peeps. but i guess e next time we'll be able to hold a meet like juz 2wks ago will have to be round 2yrs later i guess.. haiz.. soccer soccer.. my veri 1st luv.
well read frm mj's blog tt gals are gonna enter acs. so i'm here to offer my 2cents worth. i realli cant imagine gals in boi skools.. esp nt in cat high.. ok rather i DUN want tt to happen. wadeva will happen to e identity tt binds us 2gether, juz like e green shorts however much we hate to admit it. n all e kinda crap tt we do there.. haha.. bet e gals will get a cultural shock, or sort of :p . life in boi skools are so much simpler, at least 2 me.. bout 3-quarter of my time back then was all about soccer n gaming, wif e remaining being shared by toking cock wif friens n studies. well studies didnt particularly take up a large part of my life back then. n all life to me back then was a rountine, a routine of skool, soccer, work, game, endlessly repeating itself. grumble slightly i did, but so did i enjoy it. n i bet girls will call tt no life.. or at least i think. i dun noe wad will happen to those poor guys shd gals "invade"(ok maybe tt word is too crude but i think its e idea i wld like to get across) our land. maybe our field will turn frm being barren due to overusage by us soccer maniacs into an overgrown. or perhaps classes will no longer have e same lifeliness tts brought about by ur pals/bros/comarades. n wad of break btw classes? haha.. e lookout might still get to keep his job, but wad happens inside e class will be completely overthrown i guess(wadz inside is a large variable correct to my memory and shd nt be released4 e sake of convince to my typing n to e general cathigh public :p) ok.. nth sick like wad we heard e acs ppl do. put it simply, bois need more than e company of gals during our 4yrs of maturing i guess. but i can onli pray tt hakboon doesnt come up wif e idea of following in e footstep of acs, juz like he wanted to change frm shorts to pants (screw him on tt, n e berms he intro-ed look like shit)
ok.. no discrimination meant. e prev passaage was all in e name of taking out some thots frm my brain n stroing em somewhere least i 4get it next time. n i truely think i'm wating my time. didnt felt like studyng juz now n came to my com. didnt felt like ra2-ing so went net. still sianz diaoz. so wad i did i do?! help my sis play pokemon gold on com.. omg!! wth was i thinkng juz now.
Thursday, June 23, 2005,22:21
Was just reading my archives just now, n i realised this interesting trend. The closer i got to exams or major tests, the higher e frequency of my updates. haha. guess that's why i'm back here again.
And in case anyone of you are wondering where's the desmond who types in broken and minimalistic english disappeared to, he's still around. Its just that today while i forced myself into writing a GP piece i sort of discovered my high tendency to write in broken english. just became juz and all those other sms lingo. hrmx, bad!! So i shall dedicate this space to practise my writing (the fact that this is just an excuse to come online and blog is a plus) .
Anyway, i found this nice looking blogskin while i was surfing around in there. As usual the bloodthirsty me typed "blood" as a search, but nothing particularly nice came up. So i tried red, since its the colour of blood AND l'pool. and tadda, this came up, and i'm still wondering why. It ain't red, unless i have colour deficiency, and there wasn't even a single mention of the word red in its description. bizzare, but who cares.
things i did 2day:
1)gp essay
2)mugg. progress so far(i can't list down what i'm not through with yet 'cos i'll need like pages worth)
: mc/fm-summation, MI, integration, diff, stats(more or less)
:physics-nth?! ok, maybe mechanics and some of the M,EM & EMI series
:chem-organinc chem!! achievement of the century
3)cycling trip- from house set off to bishan then take a turn towards upper serangoon at bishan park, before stopping at f'j house for some xbox-ing. continued towards serangoon mrt and from there followed the NEL down towards potong pasir until met the PIE (this was part of last year's original night cycling trip which chok, wenfoo and me enjoyed the most during recce.. tt was b4 e route was changed by the bloody teachers) which is downslope ALL THE WAY!! haha, guess i was speeding along with the rush hour traffic. then join back to the kallang park connector at SAJC(UC) there to head home. total time taken 1hour 30min including traffic lights. distance travelled is roughly 13.5km. So i average about 9km/h. hrmx not that bad, considering that i was on the pavement most of the time. haha. I LUV speeding!!
which means i still have a lot to catch up on studies, not taking into the gp homework that i've yet to touch. haiz. what a hols.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005,22:19
mugging hols are nt hols!! oh wadeva.. juz hope tis wun last long.. think i'm gonna need a life jacket soon.. cos i've been deprived of a life lately.. mugging too much.. n perhaps a life jacket wif a self sustaining heater.. cos i've been so damn lame i think i'm juz adding to e lack of heat in my aircon-ed room now.. haiz.. mug mug.. been doing all those no kick topic 4 maths juz to get my morale up.. haha.. stumbled a bit at summation.. brezzed thru MI.. did integration techniques juz 4 e kick of it.. but then think i'm realli gonna die at polar, curve sketch blah blah.. in other words.. fm=F!! whee
ok.. tts nt exactly e rite attitude.. heck.. o.. interesting thing i did 2day.. my own version of initial D.. yupz.. D for dragging.. nt drifting like in e movie.. drifting sux(partially cos i cant do it tt well.. but tts nt e pt).. n 4 those wondering how come i'm dragging in e space constraint s'pore when i aint even allowed to drive wrt e law.. i was dragging on my bike!!(bicycle but draggin on e bike sounds more cool :p ) ok.. so for those who dun get wads draggin oso.. its a racing technique juz like drifting is.. but i'd think a more powerful version.. dragging simply put is racing down a strip of road wif power running at max n all.. n avoiding wadeva e traffic can throw at u.. its nt as easy as it seems.. u gotta shift gear up at juz e rite time.. swivel away from onrushing traffic w/o losing speed.. n of course in racing cars which most of e times are modified, u gotta burst ur nitrous at e rite time to get e rite amt of boost.. sounds cool er?! tts when a maclauren comes in handy. i want a maclauren!! bah.. but in s'pore it'll juz be a nausiance.. perfect handling yesh.. but its high acc n max speed will juz be put to waste.. o.. n initial d as a movie sux of reality.. according to f'j a need for speed underground 1n2 pro drifter.. to realli drift in real life u muz master nt juz speed, braking speed.. u gotta master co-ordination between ur steering wheel, gear shifting, gear-shift pedal, accelerator pedal, handbrake n footbrake.. which means in a small amt of time of onli bout 5s at most, ur hands will shift gear while ur legs are on e gear pedal n pedal, brake ur back tyres, of course steer, then apply hand brake while shifting gear up while keeping ur steering wheel in e rite dirn, n ur legs are on gear shift n acc.. sounds easy? easier said than done i'd say.. i couldnt even do tt using an xbox controller.. much less in a real car.. tts y i say. draggin rox!!
mugging sux.. but i guess its wad will keep me 4 these dayz.. sigh.. n there's a new dep on top of my links.. its my playlist corner.. do get some of e songs to help u thru mugging.. it helps (tts if u enjoy e same kinda music as me)
here's a song. kinda old.. but still damn nice. "hero" by chad kroeger feat josey scott
I am so high, I can hear heaven.(×2)
Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me.
[chorus(at least i think it is)]:
And they say that a hero can save us.
I'm not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me that love would all save us.
But how can that be?
Look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling, that
world never came.
[chorus:]
Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you.
It isn't the love of a hero, that's why I fear it won't do.
[chorus]
And they're watching us (Watching us)
They're watching us (watching us) as we all fly away. ×3
Monday, June 20, 2005,23:25
been mugging these dayz.. or at least tried to.. so damn sian. everyday stuck at home facing e piles of notes thrown all around my room.. n still got gp homework havent even started at all.. wth.. looks like its gonna be another bad test 4 me.. oh well
training routine back in full blast.. dun realli wanna miss out on long break in 6mths time.. but then actually ptp isnt tt bad.. at least aft i sweat tt 1 out i might juz find bmt no kick. haha.. 2.4 sub 1030 for retest maybe? haha.. n training 4 games is back oso.. but a bit slow (ct round e corner wad to do?) rushmore vic is getting faster n faster.. but then i onli noe howda use allied :p .. i guess its e prism tanks.. where else on earth can u find a tank so powerful in offense against units n buildings.. totally crippled when i try yuri.. haiz.. more training on e cards?! doubt so
read an article in e straits time recently(try last thurs or wed) bout e plide of cyclist in s'pore.. totally agree wif e author.. s'pore juz doesnt respect us cyclist.. go onto road, cars dun give way.. go onto pavement, pedestrians give u tt dirty look when u ring ur bell at em.. wth.. n e kallang part connecter.. juz went cycling 2day n once again its a half completed work.. wad pub pipe crap.. then works suppose to resume on 1st quarter of 2005.. yeah.. 1st quarter.. *checks date.. almost end of 2nd quarter of 2005 le.. o.. n did i mention how clever e authorities are? they put a bridge in e middle of e cycling path at bradell road there.. which is good.. cos it saves ppl e trouble of having to cycle down to e nearest traffic light to cross e road.. but then its a CYCLING PATH damn it, so wads e pt of putting a pedestrain bridge there instead of a cycling bridge where there's a slope instead of steps!! wanna test my arm power zit? i guess s'pore can do better than tt.. if they're pushing 4 greenier alternatives 4 transport i guess cranking up e prices of COE aint juz gonna help.. perhaps lending a helping hands to cyclist n cyclist-to-be will actually manage e polution problem better
Wednesday, June 15, 2005,23:36
finally recovering.. n i made a huge progress 2day!! i cleared up my desk n actually sat down 4 straight hrs to study!! woah!! tt day weiping called me to ask maths qns.. suddenly realise i didnt 4get as much as i expected.. now onli complex is big prob le.. others are relegated to minor troubles.. haha.. but fm.. die!! haha.. nvm nvm.. still got 1 week.. o.. i 4got bout physics n chem.. tihs!!! eid.. kcuf!!!
ok.. so work's SLIGHTLY better now.. n so are my legs.. means i can start training again!! else go back frm june hols realli becum slob liddat.. speaking of my body.. realise i have like a huge appititte compared to any of my family members.. juz had lunch 2day wif my uncle n aunt at sizzler tis aft.. my aunt commented tt wad i ate could have last her 2 days.. bleahz.. dun think i'm tt scary larz.. think its juz tt she havent see ac ruggers b4.. lol
i sorta pity e oac jnrs.. gotta rush out such a maj event proposal in less than a week.. hrmx.. but we shant interfere least we mess things up.. but seeing em slog their guts out.. haiz.. think they realli got e shortest end of e deal.. even for ac we had like 2-3 weeks b4 1st proposal.. n ac switch to bwm oso got 2 weeks lorx.. hope they dun burn out
my heart dictates wad my mind cant fufil.. n so leaves my soul in civil war
Tuesday, June 14, 2005,15:09
finally back to blogging.. have been too lazy these days to blog.. n oso busy larz.. busy catching up wif some skool work n some ra2.. lolx.. guess i still realli cant find another game wif e balance as great as e ra series.. e way each unit can counter-balance another.. how swarming is onli an amatuer's way to win.. how seige can be a beautiful game indeed.. to a small extent it actually simulates real live tactical combat.. i repeat tactical.. cos its strategies tt counts here.. how to advance ur troops.. placement, defense, offense and all those other stuffs.. hrmx
well day b4 yest was atc.. its more heong than even ue n adjam combined.. esp e change over.. running/trekking to biking was real bad.. i guess i onli have myself to blame.. didnt do stretch at changeover.. so.. juz when our team overtook aj's team(cos their shawn was cramping all over).. i had to cramp.. damn damn damn.. sorry team6.. else we would have moved on much faster.. n then e cramp kept haunting me thru-out e race.. n lactic buildup was damn freakishly fast.. almost wanted to juz stop.. but then in e end it was still alrite i guess.. muz thx fjiet 4 teaching me bout suicide mechanism.. else i dun think i wld have been able to last throughout e race.. n i completed abseiling!! woah!! achievement.. but muz say i was a bit freaked out when i took e 1st step out to e ledge.. wah!! but then got reverse belay system.. so more or less assured myself to take e plunge.. n oh.. guess i moved down damn slowly.. but hey.. i'm scared of heightes k.. kayaking was fun.. but too short.. n macritchie had no currents.. no fun!! cant bob up n down.. haha.. o.. n did i mention biking?! nvr in my life had i biked at gear 1 b4.. nvr.. n i had to do tt at bukit timah hill.. e slopes there were so steep tt i think i spent nearly half my time pushing my bike up n down.. more so 4 up cos my cramp was still haunting me.. n deep heat rox!! e moment i stood up aft applying it i felt as if my legs were put into a blast furnace.. it was burning rite into my flesh!! now i noe y it relief pain from cramps.. so thx njoac team 6.. made my last adv race 4 a long time to come memoriable.. thx to avalene yeewen n jennifer.. great team tt'll sure succeed in future races.. n muz mention avalene 4 her determination.. she sprained her ankle quite early into e race but held on till e end.. great job peeps
yest went skool belay canoeist 4 their camp.. muz say yong n his ppl cant boulder 4 nuts.. they were simply trying to pull down e boulder wall larz.. onli keep using arm strength to pull n pull at e handholds as if e footholds are there 4 nth.. there's a diff between putting ur strength to gd use to make-up 4 ur shortcoming n using ur energy effectively de lehz.. aft tt was intra- ac briefing.. hrmx.. by e look of it now e event might juz be a huge success.. but its still too early to judge.. muz say log cum manpower ppl are damn funny.. when they were assigning manpower all e jokes n all
o.. n due to overexertion n too much lactic buildup frm atc n b4 tt.. my rite calf feels damn strained yest.. hurts even if i walk.. n e pain slowly spread to my rite thigh.. then my left calf kena hit oso cos i put too much stress on it to prevent using my alr worn out rite calf.. n shortly aft my left thigh acted up oso.. crap.. cant even stand properly now.. have to bend my knees when i stand else muscles will stretch too much n e mother of all pain will return.. ouch! so now cant even jaywalk.. can onli jaylimp le.. okok.. maybe my lameness had smth to do wif my current condition
ue'04 : njoac team3
adjam'04: njoac team2
nvm'05 : njoac team1 (8th!! highest achievement!!)
atc'05 : njoac team6
is tt it?! zit e end?! e last dash in a long long time to come... ...
Sunday, June 05, 2005,21:23
CRISIS!!!
argh!! help!! it truely is a crisis.. my gaming touch.. all lost!! argh!! 4 some1 who used to be an avid gamer.. laying my hands on all sorta pc games i can get my hands on.. tis certainly spells trouble.. haiz.. no wonder tt time went out wif fjiet n jkwok felt so enstrangled.. sh!t
was juz trying out some old games juz now (read ra2, cnc gen.s, war3, pharoah).. when i suddenly realised i wasnt as shen as b4.. crapz.. ok maybe last time oso not v shen.. but hey.. at least i cld force fjiet n co to a draw, so tts gd enuf.. but now?! think i try to go head on wif him in cnc gen.s i'll most prob get trashed within 1min?! exaggeration?! i dun think so.. esp considering how much my form has dipped.. have been completely outta practise.. all those years of tactical training at RTS totally gone.. reduced to nil within juz a short span of 1 yr.. kaoz.. damn sad to lose smth i used to hold so dear.. all my so called "capabilities" writen off by juz a year of ignorant.. haiz.. to think i was still contemplating whether to get splinter cell: pandora 2morrow, splinter cell: chaos theory or winning eleven 8 tis aft.. haiz.. think i cant even defeat an "easy" A.I. now
on a lighter note.. atc'05 coming.. better start training.. bout time i toughen up oso.. since i'm now posted to pes B 4 ns le.. still dun pass napfa might as well enjoy tis hols cos it'll be e last long 1 le.. hrmx.. come to think of it.. wad have i been doing in e past 1 yr.. turned to more outdoor stuff?! dun think so.. cos last time i played soccer more than i'm doing oac stuff now.. played more politika?! maybe.. done more work?! def nt.. i dun even seem to be able to hand up any assignment properly done n on time nowadays.. haiz.. so where exactly have my yr gone if i havent been doing anything constructive n interesting.. no good no good.. now A's round corner oso le.. nt exactly e time to do smth bout my lousy life le.. time to MUG!! (mug rootbeer any1?)
another not so sudden realisation: clearing my table has been on my priority list 4 dunno since when.. but still havent done nething bout it.. loser me!!
Saturday, June 04, 2005,23:14
You were destined to have a Red Lightsaber.
Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is
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power, and determination as well as passion and
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Your a Vampire! Maybe a tad goth...your obsessed
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Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.
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You are the one who hates to hate but hates to
love. You can't deside at all! You have a
switching mind and just can't make up your
mind. You like someone but then someone else
comes and you think they are ugly the next day.
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You have a strong and courageou soul. You show
no fear when it comes to protecting the ones
you love. You know when choosing between right
and wrong. You also are quite the rebel.
Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye
Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde
streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled
back into a pony tail.
Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm
and if your low just hold on..cause I will be
your safety.....don't leave home.....
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Great! You are a Water Sage! I hope you answered
honestly. You are a very calm and peaceful
person, and a very loyal friend. But if you get
worked up enough, you can erupt and do some
real damage to your friends and loved ones. But
in the end, everyone still loves you because
they know you are a wonderful friend.
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yawn.. got darn bored.. so yar.. kinda suits me somehow.. neway life's lost its aim as usual.. lost n almost giving up.. almost.. dunno wad i holding on to.. all things seem so far away now.. here's a song
"Behind Blue Eyes"
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man, To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
[Chorus:]
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through
[Chorus]
Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
[Chorus]
No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
Thursday, June 02, 2005,15:17
finally back to post.. well.. havent been blogging these dayz coz was busy uploading photo, editting photos, n adapting to all those new shitty progs tt my dad installed in my absence.. which brings me to e pt.. bwm'05 photos up at http://www.imagestation.com/album/index.html?id=2125954435
at least those from my cam are.. from other cam de maybe later bah.. so it brings me to another point.. bwm camp 05 is a success.. at least to me.. 1 of e onli activities we've organised so far tt is truely perfect in my eyes.. muz thank all e snrs who came 4 e camp n helped wif our 16/13 : 35 ratio.. shorthanded juz isn't e way to put it.. more like no-handed =p .. so well.. to those who didnt come/didnt get to come/ couldn't come.. too bad.. u guys missed out on a great exp.. but then again.. muz thank u guys oso.. cos it realli gave me a new kinda exp.. success wif as lil ppl as possible.. hrmx
frm tis camp.. saw grp dynamics at work.. saw great planning skills.. discipline.. enthusiasm.. oh n not to 4get loyalty to skool.. tis bunch of jnrs alwayz seem to be tune-ready to sing "national dream".. kaoz.. even kenny oso wanna disown em.. lolx.. looking back.. tis camp has changed my impression of wad a training camp has to be.. i dun think tt its snrs nt fierce enuf (juz look at chok) but tt it'll all be better if jnrs realli realli co-operate.. during campfire was esp significant to me.. last campfire of proper edu life (nt tt i've been at many, but tts nt e point) e jnrs being so enthu.. looking 4ward to their life in oac to come.. n snrs (some at least) looking back n reflecting as e fire slowly begining to die out.. juz a word to snrs.. e flame may die out but there'll alwayz be ambers.. then got to put out e campfire.. almost didnt want to.. as me n xl put an end to our very last major activity.. i thot back...
y on earth did i join oac in e 1st place?! i noe tt wasn't realli e appropriate time to think of tt.. but hey.. i wasn't frm a ug, odac n wasnt realli extremly fit to begin wif.. shaun dragged me in aft like 3rd or 4th act aft orientation camp'04 (was cca-less then).. nite hike was fun so i stayed on aft JAE (n cos i didnt realli noe where else to go).. but hey.. it seems like tt was e end of my doubts.. e punishments our batch went throu under an extremely hasrh batch of snrs.. AC'04 let us work 2gether.. BWM'04 bonded us together.. elections.. well, sad to say it kinda seperated us.. invest n snrs farewell was our 1st try at planning smth.. open day (in which i was e ic) was e 1st major activity n was a complete flop.. snrs camp was n still is wad i'd relegate to poor organisation n discipline, not poor planning.. nite cycling was supremely well plan (i particularly enjoy all e non-formal recce, like hey.. how often do u get to speed around s'pore on a bike wif a handful of bike pro[at least at our lvl] who have as big an ego as urs?) but broke down due to poor handling by ppl (an advice to jnr exco if they ever read tis: LEAVE OUT, i repeat LEAVE OUT those who juz aint competent in cycling 4 tis 1.. it determines e amt of fun, exp, speed n lvl of confidence of ur fellow members.. i'm serious.. u gotta kick those who realli cmi out).. then b4 we were even ready (cos we still cant seem to be disciplined) jnrs stepped in.. orientation camp'04 was a new kinda exp.. working wif ppl u noe to facilitate maximum enjoyment 4 ppl u've hardly even met.. but as usual there were some problems here n there tt we cldn't cope well wif.. nite hike was ermz.. well planned as usual but nt well carried out.. e route got messy.. some grps didnt stick to stated routes, some got lost cos even snr dunno route (i'm 1 of those at bukit timah hill).. sry jason n esther, ur efforts went to waste.. AC'05 was so much better.. n they cld even reach stations b4 station master's allocated timing. BWM'05.. well wad need i say.. it rox?! tts an understatement.. we're finally able to get everything 2gether under juz a week of prep tt had some hiccups here n there.. n wad makes tis realli a succes was cos there was screwups along e way as usual.. but tis time round we cld deal wif em.. cassandra'z lil adventure is juz one of those.. kenny's idea of e impromptu basha game when we realised jnrs incompetence at basha building is another.. lu's injury n how e few of us didnt panick (proud lehz =p ).. o.. n muz specially mention kong n his trap-building.. started off as a new idea we all were skeptical about.. kong stayed back n stayed up day after day to do his research, to learn e traps, to try new traps.. even to e extent to accidentally cutting his finger.. when he was finally teaching snrs bout e traps it had became a totally brilliant part of e camp, a new idea brought to life n lead to success by its ic, kong.. his dedication n commitment (same thing ar? erm.. nvm larz) is esp commentable (nt juz here.. his attempt at cycling so tt he can go recce oso.. n wad bout nite hike?).. i dun regret voting u into exco man.. working wif u n e rest is simply gr8
so we'll be stepping down soon.. will miss tis kinda hectic life.. no wait.. tt sentence sounds weird.. shd be.. will miss e kinda fun u get as reprive from tis kinda hectic life.. sad?! a bit larz.. will miss e peeps.. proud?! definately!! proud of e work e exco put in; proud of e way e snrs guided e jnrs along; proud of e jnrs soon to take over..
woah long entry!!
replies:
to all: yesh! bwm rox!! it'll go down in me.. snrs, thx 4 all tt u peeps put in.. jnrs, thx 4 being there
mj: sorry we had to scratch triage, but u do make a gd faider yeah
kong: like i said above.. u did a great job.. n u're a pro faider le.. gj
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