Sunday, May 27, 2007,03:43
woah.. how time flies.. cant realli b bothered 2 update tis place.. life's in a mess now.. haha.. hrmx.. think time flew by so fast i cant realli rmb much.. look forward to weekend's book out ba.. haha.. army makes ppl stupid.. n i'm succumbing to it.. well.. e most recent self-improvement book i read was on c-chess, which i totally gave up on cuz it juz doesnt make sense.. at least all those on i-chess were better.. haha.. guess e most notable time during tis period of absense was tt i failed my btt.. lolx.. i noe all u out there muz b thinking "wtf tis guy's an idiot" but hey.. spare a thot 4 me cuz nowadays once i touch books i shd start thinking of playing chess too!! as in playing wif mr ZHOU.. haha.. so yar.. onli did some ultra last min study. which kinda brought me here.. cuz i was doing tis btt dunno-how-many-yrs series which is online tt my frien subscribed 2 for HIS btt n ftt.. got bored after trying juz 200 qns.. zzz.. makes me worry bout my uni life nxt time.. dunno how many &$%# yr nvr touch books le.. as in for knowledge.. sigh.. army makes ppl stupid
other more notable things include pool getting into e champs final for e 2nd time in 3yrs.. yar.. getting into is the word.. sigh.. didnt manage 2 watch it cuz i asked friens frm outside my bunk 2 wake me up.. n guess wad.. 1 of my ^#*%$@ bunkmate locked e bunk!!! was damn pissed e whole of e nxt day n i guess my trainees cld sense it as well.. oops.. such unprofessional behaviour.. well.. at least frm wad i read e better team did win.. so jtb pool.. time 2 "rebuild"!! perhaps he can considering playing more of gonzalez than zenden.. think he realli has potential..watched e match tt bid farewell 2 fowler.. memoriable man, given wad he's done in e past. sad it didnt end on a better note.
on e other hand.. GSS is here.. so can look 4ward 2 improving my wardrobe a bit.. everytime i see e same 4 jeans i sian diao plus have 2 start worrying bout working attire.. needa get smth formal n stop relying on my dad's super duper baggy pants.. nt tt its hip or wad.. juz erm.. u can say our sizes aint tt matching.. haha.. come 2 think of it.. i'm growing more horizontally 2 b like him alr.. nt gd at all.. damn unfit le larz.. somemore nowadays when i walk even slightly faster my heel will hurt a bit.. still havent gotten tt heel cup or wadeva it is tt e mo recommended i buy.. sigh.. my fitness
how long will tis last? tts smth even i myself cant even ans.. it all boils down btw u n dad.. i realli dun wish 2 see it happening u noe.. everytime dad brings up e matter i'd juz turn on my mp3 n lock myself in.. i dunno.. i mean yar.. i'm at fault.. wad kind of a idiot am i.. i didnt even help in e matter or wadever.. n all i do is get angry at myself n u n dad.. but then.. i'm realli afraid out here u noe.. i juz dun wanna go in n make things worse than they alr are, which i noe i'm so totally capable of n very very very likely 2.. escaping is e onli option i have n i think it finally dawned on u after like.. 1yr? but realli.. its nt tt i hate u or wad.. i juz dunno how 2 face u.. n more impt.. i dunno how 2 face myself.. sigh
so many pressing issues on my mind now.. so much 2 think bout.. so lil time.. i'm realli realli burnt out.. znais.. still i put up a front.. i juz dun wanna break down.. nt again.. nt after wad happened last time.. pluz nt under my current state.. baah baah baah.. i need some senseless fun soon.. lolx.. so looking forward 2 simpsons.. haha
oh.. i cant wait 4 comex.. my com's g-card is so damn down my monitor is juz a blank.. so now i use my dad's old laptop which has a bloody chinese os.. all inst in chinese.. can u imagine!!! ARGH!! n even his new vista laptop (which i secretly accessed cuz his password is so predictable) is in chinese.. some1 save me!! n my xbox is causinig problems alr.. my fifa06 cant even b played properly.. sigh.. n all my dad did was get a Wii w/o even asking me whether its worth it.. like hello!! i'm e main gamer in tis hse!! wth is a Wii useful of!! i want x360!! sigh.. did i mentioned i'm desperate 4 comex 2 come?! a gd com ld b nice.. esp wif starcraft 2 due late tis yr or early nxt.. lolx.. i muz sound like a spoilt kid
ba.. guess lots wun make sense of all e above.. juz dun.. lolx.. its private space after all.. if u were looking 4 smth else try gaius' blog.. its wonderful e way he writes.. pens down!! n til i feel like writing again, pls contact via sms if interested in finding company.. lolx.. i dun wanna come onto tis com!!!
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